A couple days later....

Rin's P.O.V.

Over the past couple days, I kept relapsing and finding it harder to get out of bed. Leaving Yukio to have to take care of Kimi and do his work at same time. He has tired to get me to do my schoolwork that brings home, but I'm just so unmotivated that I don't it at all. Same thing with cram school lessons and work. I have cuts down my arms and thighs, mainly my thighs, now from panic and anxiety attacks. The cram school students keep calling or texting me since I haven't gone to any of my classes since Tuesday, but I don't respond. I want to take care of and spend time with Kimi, I really do, but I can't seem to get myself to do a whole lot, not even cooking sometimes. Yukio has tried to get me to be a little happier by doing things, like talking about his day or buying me pocky. Which of course wasn't really working, and so he recommended that I go see Dr. Akane again.

Which is where we are now, in her office. Dad had come over to watch Kimi while Yukio went with me to the appointment. Yukio had checked me in and then we went to her office. Where Dr. Akane was sitting at her desk, probably filling out appointments for other patients. However, she looked at us when me and Yukio walked in.

"Nice to see you again, Rin." She said as she stood up from her desk while picking up her clipboard and a pen. I just simply nodded at her saying nothing, but showing that I wasn't trying to be rude. We sat on the couch as she sat in her chair. She was wearing a long sleeved black dress and black high heels. Her ginger hair was in half a pony tail and the rest was down, either going down her back or resting over her shoulders. "Who is this? You brought your father with you last time." She said, referring to Yukio.

"He's my brother. He has more details for when I don't want to talk, since he lives with me in the school dorms." I told her before she nodded and wrote something down.

"What's your name?" She asked Yukio.

"Yukio Okumura, ma'am." He answered.

"You live in the school dorms together. So, are you two in the same year or is one in a higher year?"

"We're twins, so we're in the same year. Though our classes are different because I'm in the special course and he is in the normal classes. So, I don't know what he's like in class, but I know how he acts outside of that." He said as I put the pillow from the couch on my lap and held it against my stomach.

"So, Rin have you felt any better or improved at all since your last visit?" She asked me. I tried to answer but got nervous, so I tried to distract myself by looking around while trying to answer. I ended up focusing on the coffee table she had between the couch and her chair. She had gotten a fidget cube and two fidget spinners on her coffee table now, along side what she had before. As well as some decorative marbles in a three tier plate thing they usually put macaroons on. She was probably was getting stimulating toys and things for patients who either needed something to keep them to sit still or give them something to keep them from having a nervous break down. "Rin?"

"No, I-I don't think I've gotten better. Just worse." I replied.

"Worse how?" She asked before I became nervous and started scratching at my left arm through my hoodie. Yukio looked sad and knew I probably wouldn't answer.

"He's starting hurt himself more and not wanting to get out of bed. He's not enjoying cooking anymore. I've tried to cheer him up, but nothing seems to work. He hasn't been able to take care of Kimi that much either or do schoolwork." Yukio told her as he took my hand from my arm and held it down on my knee to get me to stop scratching. She looked worried at what he told her and I felt embarrassed about it.

"Kimi is his child, correct?" She asked him.

"Yes, she is. She's my niece and I've been taking care of her most of the time since he's felt like this." Yukio continued to explain as I started scratching my other arm, the one Yukio was holding down on my knee by my hand.

"Okay, Rin I'm gonna need you to stop scratching. You can use on of the stimulating toys or chew on a gummy bear to get yourself to stop." She said as she point the back of her pen at the coffee table. There was the stress balls, but I didn't think squeezing something would help. There was the fidget cube, but I didn't think messing with a bunch of different things would help either. The fidget spinner probably wouldn't help either because I would have to be still and hold it while looking at it. Chewing the gummy bears probably wouldn't help either.

"No, I don't think they would help." I said as Yukio took my hand away from my arm and held it up.

"Okay, then sit on your hands." She said as she showed me what she meant. She set her pen in her clipboard and set her clipboard on her lap before moving her thighs up enough to put her hands under. Then she laid her legs in them, unable to move them.

"Okay." I said as Yukio let my hands go and I sat on my hands, but not before putting the pillow back on the couch. Then she took her hands out from under her legs to hold her clipboard and pen.

"Did any new behaviors start or some old behaviors become more intense? Like scratching at the arms."

"Yeah, I find it really hard to stop scratching at my arms or shoulders. Sometimes drawing out blood."

"Have you noticed any new behaviors in him?" She asked Yukio.

"Yes, he's started cutting himself fr-" Yukio said before I took one of my hands from under my legs and cut him off by putting my hand over his mouth.

"Yukio!" I basically shouted.

"Rin, get your hand off his mouth. Or do you need to step out of the room for a moment?" Dr. Akane said as she pointed the back of her pen towards the door.

"No, ma'am." I said as I felt embarrassed and took my hand away from Yukio's mouth. Then I put my hand back under my leg.

"Okay, then. Continue please." She said, waiting for what Yukio was gonna say.

"As I was saying." He said while fixing his glasses. His tone made me a little more embarrassed. "He has started cutting himself from things like a box cutter, razor blade, or my razor I use for shaving."

"Alright." She said as she wrote something down. She as acting more calm then I thought she would. Maybe she deals with this more then I thought. Then again she is a professional and probably knows how to act. "I'm not gonna force you to show, Rin. But it seems like Kimi is unintentionally getting hurt in this situation. I think it would be wise to have Kimi stay at your father's place until you get out of this. Before she actually does gets hurt and the law wants to intervene."

"What?!" I shouted as I stood up.

"Rin, calm down." Yukio said as he held my hoodie sleeve and looked up at me.

"I am not by any means taking her away from you completely. Just let her stay with your father for about a month and see how much progress you make. If you get better she can live you again, and if you don't, then take about another month to get better. Then repeat until you feel better and capable of taking care of her again." Dr. Akane explained as I sat back down. I rested my arms on my thighs as I held my head in my hands. I was starting to cry as well, but Yukio rubbed my back to try and calm me down.

"Is your father capable of taking care of Kimi? If not, is there any family's friends you would trust with her?" She asked Yukio.

"Yes ma'am, he's capable of taking care of her. He's healthy and in his early 50s. Our family friends even work with him and live in our home." He explained before she gave him a confused look. "He's a priest and they're his alter boys."

"Oh, now I get it." She said before standing up and setting her clipboard and pen on the coffee table. Then she crouched down on her knees in front of me before putting her hands on my knees. "Hey, it's okay. Kimi's going to be okay, she's a strong girl. It's either this or she stays with you and eventually gets taken away for good if you don't take care of yourself and her. I have two of my own, I know what it's like to worry about them. Is this going to be alright?" She said before I nodded, but still crying and hiding my face in my hands.

"We're trying to help, okay?" Yukio said.

"I know." I said as I took my face out of my hands. Then Dr. Akane stood back up and got her clip broad and pen before sitting back in her chair.

"During this time, besides healing, I would like you to find things you enjoy or enjoyed in the past. Like watching anime, playing video games, or hanging out with friends. You will be able to visit your daughter on the weekends and call your father to check up on her."

"Okay, I think I can do that." I replied as I wiped my tears off my cheeks.

"Alright. I hope you start to feel better by our next appointment." She said as me and Yukio stood up.

"Thank you, ma'am." I said as we left and she waved us goodbye as we walked out.

"Are you going to be okay?" Yukio asked me as we walk back to the dorms.

"Yeah, in the long run." After a little while we got to to our dorm and opened the door before taking off our shoes by the front door.

"Welcome back, kiddos." Dad said as we walk into the cafeteria. Where he was taking care of Kimi and had a couple of her things out. Like a play mat and a couple toys on it. Right now she was sitting on his lap while trying to chew on his pendant. He also didn't have on his priest coat either, but had on a white button up. "How do it go?"

"It went okay for the most part." Yukio replied.

"'Most part'?" He repeated back as I walked over to him to pick up Kimi.

"Come on, sweetheart. You wanna go pack a bag with me?" I asked her as I rested her against my hip. She didn't really understand, but she looked up at me with her big pretty blue eyes. As I started to walk away with Kimi, dad gave Yukio a concerned and confused look. I figured Yukio would tell him about it.

On the was to the dorm room, I got her shampoo and body wash from under the bathroom sink. When I got to my and Yukio's shared dorm room, I opened the door before getting a big bag, not my duffel bag, and putting it on my bed. I set Kimi down on my pillow before filling the bag with her shampoo, body wash, clothes, and what of hers was left in my school bag that I also use as her diaper bag. I put a few of her toys in there and a few extra of her blankets. I even got the blanket and stuffed rabbit from her crib before putting them in the bag. That is until she grabbed the blanket with her little hand.

"Ah!" She said as she looked up at me and held onto the blanket.

"You want your blanket, baby? Okay." I said before letting it go and she squeezed it against her chest. She also ended up covering her face with it too. I giggled before putting the stuffed rabbit in the bag and zipping it up. Then I picked up Kimi and rested her against my hip before moving the blanket from her face to see her looking at me. She was also nibbling on the blanket. I hung the bag on my shoulder before kissing her forehead and going downstairs to the cafeteria.

When I got to the cafeteria, I walked into the kitchen area as Yukio was talking to dad. I set the bag on the kitchen island and zipped it open before putting her milk bottles in there. I also pulled out a lunch bag before putting the frozen milk bags in there. Then I closed both bags before Kimi put her little hand against my cheek. I looked at her before kissing her on the cheek.

"Okay, I got all her stuff together." I said as I walked out of the kitchen. Kimi was resting on my shoulder and playing with the back of my hoodie.

"Alright, I get it now. Thank you, Rin." Dad said as he got done talking to Yukio and turned to look at me.

"Could I carry her to the car?" I asked him, and I guess he could tell that I wasn't completely ready to give her to him just yet.

"Yeah, but you know you can stay the weekend, right? They all miss you both, and Kimi of course. But they didn't really get to know her before you both left for True Cross." Dad said before I looked at Yukio for approval, which he nodded and made me happy.

"Alright. Then that means we need to pack two other bags."

"I'll pack them. You and dad can take Kimi's bag out to the car, as well as the car seat." Yukio said before going upstairs. Then dad got the bags I packed before I went with him to put them in the car. Dad did go back inside to get Kimi's car seat, which was by he front door, and his priest jacket. I set Kimi in her car seat and buckled her up before I got in myself beside her. Dad was already sitting in the diver's seat. Dad didn't have this car until about a year ago. Before he got it we either walked or took our bikes or the train places. He probably got the car to make it easier to go between the monastery and True Cross. Dad and Yukio didn't ride a bike, but they would try and keep up with me. I chuckled at the memory of me on my bike and leaving him and Yukio behind as they tried to catch up to me.

"What are you laughing at?" Dad asked as he looked behind the driver seat to look at me.

"Nothing." I said before letting Kimi hold onto my fingers with her small hand. Then Yukio came out of the dorm with two duffel bags and my backpack. He put the duffel bags in the trunk before sitting in the front passenger seat. Kuro was also following behind him and I opened my door for Kuro to get in before closing it.

"Here." He said as he gave me my backpack.

"Thank you." I said as I took it and set it by my feet. As dad drove to the monastery, I watched everything go by out the window while holding Kimi's hand and rubbing it with my thumb. Almost as soon as dad parked at the monastery, Izumi poked out to see what it was.

"Welcome back, sir." Izumi sad as dad got out of the car. "How are Rin and Yukio?"

"Ask them yourself." Dad said as he opened the back door to get his priest jacket. Then me and Yukio got out before I turned around to get Kimi and my backpack. And Kuro also got out before checking around the monastery.

"Guys, Rin and Yukio have come to visit!" Izumi shouted as he went back inside. Then they came out and gave us hugs. They were carful hugging me because I had Kimi. They even got our bags out of the trunk and brought them inside as we followed them in.

"So, how long are you visiting?" Naoya asked as they set down our bags near my and Yukio's bedroom door.

"Just the weekend. We have to go back on Sunday after the service for school on Monday." I replied.

"Well, I'm glad. We haven't really heard from you two since you left for True Cross." Maruta said.

"I know, and we're sorry. We've been really busy with a lot." Yukio said.

"We get that, but you could of least called to say hello." Seishiro said as he came up from behind us and ruffled my and Yukio's hair. "But since you two are now, you better tell us all about it." He said as he let go of our hair and we tried to fix our hair. Then Kimi started to try to get out of my arms to get to Seishiro.

"Kimi, you're gonna fall." I said as I held up her chest.

"Well, hi, little miss." Seishiro said as he let Kimi hold his finger, distracting her from moving further out of my arms. "Is it okay if we hold her?"

"Yeah." I said as I held her under her arms and gave her to him. She rested her head on his shoulder as he held her against his chest. He also started to rub her back. Me and Yukio put our bags on our beds before I took the lunch bag that had Kimi's milk and went to the kitchen. Then I put the milk in the freezer before closing the freezer and lunch bag. I left the lunch bag on top of the fridge before going to the living room where everyone else had gone. I sat next to Seishiro before joining the conversation.

They were just talking about how things were when me and Yukio left for True Cross, as well as some jokes. Eventually Kimi pushed herself up from Seishiro's chest and move herself towards Maruta. Seishiro noticed and tried to keep her still in his arms, but she's stubborn.

"Kimi, what are you doing?" I said a chuckled at her. She kinda looked at me before bringing her attention back to Maruta.

"I think she wants me to hold her now." Maruta said.

"Is that okay, Rin?" Seishiro asked as he looked at me for permission.

"Yeah, you guys can hold her. I trust you all." I said before Seishiro gave Kimi to Maruta. Kimi immediately cuddled into his chest and looked to be asleep.

"We better all get a turn before all three of you leave." Izumi said in a joking manner. But you could tell he was kinda serious.

"About that." I said as I rubbed the back of my neck and got all of their attention. "Kimi is going to stay with you guys for awhile, but me and Yukio will go back."

"Why's that?" Naoya asked.

"Because the doctor said I need time to heal by myself pretty much. She really didn't want Kimi to get hurt while I'm hurting and recommend that she stay with family until I feel much better."

"We're sorry, is this why you guys didn't really call?" Seishiro asked.

"It's one of the reasons." Yukio said.

"Okay, but can we please get some of your cooking, Rin? We haven't had it in forever!" Izumi said, trying to lighten the mood and getting me to chuckle.

"Yeah, sure." I said before standing up and going to the kitchen to make dinner.

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