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"You are an angel, Amor - don't fall just because of dirty desires. You have to be strong and fight them... You must not lose your innocence no matter what."

"But what about the other part of the Daedalus' curse?... What if I lose someone I love, Master?"

"So you want to lose your freedom and wings instead?"

"No... No, I need them so I can show Magician all the beautiful views from the heights..."

"Good boy."

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Good boy... I really wanted to be one and be praised for it. Although I already understood all of those words were ugly manipulation, so they could use my angelic abilities when I grow up; every world has its dark side; my mind was still successfully imprisoned, because that blood curse was the only thing I was really afraid of... even if there was certainly some powerful hidden clue behind it.

Pure love is supposed to conquer fear... but what happens if I lose the greatest sign of my innocence? What happens if I fall?

"Can't you just help me right now, my Rose?"

Ashamed by the unusual tone of my voice that stuck in my head and reminded me of Beomgyu's panicked expression, I bit on my narrowed lips, hugged my calves and curled my chin to my knees... my eyes fixed on the wooden floor, projecting the single exciting yet so embarrassing scene round and round. 

"Don't talk nonsense..."

Everyone respected my will to keep my angel wings... and Beomgyu had the strength not to cross that line even when I groped him like a greedy animal in a daze. I have never wanted him more...

Lust had already burned and tickled me painfully before, but when I smelled his sweet floral scent and heard his voice, it intoxicated me even more... I needed more.

To play with his hair... more.

To wrap my arms around his waist... tighter.

To kiss and cherish his lips so bad... and much more.

More... more... more.

"I can not be a virgin forever, anyway."

"You are doomed to lose a part of yourself or your beloved one."

The suggested curse echoed through my mind, splashed my thoughts alike the chilly water I was thrown into and painted my cheeks red. I felt so small.

"No way did I say anything like that... No," I hissed, shook my head in disagreement and slowly reached for the pillow on the bed behind me, so I could bury my flushed face in it. 

Why this? Why do I have to remember just-this and this only? 

My long sigh just warmed the soft pillowcase, when a patient, quiet knock was heard through the small cozy room of a house built in the treetops. I raised my head and looked at the round door, overgrown with ivy, that was slowly opening inwards.

At first I didn't see anyone, but then a hairy head curiously peeked in.

"Can I?"

Beomgyu's glowing button-like eyes settled on me, and as soon as I gave him a gentle nod, he walked inside and carefully closed the door behind him. Getting on his knees he got closer to me and placed some bag between us.

He gradually began to pick its contents out from it... a basket with fragrant pastries, cutlery and a tin lunch box.

"I know that you are probably able to survive on our eternal love and be warmed by it," he started with witty exaggeration while prudently opening the box, "but yeah - you've been away from us and alone for too long, so I made you some tasty soup."

I let go of the pillow, so I could take over the tin bowl with both of my hands. Beomgyu's colorful and warm display of affection instantly brought a soft smile to my lips. 

"Thank you...," I told him quietly to at least show him some of my warm gratitude. Then I grabbed a spoon and started slowly sipping the still quite hot vegetable soup. 

"Mhm." 

While I tried to fill my contracted stomach, Beomgyu crossed his legs and put his hands on his thighs, looking around the cozy room.

Noticing the disturbing tension that was straightening his back and fingers tapping his bare knees, I understood there was something untold on his tongue. 

After a while I let out a sigh, put the food aside and gave the concerned fairy questioning gaze... even though I knew what was probably going through his mind. 

The dryad avoided my look again and moved it to the floor, wrapping a strand of dark hair around his finger. 

"... are you still mad at me?" 

Still mad at him? That left a grin of amusement in my eyes... He knew very well that I could not be angry with him for so long. That wasn't it. "Do I look like I am...?" I giggled briefly. I felt more like I wanted to bury myself under the ground. 

Beomgyu shook his head, slightly biting on his lip. 

Hoping he won't come back to what he really wants to say, I bent down to the bowl to take another sip: "How is Taehyun?" 

Wrong move. 

"If only you would let him untie your inner child, Kai. He cannot cross that line against your will... and he wouldn't cross it even if he could, but if you make the decision-"

The spoon clinked against the bowl.

With a deep sigh I leaned my head back on the bed and closed my eyes, digging my fingers into pale gold hair.

"Tae could pull out the weeds that have taken root in you and we would plant something new.

Something really beautiful, I swear," Beomgyu continued. 

When he put his palms on mine to gently pull them down and intertwine our fingers, I raised my head and looked into the kind eyes of the inner bloom fairy kneeling in front of me.

"Love is not your weakness, Hyuka. You know it's your greatest power. The pixie dust incident was a blessing in misery... dangerous way to shake our ancient blood and move us towards buried desires."

Says the one who was protected by the Mother Nature and Father of Wisdom themselves...

... Damnit, this feeling again - I think I'm forgetting something important.

"Can we just... not talk about it?" I asked for mercy.

However, Beomgyu still did not let up: "You already showed him so much of you... why not this?"

"Because we already have many other things we enjoy so much together, Beomgyu. That's how we are, we don't need more. Releasing this shadow... it could be all gone in a flash." 

Could be... a child's lie disguised in silence sat between us. Of course we needed more. 

Everyone, and especially this beautiful spiny Rose, was aware that these were beliefs rooted in fear... in fact, no one could know what would really happen if I decided to break the curse... what was hiding behind that thick fog created by adults who tried to rule me. 

"... but what about us? When you almost lost Yeonjun, it affected us all too...," Beomgyu's deep voice weakened and shaky stars in his eyes wandered to our hands he played with. "We are all in this together..." 

That morning I was really scared to death that I had failed... that I had completely lost the Firefly exactly after the night in which I was almost able to give him everything of my love just to keep him from leaving... but I didn't. 

"I just- I just need a little more time." 

Such words seemed to finally calm him down a little. He nodded his head, conjuring a soft smile. Then it slowly revealed his teeth and he proudly patted my hands, before he got to his feet and adjusted his leather vest. 

"If Tyun's enthusiasm for flying means so much and you might not be able to fly forever, how about you teach me? Because, to be honest, Taehyun would probably know, but I have no idea how to use this right," Beomgyu chuckled, his nervous laughter accompanied with the soft tinkling of the butterfly wings which sprouted from his shoulder blades. 

Greenish wings with deep pink eyes in their arches... Actually, I've never seen such an extraordinary color and shape before... not even the prince by blood and his nine knights, counting my sister and her girlfriend, had such unique wings. 

Each of us left someone there... but my curse still lingered and that meant Bahiyyih was still alive - the random thought and the memory of teaching my younger sister to fly soothed me, encouraged me to stand up and give Beomgyu a kind admiring smile.

"Why not? It could be fun, I already have some experience in teaching after all," I agreed, now confidently gesturing my hands and raising my eyebrows that underlined the excitement in my eyes. 

"Oh! Let me just-" 

I crouched to the ground and quickly began to pack the food back into the bag, then hung it over my shoulder. The amused lover who brought it for me openly chuckled at the sudden change of my mood. 

"You're so cute," he stated as soon as our eyes met again. 

"And you're gorgeous. Let's go!" I nodded my head towards the door and walked over to it. 

Confused? Beomgyu immediately followed me anyway. 

"What? How am I supposed to react to this?" he laughed losing all his seriousness in shyness and joy. 

"Just don't. My brain had a difficult day and now it is even lost in that tasty soup you made for me. I really can not be more romantic right now, I want to eat it as soon as possible." 

"Hahah, understandably. I am very proud of my achievements today~" 

"As you should," I also burst into suppressed laughter. 

And on that funny note, the ivy-covered door closed... 

... for the time being, leaving all worries and shame behind them. 

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Goooosshhhh, I almost lost my sanity XDDD why is this chapter 1600 words long?!! Whatever, I hope you enjoyed it ifweof. I slightly hit the fourth wall just like that in Kai's line about him being romantic lol... we all love romantic Kai (we love all versions of Kai actually), but the heat, hunger and sudden complications in this chapter were killing my brain, so I decided to end it on some funny note XDD except that... I really hope you liked Kai's revealed secret... now you know the truth, hehe. But don't worry, everything will be solved at the right time x33 seeyou, Pixieees <33