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"Dear Bir,

If you are reading this, it means I'm gone. I know my illness is not getting any better and I would be gone soon. Hence, this letter.

Don't think that I'm leaving you because I'm not. You are not alone. You have someone, your family.

You have someone in this world that you consider as hell. No I'm not talking about your father or mine. I'm talking about your twin sister.

Yes son, you read it right. You have a twin sister. I have a daughter. She is mine. She is a part of me; a part that I have to give away because of my mistakes.

I met your dad through a friend whom I considered my best friend. I didn't know about his nature at first, she did and yet she introduced me to him.

That was my first mistake, not understanding the real nature of people.

Your dad swept me away from this world. Our love meant so much to me but not to him. Though a stupid part of me still believes that all of it was not a lie, but then again I'm known for my stupidity.

Anyways, why am I telling you the same story again, which I told you earlier? Because I want you to understand your mother's actions. Not now when you are a kid, but may be one day when you are all grown up, you could possibly understand me after reading this letter.

I fell in love with wrong person. That was not that big mistake. Because we all love and get hurt if our choice is wrong.

But I hurt my dad for him. That was my second mistake.

When dad didn't give us permission, we ran away. I was hoping for a simple life. Money didn't matter to me. It should never matter in any relationship. But not everyone thinks the same.

We got married but I didn't realise that I didn't have any copy of our marriage certificate. I left these matters in your dad's hands as I never handled paperwork. Not even at my father's place.

Few months into marriage I realised that your dad is not exactly the man I fell in love with. He understood that my dad won't bent down and that triggered him.

He never raised any hand on me. That was the good thing about him. He was greedy but not abusive. May be that's why I tolerated everything and ignored him coming home late and sudden disappearances to other city.

I was shocked when I heard that about my husband married some other woman. That's when I understood why he kept me away from society. That's when I started looking for our marriage certificate and realised that I don't have one.

I confronted him, and he refused to any such thing claiming that they were rumours and sweet talked to me and like a fool I believed him again. And we started happily again. He said he was busy with setting business in other city.

I was such a big fool. But think from my point of view son, I trusted my husband, the man I loved and left my father for, over some random people's words? Was it wrong? I didn't have any resources to go into another city and check out other people's words nor did I have any courage.

I heard words and ignored them. But one day I couldn't take it anymore. It was the day I got to know that I'm pregnant. I finally confronted him and he said that yes it was true. Because he was fed up with me I guess and was looking for a way out.

He has married someone else in other city and she just gave birth to his first daughter. He told me that he didn't need me anymore. I was his mistake. Everything that happened was a mistake.

My whole world was shattered. I accept my mistake for being stupid but please try not to blame me for falling in love with him. It was not my mistake to not see his true face which he has hidden so well.

That day I questioned him how could he marry someone else when he already has a wife? Neither our religion nor law gave him that right... And you know what he did? He laughed, saying that he doesn't care about religion and no law could stop him as I don't have any proof of our marriage.

Saying that he left, threatening me to not contact him ever again and let him move on. His business was now well established with his other wife's help.

So what was I to him? The thought disgusted me so much that I thought of ending my life but I couldn't. Life is a valuable present from Almighty. He will never give you more problems than you could handle. Also, now I had my baby to take care of.

And so I decided to call my father but he was so angry with me for leaving him and tarnishing his name. He scolded me so much. He told me that I was dead for him. I don't blame him. The pain in his voice was so visible that I couldn't say anything more.

I have tarnished his name by eloping once, what will happen if he has a pregnant daughter without any husband, sitting at his home? He will accept me for my pregnancy but could I do that to him? Could I hurt him more than I already did? No, I can't. Not before I have some legal proof regarding our marriage so that I could ask for divorce.

It was then I decided to take matters in my hand and started searching for any evidence regarding our marriage, not for myself but to take care of my future baby. He or she should get their father's name. They deserved it.

I was later told that I was having twins and I didn't know whether to be happy or to cry? I remember dad telling mom had twins as elder brothers but they didn't survive premature delivery as the medical facilities were not good that times.

I decided to be happy because if anything happens to me, my kids will have each other by their side. But I still needed to secure future of my babies. So, I finally gathered my courage and discreetly contacted registration office and started the process for getting copy of our marriage licence. I got one copy when I was eight months pregnant. I was happy that now I have legal proof against your father.

So I called him and told him to meet me for one last time. He came and I told him that I have the legal proof and that he can't escape now. His business is the most important thing to him and his reputation will be shattered if I showed the proof about our marriage to everyone.

He was shocked to see the proof and also to know about my pregnancy and the first thing he suggested was if it's too late for abortion?

When I said that it was late and even if it was not I would never do that, he told me to give him some time and promised me that he will not let injustice happen to his kids and I thought that may be for his kids he might change.

That was my third mistake.

One which I will regret every day till I die and may be even after it.

For one month he supported me and when I was in labour I called him. I gave birth to the two most beautiful babies in the world. You have my eyes, our family's signature blue eyes; you were my copy and had an innocent smile on your face.

But my daughter, my first born, she was the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. Even though she looked like him, she was my daughter. She had these light brown eyes and small baby hairs and the pinkest cheek you could ever see in a baby. I knew that she will grow up to be a beautiful woman.

I held her in my hands for few minutes Bir, and those are till this day the most beautiful minutes of my life.

I love you son but she... She claimed a part of my heart where no man could ever enter.

But then he came into the room, with few papers in his hands. I was alarmed because I knew that look.

He saw you both and then said that my threats won't work on him. That he could easily deny the creditability of our marriage certificate. He was strong now. He has connections. He has power and I was nothing now without any support. He even said that he would drag my dad in this.

And then he offered me the worst deal any man could offer a mother, He told me that he will take away my daughter, because she looked like him and raise her as his own in this society in return for my silence.

I refused. I strongly did but then he reminded me about my struggles that I have to face as a single woman in past few months. I did not have any male support in my life and because of that I have to face a lot. That was when I was a grown up but what will happen if I have to raise a daughter in this environment, with no father figure in her life?

Kabir, tell me how many times you have to face questions regarding your father as a kid and you will be asked, always. A boy may answer these questions strongly but our society won't let a girl live peacefully. I know this as a woman who has faced those questions about her husband in past few days. I can't let the same happen to my girl.

I could fight with this man but I couldn't win. That was the bitter truth. The mother inside me won over the wife.

And hence I compromised. I signed that confidentiality contract stating that I could not, under any circumstances, mention about my daughter to any living soul. Nor could I speak about my relation with him.

He promised me that she will be raised in his house as his daughter. He will provide everything for her. She will have father and mother. And even though it ripped my heart to think that my daughter will call someone else her mother, I did that. I let her go.

It doesn't mean I love her any less nor do I love you less. I love you both equally. You both are my kids, but I know that to survive in the society we are living, girls need to be extra strong, independent and protected. Yes, I'm saying protected because they need extra protection at least while they are growing up and can take of themselves on their own.

I was fortunate to have a father and he raised me right when my mother left us. Disappointing him would be my regret, always.

But son, I'm telling you the entire truth today not to burden you but to assure that even though you think I have left you alone, I haven't. You have your sister and she needs you but you need her more.

I know you won't go to your father or my father if something happens to me but you have to. Meet your sister, get to know her.

Her name is Sanaa. I know that much. I have seen her from afar, few times but not from last four years because of my illness. She must have grown up to be a beautiful girl now and will become a beautiful woman in future. Take care of her.

You are still small now, son. Grow up, see the world, look around, find a girl when you grow up, fall in love with her and treat her right.

Just remember that you have a sister in this world and you are not alone even when I'm not with you.

I know your anger Bir, I have seen it and it sadly reminds me about your father and that scares me so much. I know that you might plan to take revenge and I also know that nothing I could say could possibly stop you.

But promise me one thing Bir, if you ever meet your sister then you won't tell her the truth about your relationship with her because your father is very powerful and he will go to any extent to keep his reputation intact.

I have seen his power. I was at the receiving end of it. I felt like I was so close to winning over him yet I lost, I lost badly. I lost my daughter to his power. But promise me son that you won't tell her anything before you become more powerful than him.

Remember Bir, All in time.

So don't tell her anything before the right time.

And if one day she gets to know the truth tell her that I love her equally as I love you and that she is special and she should never blame herself for any decision I took. I chose her before me, and I don't regret it. She will understand this when she will have her own kids.

Give her this letter when the right time comes, so that she may understand her mom's decisions which even though were deeply flawed, were filled with nothing but love for her and for you.

I love you both, Kabir and Sanaa.

I love both of my kids more than anything in this world and I wish for nothing but the brightest future for both of you.

And I trust my kids enough to know that they will have that despite of any obstacle they might face.

With lots of love,

Your mother,

Aayat.

***

Sanaa was in tears as she read the letter. She wasn't going to judge her mother. Her mother deserved all love and respect for standing so strongly even after everything and giving her an amazing brother who taught her so many things.

"She was amazing. Our mom was amazing." Sanaa said and Kabir nodded as he read the letter after so many years. Now after so much time has passed, he really was seeing everything in different light.

She wanted to ask for other stuff related to her mother but then saw the ring that Bir gave her saying that it was his mother's.

She realised all the different stuff he gave her, all his teachings and realised that indeed Kabir tried his best to fill that position without telling anything directly.

"Sweetie pie. I'm hiding something else from you." Kabir said looking ahead.

"You found someone." Sanaa said.

"And you do not want me to meet her. That's the reason for making me angry all the time right?" Sanaa asked shaking her head at his antiques.

"That and other too. I was going through a lot regarding Mr. Malik's company and I didn't want to trouble you when you were pregnant. So, I had to create distance." Kabir admitted.

"When can I meet her?" Sanaa asked and now Kabir was alarmed because if she met his sunshine then everything will come out and his sunshine is now not ready.

She is heavily pregnant and can't take any stress.

One month.

He needs just one month till she gives birth and then he will tell her everything and introduce her to his sweetie pie.

Sanaa saw many expressions passing on her face and didn't know what to say as now he was making her scared. Just what did he do to that girl?

"One month and then I will introduce you both." Kabir finally said and Sanaa shook her head feeling disturbed.

"Please sweetie pie. I'm requesting you something, for the first time. Give your Bir sometime and trust me on this one." He begged and Sanaa finally nodded, knowing well that she wouldn't like him to interfere between her and Rehan's relationship. So she should do the same.

As they were walking away Sanaa asked one last doubt, "Do I know her?"

"See for yourself when you meet her." Kabir said hiding his feelings carefully and kissed her forehead before leaving.

One month before he sorts out the second big plan of his life.

***

This was emotional and intense. As I have written, no one should judge their mother, Aayat. She loved, she lost and she learnt.

And now, What's next? Once again few lines,

It should be easy but it isn't.

Walking away from her would have been a good choice for both of them.

But he didn't.

Just some lines from prologue. Read the prologue once again and fasten your seat belts because, it's going to be one hell of a ride.

And as Kabir once said, No one knows the truth. No one can understand. The past is too complicated...

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