so um i guess this is kinda soft vent art because today was apparently a great day to be hit with hate for racists, homophobes, America, and myself!!! YAY!!!!

I don't really know how to put my thoughts into words right now, but here are three:

1. I hate this country

2. what the fuck. countless people have not given their lives to make America a better country so people like George Floyd can just be fucking murdered by the people who are supposed to be protecting them. what the absolute fuucckk why haven't people changed already 

3. I'm just a child and I can't do anything. I'm not a POC, and I don't have to go through all that they do, and never have, but still. As a kid growing up in this country, I was so proud to be an American, but what the hell is up with America???? This stuff has been happening for so long, but it's just really hit me recently that I'm just a child that can't do anything. 

to better sum up my feelings, here's an instagram story from a while back, by momozerii:

"Hey guys I'm mad. I'm mad as fuck and I'm gonna snap

Australia's on fire and climate change is becoming irreversible and the US is making shitty decisions that could start a war 

These things are fixable. And avoidable. But the people with the power to change things dont give a fuck 

And there's NOTHING I can do. Fucking nothing. People wonder why the fuck young people are so depressed and it's because it feels like there's no point. Because some dumbfuck like Trump can blow up the planet on a whim

Fuck your economy. I care about PEOPLE and the goddamn PLANET"

now I'm going to try to sleep without fucking crying again and then I'm going to delete this stupid chapter because I'm only doing this because I am fueled by sadness, anger, frustration, helplessnes, a strong feeling of uselessness, and all of the stupidity in my whole being