This chapter is dedicated to LeeFelixxxSTAY and -straybabies!❤

Mates! Uwu❤

Enjoy reading!

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Chapter 12

Lee Felix

I'm worried about Jisung. He's been a little disturbed this past few days after that fanmeet.

He's still acting like he's happy and cheerful when he's in front of the camera but I know it's all pretending. I can see the despair in his eyes. It's so obvious when you know him too well.

"Hey, Felix. Is Jisung alright?" Minho hyung's voice filled my ears.

"I don't think so..." I answered before sighing. I know him too well that I can figure out whether he's fine or not.

"I knew it. We should've ignored that question!" He said.

That just made that moment flash in my eyes like I'm watching a drama.

"Did you paid the company for you to enter Stray Kids?" My eyes literally went so wide, it's almost like a ceramic plate.

"Also, we heard that you've just been a trainee for a month, is that true?" I worriedly looked to Jisung.

He still has his smile on but I can see how he fidget in his seat. He's panicking!

"Uhh... Are we--" Seungmin got cut when Jisung suddenly spoke.

"Me being a trainee for a month? That's true. Me paying the company just to debut and be with Stray Kids? Why would I pay just to debut if I can just work hard? And besides, that'll cost me a fortune!" He straightforwardly yet jokingly said. The fans made noises.

He handled that so good! He definitely changed. He's not like before when he's panicking. He does learn.

The time passed and it's our time to say goodbye.

Jisung doesn't look too good when he entered the backstage not like how he looked when he's on stage.

"Mate, you okay?" I asked jokingly with a smile.

"Yeah..." He just simply answered before wiping the sweat in his forehead.

"Do you need your pills?" My smile faded when his voice sounded annoyed.

"Nah. Don't need them." He said before heaving a deep breath.

I was worried but I just decided to shrug it off. He's probably much more shocked than me when he heard that question. I think that's normal to feel.

"Why would they ask such a question? Are they dumb or what?" I heard Hyunjin hyung said from the other stall.

"They're obviously dumb just by asking him that question. Can't they see his amazing talent?" I heard a mumble but I can't figure out who said that.

I looked at Jisung. He's sitting in a chair with closed eyes. He fidgets his fingers together as his lips shiver for a bit.

"Calm down. Calm down." I heard him whispered. I was right beside him, resting.

Now, I wanna know who the hell asked that question. I wanna kick him so badly that'll make him go to Jisung and say every word that actually can express his guilt for doing that.

We have our first fan signing with Jisung today. And it's just been 3 days after that happened.

I just hope nothing bad happens today.

I can't bear seeing him like this.

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Han Jisung

Just a few minutes left and I'm gonna be doing my first ever fan signing after being an idol.

After being an idol.

Stop reminding me of every piece of that question. Dammit! Stupid memories!

I tried acting fine and happy but whenever I remember that my mood just goes down. And I always remember that stupid question! Anywhere! Whenever!

I just hope everything goes according to plan today.

"Everyone, 3 minutes!"

I heard our manager shouted. I calmed myself down, self reminding that I should be normal. I should smile and show them that I'm not affected at all.

"Alright, everybody come out!"

I stood up from my seat and got ready to go out there. I programmed myself to smile.

"Hey, STAYs! We'll introduce ourselves first." Chan hyung greeted them.

"2, 3! Step out! Annyeonghasaeyo, Stray Kids imnida!"

We introduce out loud. Their fans cheered. Some of their fans are saying the other member's names.

I just smiled at them as I saw no one looking at me. It's like no one even cared if I exist or not.

Bad vibes, go away! I don't need you!

I took a silent deep breath before sitting down in front of the table covered with a black cloth.

The fan signing started. Some of the fans gave me gifts. I'm wearing a dog hat that a fan gave to me.

I've signed a couple of albums and it's still not ending. My hands kinda hurt but it's bearable.

But that's not what got me frustrated from the inside.

Some of those who got the o fan meeting didn't even talk to me. Some are friendly but most of them radiate a strong dislike towards me.

And that shit just got me like what the actual heck?!

Do they hate me so much that they don't want to even talk to me?

My mood just goes down. Many of them aren't even saying anything even tho I tried talking to them. But when they go to Felix, they seemed so grateful to come here at their fan sign.

I went down and put my head above the table when no fans are currently making me sign their albums. I inhale air and made it stay in my mouth making my cheeks look chubby.

I stare to nothing as I started to space out. I can still hear their voices but I can't understand anything from what they're saying.

I just want this to finish.

So that I can have peace of mind over all of this mess.

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"That's cute!" Felix said pertaining to the dog hat that a fan gave me a while ago.

We're roommates. I'm roommates with Felix, Seungmin, and Jeongin.

"Yeah! It is!" Seungmin said as he snatched the dog hat from my head.

"Hey! I'm still wearing it!" I exclaimed jokingly. He then makes faces to mock me.

He ran out of our room. The others are outside playing some game while we're resting in our room.

"Seungmin! Give me th-- oof!" My butt hits the floor when I bumped into someone.

I tried to stand up on my own when a hand grabbed my arm, helping me to stand. I looked up and I saw Minho hyung.

"Are you okay?" He said. I can see the concern in his eyes. It's so visible.

"I'm fine!" I said while rubbing where it kinda hurts. I tried to make him don't notice that I'm in pain.

"You sure?" He assured himself. He's like forcing himself to believe what I'm saying. I don't understand him.

"Yeah. I'm fine, really." I said with a genuine smile.

"Okay." He said before smiling. He removed his hand from my arm. I didn't even notice that he's still holding onto my arm all this time that we're talking!

I walked back to my shared room with the younger ones with a smile. A real smile.

It just comes out naturally when I'm talking to Minho hyung. It's like he wants to make me feel good.

And it's working.

I feel relieved.