I feel terrible for just dumping my issues here but I need to talk about it even if no one will listen ya know

so I have this crush on this girl I've known for about a year. She's cute and funny and I love her.
She's dating a boy and straight and like that's not an issue I'm really happy for them

But she has this other friend who texts her a lot. He's specifically said he liked her and she's like :/// cause she doesn't like him back. But like he sent her a shirt with her fursona on it and he talks constantly to her and it makes me kskckskfk jealous hhhhhhhh

+ I have this other friend who literally makes me angry without even saying anything. Idk I just hate her sm but I have to be nice to her.
So her and my crush are roleplaying smth and everytime they bring it up I literally get sick to my stomach.

Like I just despise it SO much that I get sick.

and I want to tell my crush how I feel cause I don't think it would get bad I guess I'm just worried that it'll make things awkward

I just i don't know what to do...

I wish things were back to the way they were when we didn't talk to that girl who makes me sick. Or that kid never texted my friend cause now he has a 100% more chance of getting with her if things don't work out with her current boyfriend cause she's straight and he has a penis kskdkdkdkfowkgkskgkwkgkdkgkwkkfk