A/N

Hey, about the songs; The first one is 'Sami' from Darren Criss and the second one is 'Grace Kelly' from Mika, which is the one above. Enjoy the chapter!

Chapter 4

Is It Okay If I Do This?

Annabeth's POV

I counted to ten to calm down my nerves as I knocked on the door about to break Percy's heart.

I hadn't seen Percy since we had kissed and nothing had happened after that. He had brought me home and went to his own place. And that was three days ago and since then I thought about it long and hard and we just can't be together.

Percy is my friend, even my best friend, and I don't want to ruin that. And that's only apart from the fact that he's famous, it would only make things extra difficult. Though the real reasons were that I was scared; scared that I would drag him down in a very dark place, I would absolutely destroy him and he's too nice for that. I was too scared that after a couple of weeks he would just grow tired of me and leave me.

So I had to do this and hope that he would forgive me. "Maybe he doesn't even feel the same way about me." I told myself, though I knew that was bullshit.

So I knocked and hoped that Percy would be home alone.

"Hey, Wise Girl!" Percy exclaimed as he opened the door, butterflies erupting in my stomach at the old childhood nickname we picked up on again.

"Hey, hope I don't come at a bad time?" I asked, biting my lip, a bad habit.

"No, I'm working home today. Working on the album, but I can use a break." He smiled at me and stepped aside so that I could come in.

"Here sit down." He signaled the couch and I sat down on it. "Do you want to drink anything?" He called from the kitchen.

"Tea please!" I shouted back as I looked around the living room, it was clean for once, probably Jason's work though not for the piano. It was scattered with papers and Percy's notebook with lyrics and melodies.

"Here you go." Percy sing-sang as he handed me my tea. "And sorry for the mess, I got a bit frustrated with some melodies." He gave me a sheepish smile.

"Oh, it's fine. It's your home after all right?" I replied, smiling as well. "So do you have something yet?"

"Yes, actually. Do you want to hear it?" He jumped up as I said yes, always happy to hear Percy sing and show me his music.

"Okay, so it's as good as done, I wrote it pretty quickly, but it's on the piano so sorry if that part doesn't really sound that good. Nico's much better at the piano."

"Oh, come on, you play the piano really well, better than I'm ever going to be." I assured him.

"I can teach you if you want." He immediately offered. "Though you can better have Nico as a teacher."

"Sure." I smiled widely at him, he looked too good just sitting there in some sweatpants and a T-Shirt behind the piano smiling at me.

"Okay, I'm going to start now." Percy breathed out softly and started the song looking down.

I've seen her face

I've heard her name

I've lost my place and she's to blame

and I can't stand it

when I'm staring in her eyes

and she's not looking back

it ain't a big surprise

Ive heard music

Ive heard noise

I wish that she could hear her voice

The way that I do

When I go to sleep at night

And dream my life away

But she's gone when I awake

Sami

Sami

Why can't you see

What youre doing to me

Percy looked up, shooting me a quick uncertain smile before looking down and continuing.

The way her hair falls in her eyes

Makes me wonder if shell

Ever see through my disguise

And I'm under her spell

Everything is falling

But I don't know where to land

Everyone knows who she is

But they don't know who I am

Sami

Sami

Why can't you see

What you're doing to me

I've seen you singing on that stage

Looking like an angel

And all I do is pray

That maybe

One day youll hear my song

And understand that all along theres something more

Than Im trying to say

When I say

Sami

Sami

Why can't you see

What youre doing to me

What youre doing to me

Sami

When I say

Sami

When I say

Why can't you see

What you're doing to me

What you're doing to me

"Oh." I breathed out sinking down on the couch a bit.

"Oh?" Percy asked, chuckling nervously and slumping down on his seat a bit too.

"No, no, no! I don't mean it like that! It was beautiful. I was just thinking about what it meant. About who it was."

"Oh."

"It's about me right?" I asked, though I knew the answer already.

"Yeah." He admitted. "Are you mad?" He asked, not looking at me but looking down at his hands instead.

"No, it's really sweet. Nobody has ever done that for me. Well except you." I smiled at that, but that smile faded as soon as I realised what I had to do. "You know Percy, as I said at the bar I really like you. Like a lot. But as you said, I need some more time. Some time to get everything clear in my head. It's a mess right now."

"Well for the record I really like you too. But Beth," He finally looked up at me and sat up a bit. "Maybe it's good to let things be a mess. To not think everything over. I do that all the time and it mostly works out fine for me." He added that last part with a mischievous grin.

"And I don't know if the both of us would really work out, I think that we're too different. I like to think things over. I like to plan everything while you just flutter through life!"

"Well thanks." Percy scoffed. "Sorry if I'm different from you. But they say that opposites attract right?"

"Still I just don't think that it would work out. You're my best friend and I don't want to ruin things between us. Plus you're famous that would only put extra pressure on the relationship."

"Well you thought differently about it last time." He mumbled softly, but I could still hear him.

"What did you say?"

"You thought differently about us not working when you stuck your tongue down my throat and shoved me into a wall."

I was silent for a moment, before calmly replying, "Well that was an impulsive move on my part."

Percy scoffed again, "Annabeth, just give the real reason. I know that that's not it. Just please don't lie to me."

He knew me too well. But I wasn't going to tell him that I was too scared to try. I had too much pride for that and if he really knew me so well he could figure it out himself. I know how childish this sounds, but still.

"You know what? I could change; I could be anything you like and it still wouldn't be good enough. So you know if that's all you wanted to say, then maybe it's better if you walk out the door. I don't like it when people lie to me. And I think that we both need to continue with our work."

"Good idea." I told him, not wanting to get into a fight with him and I wasn't going to tell him the real reason. Beside that my lunch break was almost over. I ignored the lump in my throat and grabbed my coat.

"Bye." I muttered, angry at him too.

"Bye." He said back and I closed the door not knowing if this was a good or bad thing.

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Our mini fight, though I don't really know if it was a fight; neither of us cried or shouted, was three days ago. I hadn't really talked to him since. But I knew that he was playing at the bar today so I was going to visit him and hopefully make up.

It wasn't really that busy at the bar, just as usual. I sat down at a table and ordered a drink. The band was playing one of the songs and Percy noticed me as I sat down. He gave me a smile which I returned, which I think was a good sign already. He didn't seem angry anymore.

"So, this is a new song that I wrote really quickly with some help, but I had a lot of inspiration. It's about changing yourself for someone but which doesn't change anything."

"What?" I mumbled, but they already started with the song. Percy looked straight at me, his eyes challenging, like they were saying, "your move."

I wanna talk to you!

The last time we talked, Mr. Smith, you reduced me to tears

I promise you it won't happen again! Jason spoke as a part of the song.

Do I attract you? Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?

Am I too dirty? Am I too flirty? Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome, I could be loathsome, I guess I'm a little bit shy

Why don't you like me? Why don't you like me without making me try?

I tried to be like Grace Kelly

But all her looks were too sad

So I tried a little Freddie

I've gone identity mad! (Mad, mad, mad!)

I could be brown, I could be blue, I could be violet sky

I could be hurtful, I could be purple, I could be anything you like

Gotta be green, gotta be mean, gotta be everything more

Why don't you like me?

Why don't you like me? Why don't you walk out the door!

Getting angry doesn't solve anything! Jason spoke again.

How can I help it? How can I help it? How can I help what you think?

Hello my baby, hello my baby, putting my life on my brink

Why don't you like me?

Why don't you like me? Why don't you like yourself? Percy raised his eyebrows again.

Should I bend over, should I look older, just to be put on your shelf?

I tried to be like Grace Kelly

But all her looks were too sad

So I tried a little Freddie

I've gone identity mad! (Mad, mad, mad!)

I could be brown, I could be blue, I could be violet sky

I could be hurtful, I could be purple, I could be anything you like

Gotta be green, gotta be mean, gotta be everything more

Why don't you like me? Why don't you like me? Walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself, hey!

But you only want what everybody else says you should want

You want

People began clapping along and I felt like I was going to be sick.

I could be brown, I could be blue, I could be violet sky

I could be hurtful, I could be purple, I could be anything you like

Gotta be green, gotta be mean, gotta be everything more

Why don't you like me? Why don't you like me? Walk out the door!

I could be brown, I could be blue, I could be violet sky

I could be hurtful, I could be purple, I could be anything you like

Gotta be green, gotta be mean, gotta be everything more

Why don't you like me? Why don't you like me? Walk out the door!

Humphry, we're leaving! Jason said a small smile on his face, probably happy that the song went well.

Ca-ching!

As the song ended I stormed out what I should have done as soon as the song began.

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Only a day later Percy stood at my doorstep with flowers in his hands.

"I'm sorry." Was the first and only thing that Percy blurted out since I slammed the door in his face.

He knocked again and after a minute or two I let him in. "Just sit down, okay?" I told him harshly as I began putting the flowers in a vase. They didn't deserve to die. Someone else did though.

He followed me into the kitchen though and started talking. "Annabeth, I'm so so sorry. I shouldn't have written that song. And I shouldn't have sang it in front of you and all those people."

"You enormous dick!" I shouted, turning around, looking at his shocked eyes. "What were you thinking writing a song about me? And thinking that it solved anything? Asshole. I would smash those flowers into your head if they weren't so pretty."

"It was a good song right?" Percy joked and I don't know why he did it, but it was certainly the wrong choice as I threw the water that was in the vase at him, soaking him.

"I'm really sorry, it was an impulsive thing to do so." Percy apologised with a more honest tone. "I was angry and writing songs helped me to process those feelings. If it's an upside; I'm not angry with you anymore. Just forgive me please."

I closed my eyes for a bit turning around to not face him and rubbed my temples, thinking this over.

I think we stood there for five minutes, I'm not sure. But eventually I forgave him. He seemed sorry and he had good reasons to do so.

So when I turned around again I flung myself at him, hugging him tightly, letting some tears go.

He sighed happily and hugged me back. Lifting me up and turning around in little circles, making me laugh.

"You sounded really good in the song though." I admitted, quietly not sure if he heard it.

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"Let's watch a movie." I muttered after a while. "And do you want some dry clothes?" I asked him, since he was still soaking.

"I vote for 'Back To The Future'." Percy stated as he plopped down on the couch.

"Yeah, well you kind of wrote a diss track about me and I forgave you really easy and I want to watch 'Catch Me If You Can' so I think that I know what we're going to watch."

"Fine. But you have to let that go, it was a week ago." He muttered, rolling his eyes though he had a slight grin on his face.

As we were about half in the movie I moved closer to Percy grabbing the blanket from him and putting myself under it as well.

Over the last week Percy and I were back to normal. We were back at the exact same point as we were two weeks ago before the karaoke bar.

We were sitting in my apartment and since it was a Sunday we were both free from work. Percy had come over and now we were watching a movie together. And sitting really close. He told me that his arm was uncomfortable and if it was okay if he put his arm up. I only laughed and told him that he didn't need to ask.

"Is it okay if I do this?" I asked him after a while entangling my legs with his and scooting closer.

"Uh, yeah. Sure." He gulped for a second.

"And if I do this?" I asked again, getting confident and sitting up and moving so that I was hovering over his lap.

Percy seemed to get the gist as he sat up too so that our faces were really close now. "And if I do this?"

"Or this?" I breathed out before leaning down and kissing him. Percy pulled me closer to him and I did as well.

"Is it okay if I do this?" I asked tugging at the hem of his shirt.

He nodded between kisses and I pulled the shirt over his head, the movie long forgotten.