A couple weeks later...

Rin's P.O.V.

I shot up with a gasp from my bed. I had a nightmare about that. I hid my face in my knees and covered my ears, I also wrapped my tail around me like I do with Kimi. I was panting with a cold sweat and I felt phantom hands touching my body. My neck, thighs, hips, breasts, clawing at my behind, and my-

"Rin, look at me." I heard someone say before I looked up from my knees. Yukio was by my bedside and looked worried. We had gotten back from Kyoto, so we were back in the dorms. I forgot that he was staying up a little later tonight to work on school stuff. He was in his pajamas though, which was a green t-shirt and sweat pants, and his desk lamp was on as well as his laptop.

"Take deep breaths." He said as he sat in front of me on my bed. He kept his hands in front of him where I could see them. I tried to control my breathing like he said.

"Is it okay to touch you?" He asked once I was a little more calm. I nodded as I reached for his hand. He held my hand with both of his before putting one of his hands on my shoulder.

"You're safe. You're in the dorms. You're okay." He said before I let go of his hand and hugged him. I nuzzled into the crook of his neck and I smelled the cologne he usually whore, it smelled like mint and pine trees. It calmed me down a little more as he hugged me back and he rubbed my back in comforting circles. My face felt cold against his shirt and I realized I had been crying.

"It's okay." He said as he stopped rubbing my back and started to run his hand though my hair. I held him tighter and hummed in response.

"It was just a bad dream." I said with a weak voice as I pulled out of the hug and wiped the tears off my eyes and cheeks.

"You woke up and had a panic attack, Rin. That seems like it was more then just a dream." He said before I looked away from him. "Was it about..." He said before trailing off, not wanting to say it.

"Yes." I answered as I started scratching my arm and he sighed. Then we just sat in silence before I spoke up again. "Is it okay if I sleep with you the rest of the night?"

"Yeah, I'll turn the lights out." He said before getting off my bed and turning off his lamp and laptop. He used his phone for light to get back to my bed. He set his phone and glasses on floor next to my bed as I moved so he could lay down. He laid on his back before I laid next to him on my side. I put the blanket over us and he moved it a little bit as I put my arm around him. He also put his arm around me as I laid my head on his chest.

"I guess I didn't wake up Kimi." I said to break the silence. I kinda looked in the direction of her crib.

"No, you didn't." He replied.

"Probably a good thing. How did you know how to calm me down?"

"I have been reading up on that kind of stuff. So, I could help you if anything like this happened. And I figured you didn't like to talk about what happened because you haven't said anything."

"Thank you."

"Welcome. You used to do this for me when we were younger."

"I know."

"We should probably get some sleep now."

"Yeah." I said before yawning. He rested his chin on my head as I laid my tail over his legs. We both eventually fell sleep, only to be waken up by our alarms on our phones. "Five more minutes." I groaned out as Yukio turned them off.

"Okay." He said before putting down my phone, which he probably put it on snooze. Then he wrapped both his arms around me and I turned my head away, but still laying on his chest. I didn't want to have my eyes in the sunlight. I almost fell back asleep before Kimi started to cry. Me and Yukio groaned in response.

"I got her." He said as he moved out from under and away from me. He sat on the edge of my bed before putting on his glasses and standing up. He walked over to Kimi's crib and almost as soon as she saw him, she stopped crying. "Hey." He said as he picked her up and rested her against his chest and shoulder. She had on a white ones with blue, yellow, and red star pattern. He put her blanket over her and gave her the Kyoto Tower plush I got her. She ended up putting it in her mouth. I forced myself to sit up before I started scratching my arm again.

"She's probably hungry. There's milk bags in the freezer under the fridge. I'm sure you know how to heat it up?" I said.

"Yeah, I'll feed her while you get ready." He said before I nodded and he walked out of the room, closing the door behind him. He's clearly going easy on me because of what happened last night. I wasn't really complaining about it though. He doesn't usually go super easy on me, least before I ran away. When I starting to transition, he let me have his old clothes because he had grown out of them. Some of the clothes I have currently were his clothes too. We were poor growing up and now, so it doesn't faze me or him about sharing old clothes.

I smiled at the memory before I stopped scratching my arm and realized that I had scratched my arm until it was starting to turn red. I let out a frustrated sigh before standing up and opening a couple of drawers. I got my binder, button up shirt, and black jeans before taking off my pajamas. Which was a white t-shirt, a sports bra, and blue jogger shorts. I put on the clothes before pulling out my tie and tying it around my neck. I pulled out some white socks from a different drawer before sitting on my bed and putting them on. I was starting to put on my school blazer when Yukio knocked before walking in. Kimi was hanging off his shoulder and making little noises, but Yukio had a Kyoto Tower plush in his hand.

"You okay? You see a little out of it." He said with a concerned expression.

"Y-Yeah, I'm fine. Just a little shaken up." I replied as I got my other side of the blazer over my shoulder. But that only made him more concerned.

"Do you need to stay here today? You can take today off if you need to. I can get your work from your school classes and talk to the other cram teachers. I can take Kimi with me, so you wouldn't have to stress over her too."

"No, I'll be fine. I just need some food and I'll be okay." I said as I started to scratch at my other wrist. He noticed but decided that it wasn't worth fighting me this early in the morning and with last night. "Here, I can take her now." I said as I stoped scratching and walked over to him with my hands out, ready to take her from him.

"No, how about you finish getting ready and I'll change her." He said as he kinda turned Kimi away from me. He knew I was probably just trying to avoid the situation.

"Okay, but can I least kiss her good morning?" I asked before he nodded and turned back towards me. I walked up to him before holding Kimi's little hand. "Morning, baby." I said before kissing her on the forehead and letting go of her hand. She cooed before trying to reach for me. I let out a small sigh before walking out of the room to go to the bathroom.

When I got to the bathroom, I looked at myself in the mirror and saw that I looked worse then usual. I had slight eye bags and my hair was a mess. I sighed again before brushing out my hair and brushing my teeth. I washed my face to before going to the kitchen. I made myself a simple bowel of cereal before sitting at one of the cafeteria tables. Yukio eventually came down and walked over to me.

"Hey." I said as I looked behind me to look at him.

"Hey, can you watch Kimi, so I can get ready?" He asked.

"Yeah, I can." I said before putting down my spoon and carefully getting her from his arms. Once she was in my arms, I held her sideways while supporting her head.

"I already changed her and her clothes. So, she should be okay for now." He said before I realized she was in a purple onise now.

"Thank you. And when you come back down, can you grab my school bag and her carrier?" I said before he nodded and went back upstairs. I finished my cereal before turning my attention to her. I started to talk to her and give her kisses, she would just giggle and give a toothless smile in response. When Yukio did eventually come back down, he set my school bag and Kimi's carrier beside me on the cafeteria seats. He made himself a bowel of cereal before sitting across from me. He also had his school bag next to him on the seats, but my school bag doubled as a baby bag because of Kimi. When he was done eating, he took his and my dishes before washing them in the sick. Then he helped me get Kimi into her carrier, she was on my chest.

"Are you sure you don't need to stay here today?" He asked as we were getting on our shoes. We had got the lunches I made and put them in our bags. And he had also set out some leftovers for Kuro. Who had started to live with us.

"I'm sure."

"Okay." He said, not sounding convinced. Then we left for our school day.

Time skip~~~

It was lunch period now and I feel like I do need to go back to the dorms. I have been spacing out and can't stop scratching my arm at times. A habit I realize now that I started doing after that, and stopped eventually before Kimi was born. I had almost broke the skin, but I was able to stop myself before I actually did. I felt like I was putting Kimi in danger and I needed to find Yukio. We usually had lunch together on the benches by the trees and bushes. When I got there, I sat next to him and set my school bag on the concrete pathway next to me. He was already starting to eat, but stopped when I sat down. He was just looking at me with a even more concerned expression then this morning.

"I think I do need to go back to the dorms." Was the only the thing I said before he swoled his mouth full of food.

"Okay. Guessing I need to take Kimi with me?" He said as he closed his bento box.

"Yeah." I said before he stood up and helped get Kimi. Then I helped him get the holder fixed, so that Kimi was on his chest.

"Do you need me to walk you back?" He asked.

"No, I'll be fine." I said before I started walking back to the dorms. I spaced out on the way, but still made it there. I took off my shoes by the front door and Kuro was happy to see me. He started to rub his small body against my legs. I stumbled through the hallways and leaned on the wall. I couldn't make out what Kuro was saying, but I heard his little meows behind me. I did eventually make it back to our dorm room and got my phone from my back pocket before setting it next to my pillow. I barely got out of my school uniform and back into my pajamas. I turned on the fan, which we had left plugged in, before clasping on my bed. I was sweaty and panting, and I didn't want to move anymore. Kuro climbed on my bed and laid next to my hips before I fell asleep.

When I woke up, I left like I was hungover. I grabbed my phone to check the time and it was 5:37. Meaning that cram was over and Yukio should be back at six. Not only that, I had 1 miss call form Bon, 4 from Shima, and 3 from Yukio. Bon was the only one that left a voice message. I groaned before calling Yukio back, but missed his contact and called Shima instead. He did pick up after a couple of rings.

"Hey man, you okay? Bon said you weren't in your health class." Shima said. Bon is the only cram student that I share an actual school class with, which is health.

"I just had a bad night and couldn't come today." I said as I picked up my head and held it up on my hand.

"Kimi wouldn't sleep?"

"You could say that."

"Okay, just wanted to make sure you were okay."

"I am."

"Alright, I'll let you go then. Bye."

"Bye." I said before hanging up. Then I checked Bon's voice message.

"Hey, you weren't in class today. I know I said some bad things to you in the past, but I want to know if you're doing okay. You don't usually miss your classes. Anyway, call me back if you can." Said the voice message before stopping. I sighed before deciding I would call him back after I called Yukio. Which I clicked on his contact before putting my phone to my ear, which he picked up after two rings.

"I tired calling you earlier, but you wouldn't pick up. Are you okay?" He said as soon as he picked up the phone.

"I don't know. I came back before passing out on my bed. I don't think I'll be able to cook tonight either."

"You passed out?"

"Not exactly, but I did sleep though everyone's calls."

"You else called?"

"Bon called because I wasn't in health class, and Shima called to see if I was okay."

"Alright. Do you want me to pick something up for dinner?"

"Yeah, but I think pizza will have to do."

"Okay, sounds good."

"Was Kimi okay after I gave her to you?"

"Yeah, she's been behaving."

"Okay, good. I'll see you when you get here."

"See you." He said before hanging up. The rest of the night went okay. We had pizza, but I didn't eat much. I did call Bon back, he made sure I was okay before we hang up. Kimi went to sleep okay and Yukio got most of his homework done. When it came to me and him going to bed, I couldn't sleep. And I eventually sat up on my bedside.

"You okay?" Yukio asked in a tired voice. No doubt that he was almost asleep. He was laying on his back with the blanket to his chest and his arms over his stomach.

"Yeah, just going to the bathroom." I said as tears started to go down my cheeks. Then I went to the bathroom before leaning against the counter. I was breathing heavily and felt those hands again all over this time. Especially around my hips and area. And the entire scene playing though my head. I wanted to make it stop before I got a hold of Yukio's razor he used to shave. I stumbled towards a stall before falling against the stall wall. I put the razor against my forearm, and you can guess what I did. I didn't care, I wanted this to stop. My heart almost skipped a beat when I heard a knock at the bathroom door.

"Rin, you okay in there? You've been in there awhile." He said before I stoped what I was doing. I looked at my arms and saw the rigged lines and the blood trying to go down my arms. It stung, it really stung. "Rin? I'm coming in okay?" He said before opening the door. I became even more panicked as he went to the stall I was in. I had left the door open.

"Rin!" He said he kneeled next to me. He had a baby monitor with him and his glasses on. I covered my face with hands, and he put his hands on my wrists. "Look at me." He sad before I shook my head. He let out a frustrated sigh in response. "You have to look at me." He said as he moved my hands from my face. I only started to cry harder. He only stared at my arms for a few minutes.

"Why did you do this?" He asked while holding my hands.

"I-I don't know!" I said as I started to cry harder. My breathing became more rapid too.

"Rin, you have to calm down."

"I c-can't!" I said as my breathing became faster and he became more worried.

"Shh-Shhh, it's okay. I got you." He said as he gently rubbed my hands. It calmed me down a little more before Kimi started to cry though the baby monitor. I moved away from him before looking at the monitor. But he put his hand on my chin to get me to look back at him. "She's okay, she just woke up. Focus on your breathing."

"Don't touch me like that." I said as I through his hand away from my chin. He didn't get mad and only waited for me to calm down. "I-I'm a danger to Kimi, I c-can't have her."

"Yes, you can have her." Yukio said before I got a little more control of my breathing. I was somewhat calmed down.

"C-Call dad."

"I will." He said as he half hugged me and ran his hand though my hair. I buried my face in his chest.

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