Have you ever had a major crush on a person you know you can never have?

Yeah? Me too buddy.

I'm feeling that way at this moment. Actually I've felt that way for a while.

See, I like someone. And the sad thing is, I think I told them too late.

So great fucking job Garcia, you have the best timing ever in the history of crushes.

In all honesty I wish I could forget. Forget these feelings, the memories, because it makes the pain much much worse. And even then, I want them to be happy. I truly want them to be happy.

But you know how you see them somewhere, like maybe the halls, or streets or at a park or something with another person and you're watching them.

And you're smiling on the outside, but on the inside your heart is tearing itself apart, because you wish you could have them.

And you can't. You can't have them. Can't be selfish for one moment. You can't allow yourself to hurt someone for the sake of your own happiness because you care about them too much to allow yourself that simple thing.

I'd never wish this feeling on anyone. It's one of the worst feelings ever. And as those bitter feelings churn in the pit of your stomach you slowly come to the realization that you have to let them go.

Because even though they used to have feelings for you, you can't hold on to the hope that you're clinging onto to tightly.

Because that hope makes your heart flutter and your face flush, and when you're hit by the truth each time, that hope dims more and more. And it kills you in the process.

Because the more you think about them, the more you wish you could just be...alone.

And even then, when you think about their laugh, their smile, their eyes, you can't keep your heart from breaking slightly.

You know you were too late, and you wish you were able to tell them sooner. I guess most people feel this way too right?

That you missed your only chance because of a fear that swallows you whole. And when you finally have that small ounce of courage and let your feelings out on the table, they are ignored. And you're left wondering what you did wrong, when in reality you did everything right, just not at the right time.

I really hate myself right now. Because maybe if things were different, I'd be happy.