AUTOR POV.

When Yeonjun opened the door, he saw the older one standing with a bouquet of flowers full of glittering light pink roses, who looked at him with a hopeful yet sad look in the hope that they would finally talk and clear up the misunderstanding.

„Yeonjun..." whispered Soobin almost not to frighten the younger one, who looked at him in surprise. "Can we talk, please?" Soobin begged him almost desperately.

Yeonjun looked at the floor, but nodded and made room for the older one to enter his apartment. He had read and heard what Soobin had said in his live. Actually, he knew himself through the conversation with his best friend that they had to talk to each other so that they would both be better off.

However, his stubbornness was greater every time that Live had pushed it aside and had moved something in him, which is why he could let himself be talked to.

Both sat in the living room for a few minutes in silence after Yeonjun had put the roses in a vase. Now that the older one had the chance,
he didn't know where to start. There was so much in his head that he wanted to tell him, but not in what order and with what he should start or end.

„I don't know where to start honestly, but you should know that I didn't mean to hurt or ignore you on purpose. You were... and still are someone special in my life, the only person who showed me that I am more than a machine and took me and loved me as I was. I would never have thought of throwing all that in, even in the short time we were together." Soobin sighed at the end.
He simply hoped that the younger would believe him and his stubbornness would not come back.

"I'm incredibly sorry and I wish I could undo it. But I know it would have gotten worse at the latest on the second world tour.
My entertainment had not given me time to breathe or maintain contacts. All I could do in recent years was film, give a concert, travel the world or work on music for the next comeback. Even at first when we were still together I felt like this.. my cell phone was taken away so that I could concentrate on success and my career.
I didn't have it often and if, then I wrote to you... as you saw, I didn't have it often or time to...
I really tried, I swear."

Soobin sighed back through his hair to the memories and could immediately feel the exhaustion in his body or head. Mentally and physically it was the most exhausting time of his life.

"After the first tour I came here to talk to you. Beomgyu followed me because he suspected that I would come here and then told me that you flew to America to your family for a while. I was more desperate than before because I thought we would fix the situation, but now I know it would only have made it worse because my contract there would not have expired and it would all have been repeated."

Yeonjun listened attentively and nodded at the last point.

It was true, if they had come together again there it would have ended like this again and that between them would now be more destroyed than before or the wounds would be deeper.

He noticed that through Soobin's explanations a part of him easily healed, because now he had answers and knew why the older one had behaved like that and had no other choice.

Now fortunately, Soobin had a new contract where he could determine for himself what he did and could concentrate on his private life.

"I'm sorry Soobin for everything that made you leave. I..wish I had somehow been by your side to be there for you, but that would have hurt us both even more. Thank you for your apology and explanation why you acted like that..
I really needed that, I wish my stubbornness hadn't been in the way. When I heard about your live, my stubbornness was extinguished and I first sat in front of the screen to realize what was said.

Yeonjun looked at his hands, whereupon he saw Soobin's hands on his own, which gently enclosed his own hands.

"I'm sorry for what I said when I was drunk or wrote to you. I didn't mean it like that, but the frustration without answers and after what happened was even greater at that moment. Thank you for driving me to you and taking care of me, even though I was an ass." Yeonjun now also apologized and the next moment felt Soobin's hand gently on his cheek.

Soobin gently stroked his thumb over Yeonjun's cheek, enjoying the uttering atmosphere and feeling the tense, cold air disappear.

„All good.. I know you and understand you.
In your place I would have been just as bitter without answers and a red flag idol ex boyfriend, who suddenly kissed you again after the first reunion" Soobin laughed lightly and could not help a brief glance at the lips of the younger one.

Yeonjun felt Soobin's short gaze on his lips, whereupon he felt his heart begin to beat faster and his stomach began to tingle.

Deep down he hated what an effect such small things the older had on him.
That would probably never change, the two years have proven that.

„Can I ask you something?" Soobin asked with a small glance back at the lips of the younger one, who felt his heart skipped beats and the tension between the two of them going stronger.

Yeonjun nodded.

„Can I kiss you?"

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