Kiya Radner

I pulled away from Pete, not wanting to continue for some reason. You'd think since I was drunk, I would wanna keep it going. But I don't.

"I can't do this, it feels wrong." I said, feeling bile rise in my throat.

"What do you mean, weren't you enjoying it?" Pete asked me, his brows furrowing.

"No, I-I'm sorry." I said, standing up and going to walk into the party. I bumped into someone, looking up to see Teddy standing there, with a... hurt, look on his face? 

I pushed past him, through the party. I walked around, looking for a bathroom. I lightly sighed once I found one, shutting and locking the door behind me. I put the toilet lid up before puking up all the contents in my stomach.

This was such a big mistake, I don't understand how they can do it every freaking night. After throwing up a couple times more, I flushed the toilet before standing up and looking into the mirror. I was a mess.

My makeup was smeared, my eyes were puffy, and my hair was frizzy. I turned the tap on, cupping my hands and using them to wash the nasty taste out of my mouth. This all felt wrong, maybe kissing isn't my thing? I don't know. I thought I enjoyed it with Nash, but I didn't. I don't. Then when Pete kissed me, it felt the exact same way it did when Nash and I kissed. There was a knock on the door, and I sniffled before unlocking it and opening it.

"Are you alright?" Teddy asked, a worried look on his face.

"Yeah, I'm- I'm fine." I lied, giving a fake smile.

"I know you're not." He said, crossing his arms as he leaned against the door frame. "And I know you and Pete kissed."

I looked down, feeling embarrassed. "I'm sorry. I don't know what I was thinking. I regret it." I said.

"I know, I could tell by the look in your eyes once you bumped into me. And I saw everything." Teddy said as I looked back up at him. 

"Is Brooke okay? I'm really sorry about her... by the way." I said, although I wasn't really sorry. I was only telling him that because I felt like I needed to.

"It's fine. She did hit you first. Although she's probably going to want me to fuck her later so she'll probably forget about all of this." Teddy lightly smirked, and I felt sick again. I don't know why, but the thought of them doing that made me feel sick. It bugs me. Maybe because now that I've had that experience and it wasn't very good, I wouldn't understand why that would make her feel any better.

Yeah, that's it.

"You know, you could do so much better than Brooke." I whispered, and he furrowed his eyebrows.

"What do you mean?"

Welp, guess my mouth thought otherwise.

"You deserve someone so much better than her. Honestly, she's fucking stupid. But I mean, she likes drinking and parties, and so do you. And she's really- really pretty, so I guess I can kind of understand why you like her. But I guess that's none of my business." I said, and he searched my eyes a second. I pushed past him once again, before he grabbed me, turning me around.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

"Home, Teddy. Where I belong. I have work tomorrow night, and I need to take medicine because I don't feel good. I'm not a pretty college girl, I don't like parties. And now you understand why." I said, before walking away and leaving Teddy there.

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I woke up the next morning with a huge headache. I remember only a few things from last night, like the fight I got into. Well, that is because it was before I started drinking. Then I remember Pete kissing me, and me walking away. But after that, I don't remember anything. 

Sighing, I got out of bed and grabbed some clothes for the day, going into the bathroom. I hopped into the shower, sitting there as I just thought everything over.

I planned on not talking to anyone for a while, so I could get my things together. I mean, yes I'd still talk to my parents at dinnertime, and talk to Stella. But I don't plan on talking to Nash. Not after what he was saying about me. That, I remembered. I just couldn't forget. He was supposed to be my best guy friend, and he took my virginity then betrayed me like that.

With a snap of a finger I could tell my parents, that way he doesn't come over anymore. I think that's what I'll do. And I'll talk to Nat too, just not like I normally do.

I sniffled, and it was then I realized how much Nash hurt me. It was the biggest mistake getting with Nash like that, and everyone knew. Just wait until I go back to school, everyone's going to be talking about me. 

At this rate, I'll never get a boyfriend. I wiped the tears, although they were mixed with the shower water. I turned the shower off, grabbing my towel and getting out. I wiped the fog off of the mirror, and looked at myself.

"How pathetic." I whispered, before grabbing my toothbrush. I brushed my teeth, before finishing drying off and getting dressed.

I put on undergarments, before slipping on some black leggings. I put on a tie off shirt, and grabbed my hair dryer, plugging it in.

Soon enough I was completely dressed, and my hair and makeup was done. I grabbed my phone off of the charger, before walking out to tell my mom and dad about what Nash did to me. Even if I get into trouble for having sex, or going to Teddy's party. I don't care. As long as Nash isn't-

"Hey honey! Did you see what Teddy did to Nash?" My mom asked interrupting my thoughts, as Nash sat on our living room couch. Oh my fucking god.

"Uh yeah. I was there." I commented, and she looked over at me in anger.

"What? You were there letting a college boy beat up our poor innocent Nash?" She asked, standing up.

Nash smirked at me, and my mouth fell. "He's not innocent," I said. "Nothing close to it if you ask me." 

My dad looked at me. "What do you mean?"

My mom scoffed. "Who cares what she means? The fact she let someone beat him up is sickening." 

"I'm not listening to this anymore." I said, walking to the door and swinging it open. I got to the bottom of the porch when the three came out.

"And where do you think you're going missy?" My mom asked, putting her hands on her hips.

"Anywhere but here." I said, walking further down the sidewalk. Just my luck, the neighbors were out. Great.

"Get back in here and apologize to Nash." My mom said, pointing to inside of the house.

"I'll apologize once he gives my virginity back." I said, smirking lightly.

Her mouth fell, and my dad angrily looked over at Nash. "You took my daughter's virginity?" He asked. "I'll kill you!" 

My mom stopped him. "Honey she's probably lying." She put his hands to his chest.

"Why would Kiya lie about something like this?" My dad asked.

"Yeah, mom. Why would I lie about something like this? Especially to you guys?" I asked, crossing my arms as I raised an eyebrow.

"Sir, she is lying. I've never touched her inappropriately. I swear." Nash lied, biting his tongue.

"See? She was lying," My mom said. "Kiya you're grounded for making that up."

"I'm not lying. Wanna get me tested?" I asked, and Nash's eyes widened.

"That's fucking stupid Kiya." My mom said, rolling her eyes.

"Kelly are you really not believing your own daughter? You're believing a boy we met over the one that came out of your vagina?" My dad asked. "The boy could be lying too." 

"I swear I'm not lying. I don't think of Kiya in that way." Nash said, which was probably true. But he is lying about the first part. My parents started arguing, my dad making stupid remarks. I let out a sharp breath, before someone I didn't expect walked over.

"Mr. and Mrs. Radner." Teddy said, getting their attention.

"Now what do you want?" My mom angrily asked.

"Kiya isn't lying. It was the other night, and I may have beat him up, but it was because he was spreading rumors about her." Teddy said. So it was true.

"And you expect me to believe you? Wow." She scoffed. "I still say Kiya's grounded. If anyone took her virginity it'd be him." She said, pointing to Teddy.

"I have a girlfriend, I wouldn't cheat on her," Teddy said. "But okay. Believe him. You'll regret it." Teddy walked away, leaving me to deal with my family and Nash on my own.

"He's not lying either," I said. "That night you guys and Stella went out, Nat went to one of their parties. Nash and I had sex, then last night we went to their party. Teddy and Nash got into a fight, and they got pulled apart. Brooke walked up to me and we fought, then I got drunk. Ya happy now?"

Without waiting on an answer, I walked away. Tears were falling, and my dad was calling after me. But I just ignored them. Who knew my mom would believe him over me?

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 i died when i wrote "i'll apologize when he gives my virginity back"