TW: Panic attack

~ Dream's POV ~

I sat in the hotel room, wondering what was going on. I hadn't seen Techno in ages, but he's probably trying to avoid me. Which is fair enough. But when I ask to come over, he immediately says no and when I ask why he says none of your business. I have my suspicions but I don't think I should explore it...

~ Dan's POV ~

"So did you tell him or?" Squid asked.

"Nope. I guess someone else did it. I'm just..."

"Take your time, we're here for you" Scott said to me, everyone nodding in agreement.

I sigh before saying "It just doesn't feel right... No matter what I do or what I say it just doesn't feel right."

"What doesn't feel right?" Think questioned.

"Our friendship..."

"What do you mean?" Scott asked.

"I mean it doesn't feel right being around him. I feel like I'm around him because he is so popular and we were partners in this stupid competition. That's it. It doesn't feel right anymore. Our friendship feels destroyed and I know it's my fault." I say, the group shocked as I finish.

"How is it your fault?" Squid inquires.

"I-... I signed up for this stupid competition and convinced Dream to get him nominated so it's all my fault. And besides, I lost his trust. Yes we have made up but it doesn't mean he completely trusts me does it?"

The group just looked at me before Squid sighed. 

"How do you know he doesn't trust you still?" Think asked.

"Just because you broke away from your friendship because of some misunderstanding, doesn't mean he's lost all trust in you. And besides, if he left you, he would have left the best friend ever behind. Especially because you are the best, kind-hearted person I know and that's saying something. You don't deserve him if he left you and if he hasn't left you, just know if you need help or support I will always be here, along with these other two as well.  We will never leave you because you are amazing. I mean, you even got me out of my low days so it's my turn to repay you isn't it? Just know I will always be here, no matter what. Even if like right now, we are countries apart, I will always be here for you! I may be busy at times, but I will never ever leave you alone when you need help. Urgent help or not, I will help you. You helped me so I help you." Scott said, several tears rolling down his cheeks.

"I-... You don't have to Scott..." I mumble, tears rolling down my cheek.

"That was... emotional..." Think says.

"Did Dan get us all out of a dark place? He got me out of one and Scott mentioned that the same happened as well?" Squid questioned.

"Same here..." Think stuttered, clear the message Scott made triggered emotions.

We all sat there, thoughts rushing through our mind about what Scott said. I soon received a message from Phil saying: Is everything ok? We hear crying coming from the kitchen which is where you are. I smiled slightly and responded: Everything is fine just had some memories triggered. Phil replied with: It didn't sound like it when Techno started crying because of what you said. I left him on read and hung up the call. I knew they were all in the main room, so I just had to get through there and to the bedroom before starting to cry. Easy enough right? Wrong. Very wrong. There was Techno crying, probably because I said stuff and then most others were mad at me so I just felt it was best to stay in the kitchen. I soon started crying, realising I had messed this up and it would never be the same. Everybody hated me except those guys who know what it's like. It was easy to fake most of the time but sometimes it was extremely difficult, like right now. When all but basically four people you know and love are upset or mad at you, you know you've messed up. I couldn't fake it any longer. I just cried. "Crying is for the weak."  "Don't be a weakling." "Be strong." "Don't be a brat."  The words replayed in my mind, reminding me of my abusive past. I started to shake and heat up, my heart pumping faster and faster. My mouth went dry and it felt like I was suffocating. I started breathing sharply and taking short breaths. I soon felt an arm wrap around me, trying to calm me down.

~ Dream's POV ~

I entered Techno's apartment to see people either supporting Techno or punching walls. There was one person missing. Dan. I looked around, before entering the kitchen. I saw Dan, sat there having a panic attack. I shut the door gently and wrapped my arm around him.

"You need to relax and calm down Dan. Just focus on my voice and calm down. I am here for you. Just calm down. I need you to calm down for me. Shhhh. It's ok... I'm here..."

He looked up and me and sighed.

"Thanks Dream..."

"It's no problem. I'm used to having panic attacks, unlike you."

"Really?"

"Yeah I can control myself and relax it can genuinely be so easy to deal with. I can teach you if you want?" 

"It's fine but why don't you hate me like everyone else?"

"Why should I hate you?"

"I'm weak, depressed, a brat and I loose everyone's trust and make them hate me too easily." 

"Don't say that! Your the kindest, calmest and best person someone could have as a friend!"

"But I'm not. And I never will be!"

"Shhhh. You need hugs. A whole ton of hugs. Do you wanna go to the bedroom and have no homo cuddles?" 

He looked at me before nodding. I stood up and picked him up so he wouldn't have to struggle walking. He hugged me close as we left the kitchen, the others staring at him. They knew with me here they couldn't hurt him. I entered the bedroom and placed him on the bed.

"I'll be right back ok?"

"Ok."

I left and locked the door to the bedroom. The group could tell I was pissed. I looked from person to person, looking at each of their expressions. Some sad but most angry.

"WHY DID YOU HELP HIM?! HE HURT TECHNO!" Wilbur yelled

"BECAUSE CLEARLY YOU DON'T KNOW HIS F^$£ING SITUATION DO YOU? I WALKED IN ON HIM HAVING A PANIC ATTACK. HE CALLED HIMSELF A WEAK BRAT AND TOLD ME HE WAS DEPRESSED! AND YOUR COMPLAINING AND HATING HIM BECAUSE HE SAID SOMETHING! YOU NEVER EVER DO THIS UNLESS YOU KNOW THEIR PAST!" I responded, clearly pissed

"Dream calm down." Philza stated, trying to calm me down.

"I WILL NOT CALM DOWN! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT HAS GONE ON IN HIS LIFE! AND HERE YOU ARE SCREAMING AT ME FOR HELPING HIM! HE'S SO KIND AND SWEET AND YOU HAVE JUST THROWN DRAMA HE CAN'T TAKE ON HIM! WHY CAN'T YOU SEE HE ISN'T OK AND NEEDS HELP HIMSELF?!"

The group stayed silent, shocked at what I said. I left the room and went back to Dan, locking the door behind me. He looked at me, confused and upset.

"Why did you stand up for me Dream?"

"Because nobody else would and I do not know your situation so I feel entitled to help you. Is that ok?"

"But-"

"No buts Dan. Anyways, wanna have these no homo cuddles then?"

I just get a nod from him before he pulled me towards the bed. I giggled as I sat down on the bed. He put his head on my lap after we both got comfortable. I glided my fingers through his hair and sighed as there was a knock on the door. Dan looks at me as I sigh. He sat up and I got the door, him curling up on the bed. I unlock and open the door. The group looked at me and I sighed. I shut the door.

"You might wanna put headphones on unless you want to hear more screaming." I said.

Dan nodded as he put headphones on and I waited until he played music. I open the door and leave, shutting the door behind me. I sighed.

"WHY THE F$£% DID YOU SUPPORT HIM AND STAY WITH HIM WHILE WE HAVE YOUR BROTHER OVER HERE CRYING HIS EYES OUT!" Jack screamed at me.

"YOU KNOW WHAT? HE DOESN'T DESERVE YOU GUYS AS HIS FRIENDS. YOUR ALL S*^$£ AND HE WAS HAVING A PANIC ATTACK. CRYING. TECHNO SAID SOMETHING AS WELL BECAUSE I HEARD IT! YOU CAN'T JUST CLEAR HIM FROM INNOCENCE! YES HE MAY HAVE APOLOGISED BUT DAN REGRETS EVERYTHING HE SAID AND YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND BECAUSE YOUR PISSED AT HIM! YES. HE IS SORRY. DON'T TALK TO ME OR HIM UNTIL YOU UNDERSTAND HIS SITUTATION AND YOU ALL HAVE GOTTEN YOUR S^%£ TOGETHER!" I screamed back before re-entering the bedroom, slamming and locking the door. 

I got into the bed and put my head on Dan's shoulder, crying my eyes out.

~ Dan's POV ~

I felt a head rest on my shoulder and I take my headphones off, and look at Dream on my shoulder. I glide my fingers through his hair, until I realised he was crying. I turn my body so his head is on my chest. I sigh before hugging him close, his tears wetting my clothes. I sigh.

"Was it those idiots?"

"Mhm.. I said stuff I didn't mean..."

"Don't worry... we are in the same boat now..."

I laid down, him laying next to me. He put his head on my chest. We both sigh in sync. I giggle slightly and relax, before he fell asleep. The door that was locked opened and Jack walked in and sighed.

"What do you want..."

"I want to say I'm sorry..."

"I don't want to hear this right now. Apologies aren't for when the door has been lockpicked and I am trying to sleep."

Jack left and slammed the door, waking Dream up. I heard the door lock as I looked at Dream. He smiled at me before falling back to sleep. I soon heard yelling outside of the door, door slamming and more shouting.

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Heyyyyyyy. Longer chapter today. I had too much free time. New chapter later or tomorrow hopefully. I don't know anymore. My upload schedule is everywhere to be honest. Ok goodbye now. :D