Should be read as if in Newt's pov

I was supposed to hold them together

I didn't want to tear them apart

I had to leave

I had to

I couldn't let them see me

To see the shell I knew I was

To see the insanity that overwhelms me

I could feel it

It clouded my mind

It controlled my body

It tortured me

Slowly killing me from the inside

I'd tear at my skull

As if I could pull the Flare right out

But I was their glue

I had to keep them together

I had to

But in the end it was I who fell apart