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- Idk if this should be a warning since I feel like I suck at writing, but this might be a little sad. ( ITS CUZ I LISTENED TO EPIPHANY OKAY? THAT SONG IS A TEAR INDUCER ON STEROIDS. )





" You what?"

" What?"

My head was on Taehyung's shoulder.And Jimin was watching.

" I wanted-" I took a long sigh.

" I wanted to see if you would be jealous if I dated Jimin."

Taehyung blinked in utter confusion.

" How did you find out about this bet? " Jimin asked eyes moving from the floor to me . Oh right, Jimin said he liked me.

What a joke.

" Does it matter? It's over anyways. " I asked, glaring at him subtly.

"So all of it was just fake? "

" I should be asking that question to you." I said. Jimin shut up immediately after.

Jerk.

" Come on Saera," Taehyung said, hooking his arm with mine before we left Jimin standing alone.

" Thanks for the support man." I said, still clutching onto Taehyung's shoulder. The image of Jimin's disappointment kept on flashing in my head.

•••

I had decided to visit Mrs.Park today to make sure she was alright so I rang the bell to her home and waited.

And waited.

Until the pretty older lady had opened the door with a smile hanging off her face.

" Saeraaa,what a surprise!" She beamed like a sunflower.

" Hi Mrs.Parkkk. Mind if I come in? " I asked, pain clearly evident in my voice.

Mrs.Park's been there for me when I was small.Cuz during those times where mini Jimin and mini Eunmi laughed and played together, she and I would explore all the hidden place in my imagination.

She would play along with my confusing self and laugh like my jokes were hilarious. I would always tell her , or she would often figure out, my problems and she would talk about it in a way a child could understand.

I really did see her as my mother.

Thankfully no one was at the house except her and I let in a deep inhale of the nostalgic house that smelt of fainting lavender and new shoes.

We sat down on the couch, with me of the single sofa and with Mrs.Park on the extended one. She had brought out tea and biscuits which were laid uneaten on the countertop.

Mrs.Park seemed paler, and she had slight eye bags, but her smile made it seem like nothing. I envied her so much.

" You're so happy," I said softly while running a finger on the rim of the cup.

" Of course I am. I have a lovely girl sitting in front of me," She winked and I pulled my head down and shook it slightly.

" No I'm not, " Mrs.Park frowned at me.

" Is something wrong? "

I ket out another breath.

Here it goes.

" I have a..friend. And he fell for a girl. She's nice and really handsome-I mean pretty and fun to talk to. It's just that, she likes someone else."

" Oh my," Mrs.Park said.

" He sees that the guy she likes is everything a girl could for. Sweet, Caring, Prett-Handsome. And then he think he's ugly and beats himself up becuase of it."

Mrs.Park smiles reassuringly.

"It's you isn't it? And the boy you're talking about is my stupid son." she asks and I looked up in shock.I hid it so well.How could she have found out?

" Wha-what?"

" You're just like your mother Saera. You don't think she tried secretly asking me advice when she had a crush? I know."

" Was it dad?"

" No..It was someone else."

" Oh." We stayed quiet for a while befote Mrs.Park spoke.

" Why do you hate yourself? " she asked and I but my lips.

Why did I exactly?

" Because those pretty girls that he-" I sighed.

" The girl that has a fair face and slim body and graceful personality. She's so lucky Mrs.Park. Jimin has every right to fall for her." I felt a teardrop rolling down my cheek while it left a damp sensation behind.

" But I'm so scared. I'm scared that I'll turn jealous of her. Of the girl that seems like she has no flaws. And I'm scared that I've fallen for him too."

I was crying freely now. It was just like those days when I was a child again. Ny hands were shaking and I was trying hard to stop. My hands kept wiping the tears that never failed to fall.

Warm hands embrace me tightly and I feel Mrs.Park rubbing deep circles on my back to try and stop my from crying more.But it had made it worse.I heard the choke of my own sob and held Mrs.Park tightly.

" Life is hard. I know. But hey, it's not like everyone is perfect.Not even the idols you see on television with their flawless skin and pretty face lead perfect lives. But they keep a smile. They put on an act to fool everyone. No mater how many fans cheer for them they'll hold it in to make sure they don't effect their performance." I felt Mrs,Park relax and then I let out a raspy breath through my nose.

" Sometimes you have to endure it. You have to endure through the pain. And it doesn't mean making yourself more wounds will do any better Saera.I tell you that you're beautiful as many times as I want to. But there is no point if you don't accept it."

" How do you love someone else when you don't love yourself in this world? Jimin is precious to me, but we can't stop from falling for people we never expected to fall for in the first." she asks.

"Love comes and goes. The world won't end if you don't end up with the one you want to. You can't force a puzzle into a place it never even belonged to, can you?"

I shook my head stiffly.

" You've always liked him. Even when you came over I could almost see your face soften up whenever he smiled. "

" You can cry all you want sweetie. I'm not going anywhere I promise." She said, wrapping her arm tighter around me. I remember the cute thing she said when I was small.

" I'll be you're bubble alright Saera-ah? I'll protect from everything you're scared of."

" Thank You." I said, closing my eyes tightly.

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