Months past by and their days got shorter and more packed. Due to this they all spent more time together. Sharing rooms, eating, doing vlive, playing games. Sure the stress of their line of work made them irritable and snappy but each person had someone to fall back on to help calm them down or get rid of stress.

It wasn't surprising to hear a few moans through the corridors. All the members did it except Yeosang. He didn't know why he never partook in this activity. Jongho even gets small favours as he doesn't want to go all the way with his friends. Yeosang just seemed to never be invited and that nawed away at his self confidence. On top of that he was so quiet and so forgettable. He don't stand out for singing they have everyone else for dancing the same. Yeosang just didn't seem to be more than a face. But despite that he stayed and yes his mental health deteriorated but he had people surrounding him to pick him up.

The frustrations of the job became his new personality. Still shy but he got out his frustrations by saying everything that was on his mind, he became this savage shy and good looking persona. He felt contempt. He'd regularly get less lines than overs except wooyoung because said boy was not confident in his singing but he wanted to show what he could do.

It occurred to him he hadn't crossdressed since the descision to leave his friends. It came to a shock because that became his confidence and right now that's what he needed.

He didn't get a chance to destress that way until one fanmeet. A Halloween one and he dressed as harley quinn. He adopted the wig and fishnets with white feminine ripped jeans and harley quinns  signature top and jacket. The bat came with it as well.

He could tell he shocked the fans because he suited the feminine look. He smirked internally as the compliments and seductive looks he received. However his most memorable one was when jongho eyed him up and down. This is what he needed, a path to the past, a familiar feeling.

He became more confident in himself both on and off the stage. His problems forgotten for the time being. Even though his friends consensually used each other without him he didn't mind.
He was just happy to be building himself up again.

This occurred for a long while until he got more screen time and lines. It wasn't until the next year, but it boasted his damaged mind and helped him become popular among the fans.

As expected there was no smooth ride through the days. Nor was there more clean ways of them destressing. It still doesn't help he didn't have anyone to help him in this past year. Except his hand or a pillow. He wanted to change that. He approached jongho and as his heart beat quickened and his face blushed he imagined everything they had done and hoped to do again.

"jongho?" he asked softly as he entered their room. The younger was playing on his phone. He looked up to his hyung and ex boyfriend and felt his heart swell. He hadn't expected to fall in love with the older so soon, but now he was waiting for yeosang to approach him.

"hmm?" he replied
"erm well I know you have all been messing around without me but erm I, can you also play with me. You don't have to I can do it myself!" he said shy at first then frantically. Jongho just smiled and switched his phone off. He placed it on the bedside table between his and Wooyoungs bed before standing up and approaching Yeosang. The older male was blushing profusely and had a small smile on his face.

Jongho didn't give him an answer before yeosang was on the bed and had the younger over him. The older forgot how dominant the younger can be.

Within a few seconds they were both naked and kissing each other feverously.

*smut here*skip to end if you don't want to read this*

The desperate kisses grew sloppy as their members brushed against one another and hardened.

"of course I'll play with you hyung" jongho said breathlessly smirking at Yeosangs panting figure. It felt perfect.

Yeosang slipped into subspace something he hasn't been in for a long time. In this space he got very needy and whiny a single touch could make his body overflow with heat. So he whined as jongho took too long to touch him and grinded up on jonghos dick. The single movement sent his lower half twitching restlessly. He needed to be played with and he needed to release.

Jongho just chuckled a breathy chuckle and started kissing his hyungs neck while grinding down on the older. The pulses from Yeosangs body as he twitched in need felt heavenly against jonghos defined chest and erect dick.

He bit in a fairly sensitive area between Yeosangs collarbone and shoulder sending his body flinching forward and him moaning deeply from the pleasure.

Jongho suckled around that area and sent more moans dripping from his hyungs beautiful mouth. He kissed down his nape and to his torso were he met hard nipples. He had never played with yeosnag nipples before but seeing them so pink and perky made him wanna salivate. He gave a testing lick to the boys breast before using his tongue to move the nipple and feel just how hard they are. Yeosangs eyes were blown as this was a new feeling and he loved it. He clenched his arms around jonghos head as he played with a single nipple and gently pressed him against it causing him to chuckle and gently bite the bud. Yeosangs entire body violently twitched as a wave of essure crashed through his body. It doubled when jongho removed his head from the restraints and pinching each bud in each hand. Seeing Yeosang fall apart from just this, made jongho want to wreck him more.

As of now they were both rock hard and started grinding on each other. Yeosang was too gone in pleasure to care that his dick was hurting from not being touched.

As jongho stopped playing with the buds he moved to kiss down his slightly toned chest. Skipping his crotch to bite at his thighs. Yeosang whined at the teasing and made grabby hands to reach jonghos hands trying to move them from his thighs to his crotch, unfortunately the younger was stronger than Yeosangs sub space and kept his hands where they are.

Yeosang whined in need and jongho finally pitied him and moved his hand to the olders crotch. And started raising his hand up and down as he continued to bite and suck on his thighs leaving red hickeys there.

Yeosang threw his head back as the pleasure built up. And he was getting close. The Deep pit of heat in his groin just about ready to burst.

Jongho didn't let up on the bites and movement, he wanted to see Yeosang come undone from just his mouth and hand then he would make him cum from his dick. He isn't gonna stop until Yeosang feels his love. He knew Yeosang would tell him if it got too much.

He felt Yeosangs breaths and twitches as it became too much pleasure.
"ya~ I'm cuming" Yeosang drawled out as he painted his chest and jonghos hand white.

Jongho stopped his biting and movements as he felt the male release. He smiled and kissed Yeosang on the lips. He brought his hand up nd tasted the older cum, the bitter taste burning his taste buds but it made him happy.

Yeosang was busy catching his breath when jongho started to kiss his lips in small quick pecks.
Jongho let him calm down before continuing. Yeosang reciprocated the touches with small moans.

Jongho teased him once again with kicks and bites before reaching into the bedside table and grabbing the lube from wooyoungs drawer and opened the cap. He kissed Yeosang before speaking.

"you OK with this?" he said and Yeosang reassured him allowing him to squeeze some on his fingers before twirling them to warm the lube up. Once it was lukewarm he rimmed yeosangs hole and pushed in one finger feeling Yeosang tense up. He gently pushed into him further until his entire finger was being sucked in. He let Yeosang adjust before starting to move the finger. He experimented with twisting his finger and massaging his walls.

Yeosang returned squeaky moans and deep breaths. Once he was loose enough he added a second finger and continued the process. He stretched him out as much as he could before adding a third finger and stretching him further.

Once Yeosang was comfortable and he new by his whines jongho took out his fingers and replaced it with the tip of his dick. He looked to yeosang for permission only getting a nod before slipping in further, he winced at Yeosangs pined face before bottoming out and stayed there until Yeosang tested the feeling.

They stayed there for about two minutes before Yeosang pushed down and nodded. Jongho gently grabbed his hips and slowly pushed in and out. He didn't pick up the pace until Yeosang asked.

He continued this until he was roughly plowing into Yeosang who was struggling to get his words through his moans.

"eeeeh~" Yeosang squealed as he came covering his chest in more white.
Jongho grunted as he also came painting Yeosangs insides with white. Jongho rode out his high before pulling out of a twitching Yeosang. He let himself come back to common sense before getting up and grabbing a rag from the bathroom and wet it with lukewarm water. He returned to yeosang with it and wiped down the older boy from his cum and jonghos that was slowly leaking out of his ass.

*end of smut*

Once he cleaned him and himself he layed down besides Yeosang and stroked his red face.

"thank you" Yeosang said with a sore throat.
"no problem, you needed it and I'm sorry you felt left out"jongho replied and Yeosang laughed

" I'm sorry I acted like I did in the past. You had been my first relationship that went serious and physical and I barely knew you. I thought that if I gave you all my attention you would stay with me but I was wrong. It only drove you away" Yeosang confessed and jongho smiled.

"I was also inexperienced. I thought I wouldn't have to bother with petty touches and just thought it was always physical, I'm sorry you felt that way but now we can change that with more than just attraction." jongho spoke and Yeosang smiled.

"I would like that" he said before closing his eyes. Jongho continued to stroke his head and moved the plastered hair from his face.

"I would too" then he also fell asleep.