💋 Lucy's POV 💋

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Don't you feel disgusted by the fact that some sort of gayshit guy kissed you? You should be pushing me away right now." Natsu responsed. I was wrong, again this time.

"Why should I be?" I told him out of my bliss.

"Because I unitentionally kissed you!" He bursted out. Unintentional? I was happy just by the fact that he was my first kiss but I didn't even realize that he didn't have a purpose or any plan to even do this to me.

"Oh... Yeah, right. I should be but I'm not. I'm sorry if I am not." I replied.

"I regret this! I regret that I was the person who kissed you. I'm really sorry, Lucy-bae." He confessed. Natsu regrets this? I started to feel the lump in my throat.

"Well, I do regret this too! Yours should be Gray, am I right? I really apologize for what happened. I think I should make my assignments now. Excuse me." I lied.

I ran off to my room and triple-locked the door. I held my knees up and started to cry. It hurts so much. It hurts that he regrets this. Saying that it was unintentional was enough but why tell me that he regrets this? You're so mean, Natsu! I've wanted for your kiss a long time ago. For me, it was an achievement but for him, it's a memory of regret. Why do I still love you after all of these? You're really pathetic, Lucy. You dumbass.

 Natsu's POV 

"What has gotten in to you, Natsu?! You didn't have to go that far to make her feel miserable." I muttered to myself.

It wasn't true that I did regret this. I just don't want to hurt her. I knew that her being close to me makes her an outcast in her surroundings. I really care for her and her safety really concerns me. That idiot didn't tell me that she was being bullied by her classmates because of me. If only I could stand for her and shoo those bullies away, it would make her feel better. No one should dare to hurt my bestfriend.

Thinking of what happened earlier beats me. She should be disgusted that I kissed her. Why isn't she? Maybe what happened wasn't a feeling of disgust but a feeling of regret. She regrets it. She admitted it herself. Wait, why wasn't I regretting this?

"Oi, Natsu! Why are you staring at the floor?" Someone called me. I looked up.

"Jellal, what brings you here?" I asked.

"I have something to tell you." Jellal told me.

"What is it?" I asked.

We went at the cafe and we sat on the closest table at the corner. He ordered a drink and I did too. We started drinking and he put out some application papers. What were those for?

"The headmaster had something to give to Lucy. They're giving her the chance to study abroad for college because of her intelligence. These are forms for different schools abroad. Mind if you take these to her?" Jellal asked.

"Why me? You should have given this straight to Lucy. She's at home. I could have called her down." I told him. This is bad. I know that Lucy isn't going to talk to me after what happened. After all, she regrets it.

"It's because you're her bestfriend and you're the only family she has. Her parents are dead and she has no siblings either. So, I'm giving this to you. And also, you are her inspiration. I think you can push her to reach her-." Jellal said.

"Wait... Did you just say that I'm her inspiration?" I asked, cutting him off.

"Yes, I did. She said it herself, blushing furiously. Anyway, since you're her family and inspiration, I'm giving this to you to push her to try studying abroad. Well, honestly, I think she likes you." Jellal explained. I nearly choked my drink out.

"Lucy liking me? It's not possible. She couldn't be. I'm just her bestfriend and she wouldn't fall in love with a gay person like me." I clarified.

"Hey, I think I forgot. It was the other way around. When we were kids, you were a man. I just didn't know how you turned out to be like this. You liked her, right?" Jellal responsed.

"Ahhh! I'm tired. Mock exams are coming so I have to review. I have to place at least even in the top 20. I am leaving." I told him, standing up and getting the application forms.

"You're trying to show off, aren't you? Oh man! Why do you always avoid that topic?" Jellal teased.

"Dude, I'm not trying to show off to her and I do have a boyfriend. I'm just trying to set a new goal in life, okay? And, Jellal, that's all in the past. There's no need to bring it up. After all, I don't even have a chance to her. I'm nothing against her. Anyway, I'm leaving." I explained.

"Yeah, right. Same reasons over and over again. Bye. See you tomorrow at school, Natsu-bae~." Jellal teased me once again. This punk!

"Yeah, yeah. Bye. See you tomorrow, Mr. Girlfriend's slave." I gained my revenge.

I scurried back home since it was already getting dark. I saw that her bike was already fixed. I guess she had already fixed it while I was gone. I noticed something on the table. It's her cooked food with a note saying...

'I ate early because I need to review for our mock exams and to finish my paperworks early. I'm really sorry for what happened earlier. Please don't bother me while I'm studying. Enjoy your food!

-Lucy-bae~ ^_^'

I went to her room and placed the application forms outside, leaving a note. I ate her dish and went upstairs to study too. I can't wait to see Gray tomorrow. I'm so excited to enter school tomorrow. I hope everything goes well.

 Lucy's POV 

It was already 2 o'clock in the morning when I finished all I had to do. I'm so tired. I yawned as I stretched my arms up. I decided to drink water first before I sleep. When I opened the door, I noticed application papers on the floor with a note saying...

'Jellal asked me to give these to you. He told me that these were given by the headmaster. They're giving you the chance to study abroad. Isn't that great?! I'm always here to support you in reaching your dreams. Good luck!

-Natsu-bae~ ^_^'

I got the application papers for every school. I almost forgot that the college entrance exam period was coming! I was so busy with everything. I looked into the application papers and saw my application for my dream school, Harvard. I drank some water and hurried back upstairs. The application for Harvard just brightens up my day.

~o~o~o~

Several days have passed since that incident. It was already time for the Sports Fest. I just decided not to join any race or relay or whatever it sport it is. I'm really tired and I didn't have time for those. Natsu joined basketball and what a turn of events that he was teamed up with his boyfriend. I decided to watch their game as they win the championship.

I watched every single movement that Natsu made in this game. I admit, he's pretty good. You wouldn't think of him as a gay. Just watching him makes me fall in love with him even more. What can I do? He's totally a man on the court. How I wish he is also like that in real life. I just sighed in frustration. I decided to cheer on him and his team on winning the game. I pretty used up my voice there and it was all worth it. They won the chamionship and just seeing him happy makes me happy too.

And just like that, the days went back to normal. The mock exams result were finally out. First again, this time. That's a relief. I looked up to what rank Natsu was and he did pretty good. He was 7th, my favorite number. I ate my lunch alone and as fast as I could so I could see Natsu with Gray. I waited inside the classroom while looking outside the window for lunch break to be over. I was waiting peacefully until those bitches started to swarm around my seat.

"What is it that you want this time?" I asked them, looking up.

"Your mother is Layla Heartfilia, right?" Steph asked.

"Yeah, and why are you asking? You even dragged my resting mother into our fight. What is it that you really wanted?" I answered.

"She was a famous actress. But her fame vanished just vanished quickly when your father, Jude Heartfilia, killed her and then killed himself after." Steph told me. My eyes widened. How dare she speak of those? Doesn't she know what I've been through?

"How dare you?! You don't know anything, Steph. I'm warning you to stop uttering those words?!" I exclaimed out of anger. My reaction was loud enough to caught the other's attention. Everybody in the room was already looking at us but I can't afford to even care.

"You even dared to raise your voice like that, you criminal's daughter?! You shouldn't be here in the first place, you ugly piece of sh*t!" Steph bursted out. She pulled my hair tie and slapped me real hard, enough for me to fall into my knees.

My vision began to blurry. I realized that my glasses fell on the floor and broke. My mother's memory! I picked it up and tried to fix the broken handle but I couldn't. A vision of my nightmare started to show. Every scene, every word, I remember them and I couldn't forget them. Tears started to well up in my eyes while anger and pain started to fill my up. She lifted my face to see how much pain I was in. She was shocked to see my face. I stood up and let my anger take over me.

"Why... Why did you kill her? Die! Just die! I detest you! I loathe you! I hate you!" I exploded.

It was too late to realize that my face was seen by my classmates. I hid my face from them and started running. I couldn't breathe. I had a hard time seeing what was in front of me. I was asking random people to lead me to where Natsu was. I was panicking already. I bursted the door open and asked a random guy to call Natsu. Natsu went out immediately and saw my panicking face.

"Hey Lucy, what's wrong?" Natsu asked in a worried tone, holding my arms. But all I did was cry and didn't utter a single word.

"Lucy, please, tell me what's wrong." Natsu pleaded, shaking me now.

"Mother... Died..." I said. Those words escaped from my mouth. He immediately understood what I meant.

My vision started to black out while my breathing was becoming more uneven. My heart palpitated really hard and I began to lose my balance. I was already falling and I realized that I was in Natsu's arms while a nightmare I didn't want to remember replayed in my mind, repeatedly as I fall into the pitch darkness of despair.

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Author's note:

Hey, guys! I'm back! Missed me? I think you didn't. Anyway, I'm really sorry to have updated this book after almost a year. I took a break from Wattpad and Anime a year actually. I got tired of writing stories here as I tumbled into the world of K-pop and K-drama. I was also really busy with school last year. I didn't have time to write and interact with you, guys. Until recently, many ideas was popping in my head about what other new stories to write and other stories to continue since I got back in the Anime world. I caught up with Fairy Tail after a year of absence. And here it is, an update of mine! I've actually decided to focus on writing on this book since I kept on having dreams about this book. I'm so glad that I'm back in the business. Hope you enjoyed this crappy chapter of mine. Love you all! Saranghae!

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