If I die young

Divergent-Allegiant

This one isn't a character singing but the song added in to the final chapters of Allegiant.

Warning: spoilers if you haven't read Allegiant.

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If I die young bury me in satin 
"Caleb," I say. "Give me the backpack 
Lay me down on a bed of roses 
"Tris, no." He shakes his head.
"No, I won't let you do that." 
Sink me in the river at dawn 
"Caleb," I say,
"I love you."
 Send me away with the
words of a love song  
His eyes gleam with tears as he says,
"I love you, too, Beatrice."  
Uh oh uh oh 
"If I don't survive," I say,
"tell Tobias I didn't want to leave him." 
Lord make me a rainbow,
I'll shine down on my mother 
The death serum smells
like smoke and spice 
She'll know I'm safe with you when 
and my lungs reject it with
the first breath I take 
She stands under my colours,  
I cough and splutter, and I am
swallowed by darkness.  
oh and 
The thread tugs harder, 
Life ain't always what you
think it oughta be, no 
and I stoke the flame with names. 
Ain't even grey, but she
buries her baby 
Tobias. Caleb. Christina.
Matthew. Cara. Zeke. Uriah. 
The sharp knife of a short life, 
It would be nice to float away,
a voice in my head says.
To see where I will go . . . 
But the fire, the fire. The desire to live. 
I am not done yet, I am not. 
Well, I've had just enough time 
"Don't move," David says, raising his gun.
"Hello, Tris." 
If I die young bury me in satin. 
"My mother wasn't a fool," I say.  
Lay me down on a bed of rose 
"She just understood something you didn't. 
Sink me in the river at dawn 
That it's not sacrifice if it's someone
else's life you're giving away, it's just evil." 
Send me away with the
words of a love song 
I twist and lunge toward the device.
The gun goes off and pain
races through my body.
I don't even know where
the bullet hit me. 
The sharp knife of a short life, 
The gun goes off again...
So much pain. 
Well I've had just enough time 
I start to fall, and slam my hand
into the keypad on my way down.
A light turns on behind the green button. 
And I'll be wearing white when
I come into your kingdom 
I slide to the floor. I feel something
warm on my neck, and under my cheek.
Red. Blood is a strange color. Dark. 
I'm as green as the ring on
my little cold finger 
And my mother walking out
from behind him. 
I've never known the lovin' of a man 
"Tris went into the Weapons Lab
instead of Caleb," Cara says.
"She survived the death serum,
and set off the memory serum, but she . . .
she was shot. And she didn't survive.
I'm so sorry." 
But it sure felt nice when he
was holding my hand 
I go to see her body I squeeze Tris's hand,
praying that if I do it hard enough,
I will send life back into her body,
everything inside me screams for
just one more kiss, one more word,
one more glance, one more. 
There's a boy here in town says
he'll love me forever 
"Tobias?" I shudder a little. It's Caleb 
Who would have thought forever
could be severed by 
"She told me that if she didn't survive,
I should tell you . . ." Caleb chokes,
then pulls himself up straight, fighting off tears.
"That she didn't want to leave you." 
The sharp knife of a short life, 
My mother is dressed in the same
clothes she wore the last time I saw her 
Well I've had just enough time 
like she's frozen in time.
Her dull blond hair is tied back in a knot,
but a few loose strands frame her face in gold. 
So put on your best boys and
I'll wear my pearls 
I know she can't be alive,
but I don't know if I'm seeing her now
because I'm delirious from the blood loss
or if the death serum has addled my thoughts
or if she is here in some other way 
What I never did is done 
"Hello, Beatrice," she says, and she smiles. 
A penny for my thoughts, oh no
I'll sell them for a dollar 
"Am I done yet?" I say,
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner 
"Yes,"
"My dear child, you've done so well." 
And maybe then you'll hear the
words I been singin' 
"What about the others?" 
Funny when you're dead how
people start listenin' 
"Tobias, Caleb, my friends?" 
If I die young bury me in satin 
"They'll care for each other,"  
Lay me down on a bed of roses 
"That's what people do." 
Sink me in the river at dawn 
I smile and close my eyes.
Send me away with the words of a love song 
I feel a thread tugging me again, but this time
I know that it isn't some sinister force
dragging me toward death. 
Uh oh (uh oh) The ballad of a dove 
This time I know it's my mother's hand,
drawing me into her arms. 
Go with peace and love 
And I go gladly into her embrace. 
Gather up your tears,
keep 'em in your pocket  
Can I be forgiven for all I've done
to get here? 
Save 'em for a time when your
really gonna need 'em oh 
The sharp knife of a short life, 
I want to be. 
Well I've had just enough time 
I can. 
So put on your best boys, and I'll wear my pearls 
I believe it.

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There you go.  Another sad fanfic song one-shot.  Mabey the next one will be happy.  What do you guys want?

Your comments area greatly appreciated.

Sianara