-Your P.O.V-

My mouth gapes open as I try to think of a response.

Why have G and I never spoken like this sooner? I never knew he was so like, smart, with stuff like this.

"...I don't know what I'm feeling." I let out a broken whisper as a tear falls.

Grayson just looks at me and stays silent.

I break down.

-Grayson's P.O.V-

After a night of deep conversations with (Y/N), I find myself finally back at my own place.

Karma still seems to be out.

I walk up to the bathroom and stand in front of the mirror.

Removing my jacket, I let it just fall to the tile floor as I stand still, staring at whatever it is in that reflection that's looking back at me.

I'm so confused about everything. I've never felt anything like this before. Why am I thinking these things?

I hate it.

I hate myself.

My breath becomes heavy.

My eyes start stinging how they do when you're about to cry.

(a/n: trigger warning for self harm. my apologies in advance. i'm hoping i didn't make anything too detailed!)

"I can't take this!" I yell to no-one.

Punch, shatter, punch, shatter.

The pattern repeats itself as I keep punching the mirror with my bare fists hoping to somehow take away what was looking back at me.

My already bruised knuckles start to become red.

I grab my hair and just scream and yell and cry and scream and cry and yell and do anything to try and take me out of this hell hole I've found myself burried in.

Am I hearing footsteps?

"Grayson, are you-" Karma stumbles in and stops, examining everything.

I look at her with heavy breathing as I blink, trying to help my mind fall back to the ground.

She just looks at me, shocked.

"Did...you do this?" She asks me, hesitantly walking closer towards me.

I cough to stop her from hearing my voice crack but to no avail.

"Y-Yes." I nod.

It's as if I could feel my twin's heart become burdensome. She pulls me into a hug and I hug her back.

After bandaging my hands and fingers, K sits me down on the edge of the bathtub.

"What-what made you do this, Grayson?" She tries her best to not get upset.

"I-I don't know, I'm just...feeling. So much. I'm feeling so much and-and I don't know what to do with any of it."

"Oh my god, your hands are bruised already." Karma notices my black and blue knuckles.

"Oh, uh, no. No, they were already like that." I nervously chuckle.

"Wh-What? G, what happened?" K looks up at me, wanting an answer.

I clear my throat before telling my sister everything that's happened recently.

Everything I was too worried to actually say out loud. Everything I did these past weeks and everything that's happened to me.

She looks at me straight in the eyes.

"G, why didn't you tell me sooner?" She asks.

I don't know. I don't know why I didn't tell anybody sooner. Guess I was just scared of the outcome.

I didn't like what I did. I don't know what made me feel that way or even respond like that.

Something is wrong with me, I keep telling myself.

Karma takes me out of my thoughts.

"Why haven't the press said anything about what you did?"

"I'm not sure...it was pretty late. There wasn't many people around, it all happened so fast-"

"Ugh, does (Y/N) know?" Karma face palms.

"What? N-No, she can never find out-"

K interrupts me again. "Grayson! You have to tell her. This is killing you."

"Quit being so dramatic, Karma." I murmur.

"I'm not over-reacting to this. Look at you."

My head turns to one of the broken mirror pieces lying on the tile flooring and I take a good look at the figure staring back at me.

My hand clenches.

"Fine. I'll tell her...later."

-Your P.O.V-

I cried in front of Grayson Anderson today.

Not just cried, broke down. That's not something I ever thought I'd share in front of G.

I just wish he'd open up more to me.

Boxing? Since when?

He has been more...aggressive recently I guess.

I brush off my thoughts as I get a text from Tyler.

"no update on josh yet. sorry (y/n)."

My heart breaks a bit more each time I get this text.
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A/N: yo
hope u all enjoyed this chapter,
i'm going to a football game w my friend tonight & like
i hope i have fun around all those people bc usually im just anxIOUS lmao
anyway thanks 4 reading
stay rad
-b