Shivaay didn't speak anything to anika neither he was ready to hear her words. She told them that they took arush by asking her. But he knew that shouldn't have happened after knowing about everything which had happened to her in that house. He could imagine the entire thing clearly. He gets impatient minute by minute. He got ready to go back. No conference or any business meetings were important for him than his family.  

"We are going back to Mumbai." - He announced bluntly to khanna, Without asking why, He forwarded the preparations to leave London. And they were ready to leave London in the next three hours. 

Shivaay has never been attached to his parents, He was always a lonely child from the start especially after his uncle, Aunty, and his paternal grandmother's death in an accident. That incident still haunts him like anything. He knew about his maternal grandmother always been a shady type. She believes in superstition a lot which influenced his mother and father who always been jealous of his brother, Shivaay's uncle, Tej. And one day, he just gets news that all the three died in an accident. His whole personality got affected by that news. His world crashed into pieces and he couldn't able to trust or love anyone in that fear. That he may loose them one day if he shows them how much he loves them. 

His concentration went on studies and then the business. He never had any sort of attraction to anyone when he was studying. For the world, He was rude but only he knew he was hell scared to love someone. He didn't want to loose them permanently by loving them. He circled himself until his father told him about the marriage proposal from Trivedi's. He was not interested but he convinced himself that he had to face everything one day in his life. Why can't then? 

But he automatically came out from the circle when he saw her for the first time in her house in the white and red salwar kameez. She didn't raise her head once to see him. She was too shy. But he felt proud of himself when he initiated the conversation with her even though he had zero experience with girls. Her smile took him away from himself. He just came out from his boundary line without his knowledge. Her little talks, Her gaze, Her smile started to steal his dreams. He felt the feel of the sleepless nights dreaming about their happy future. 

When their marriage dates got fixed, He felt the same sort of negativity from his grandmother who enquired everything about anika and being the unluckiest girl in the trivedi family and was against the marriage. She also started to influence his father and mother but that didn't work with shivaay. He never spoke to his grandmother. And he was stuck with the point If anything like marriage happens in his life, It will be with anika. And they got married on the fixed date. 

She was dull for the whole wedding but smiled widely before the camera when she realized that every eye on her. When he asked her for reason, She told him that her mother getting operated in the same date with the welled-up eyes. Her tears prickled his heart. He knew about her mother and visited her a couple of times in the hospital, He still remembers how she didn't fail to hold his palms in the sub-conscious state when he told that he's marrying her daughter. Tears leaked from her eyes but she couldn't open her eyes. She held his palms tightly in the way that he should hold her daughter's hands like that for a lifetime. He promised her heart to heart. He didn't wait for a moment to go out of the marriage venue and reached the hospital. 

He held her hands throughout the operation and also gave his shoulder when she cried bitterly when the doctor told her that she slipped into a coma state. He didn't cry but the fear that he had for a long time in his heart started peep-out. He finally managed to get herself back after three months of their marriage in their honeymoon. He didn't have any motive other than cheering her up. He started to imagine a family with her like they were now, Daughter first and a son, second and their small happy family. 

But everything crashed into pieces when he comes to know about her bound up betrayal mostly were the made-up stories from his family which he found out one-by-one after asking her to abort the child. He never meant to say it. It was spoken out of his knowledge when he completely gets influenced by his father's words on that word and especially after he experienced the first failure in his business. His every client back walked like he never existed. Words were spoken when he was under pressure. His entire character changed when he went bankrupt after six months. His grandmother blamed his wife and his unborn child. That was the first time, He stood up for his family, He asked her to go out of his house and also threatened her. 

He couldn't take a word against his wife and his child. He felt the pressure in her and decided to stay with her when she becomes so weak and needed supplementary support for her weakness. The fear, He had in his heart became so strong when he saw her so weak and frail. She didn't notice him many times but it was he who takes her to the washroom when her whole body gets swollen because of the side-effects. But she never knew about it. He started to distance himself from her. But still, He suspected her. He couldn't get over from his dad's allegations on her. He lost his control over his words and action. 

He always loved her. But the things that happened in the span of 8 months made him so impatient, Headheated, and the most egoistic person that he never been. He had no idea when he asked for the proof asking her to sign the divorce papers. He felt like being some different when she was awake and consciousness but when she sleeps, He gets back to himself. But he never meant to behave or asking any proof from her. But when she fell unconscious dropping the pen and divorce papers from her hand. He couldn't understand anything other than holding her from falling. He felt the same pain when he heard about his grandmother's death. His left hand which held the backside of her thigh was drenched in the blood. 

He witnessed naina's rapid moment in her thin-skinned bump. For the first time, He sensed that feel in her moment in her belly that too, when she was bleeding to hell and losing her consciousness. He held her in his arms and ran to the hospital like a mad. He saw naina's hand and leg print in her belly very frequent, He became so scared. He just wanted both should be fine and alive. He didn't need anything else. 

"Ani. I am sorry. Are you hearing? Please open your eyes. Please." - He cried when she was laying in the stretcher but none of those words reached her ears. He felt like her eyes were shut forever and she will never open her eyes ever. He felt so disgusted for asking her proof. He couldn't think anything other than praying to God to give her back to him. 

His daughter was born on the same day, She was in the height of the union of his two palms, So small, Less weighted. She weighed 2 kgs. The replica of anika with his minor features. Tears escaped from his eyes when his nose brushed her lips when he bowed his head to kiss her. She was in his arms safe and secured. But he handover the baby back to the nurse when the doctor informed about anika and her pulse dropping state. 

He couldn't come out of it. He felt the whole world turned upside down and his daughter became prey to his anger and his state. He never asked about her from that time. This time, The fear he had in his heart was given a voice. It started to blame his child for no reason. And it continues, But he never stayed away from her. He used to take her in his arms whenever none around till she reaches 6 months. Then her tragic accident because of him. He stopped being around her. Stopped showing anyone about his inner feeling. He was okay to live under a shed. He stayed away most of the time but also never been away from his family for a long time.

He felt so different and weird when she initiated on that night when they came back from their japan trip. Their physical relationship was always been on and off for the last two years, But she did that, He felt the heaviness in her heart which she was not ready to speak it out. He tried asking her but she ignored. It did continue for the next few days. He felt the difference in her throughout the whole time, But he resists her. He tried showing uninterest one day but she sat up in the bed and zoned off. She was lost, and he couldn't see her like that. It was for the whole 3 hours, She was in the same position zoned off. He stood up from the bed and touched her shoulder. 

"Hey, Ani." - He called her. But she didn't respond continued looking at the window without any reaction. He got hell afraid. 

"Darling!" - He again called her cupping her face blocking her vision. She continued being zoned out.

"Ani. Dear. Sweatheart. I didn't mean that. Trust me." - He tried to be sweet as much he could when he saw her blank without any expression. He tried kissing her lips but she didn't kiss him back continued being blank and lost in her thought. 

"Dear. Look here. I am rude. I am sorry for that. Please look at me, Once. I won't repeat. I promise." - He spoke cupping her face. 

"Everyone hates us." - She murmured, It was clearly heard by shivaay. He was confused. 

"Nobody hates you, Ani. I love you. Can't you sense it, Sweetheart? Don't speak like this." - He tried to console her but none of that reached her ear. She walked away in a few minutes and closed the door of the washroom. It had been thirty minutes, She still didn't come out. In the fear, He called her by knocking the door. 

"I am fine. Spare me. Please." - She yelled back. He got his breath back. She was showered and came towards the bed and slept by turning around. He didn't wait, He hugged her from the back. He thought she may stop him but the opposite happened. She didn't stop him. His doubt became so strong. He felt her so weak and frail. But in a few months, She told him she's pregnant. His doubt was cleared.

He was there for the whole time with her during the second pregnancy. But she never noticed that. He didn't go anywhere with her doctor's appointments but never failed to gaze at the reports and get a second appointment with his family doctor. He didn't want to be there with her and get her in hurt because of his unluck. The fear became stronger each passing day. Arush was born 15 days after the actual date. He was fully developed and healthy. Weighted 3.6 kg and the longest baby in the newly born babies cradle in the row. His prayers finally got answered. His baby was born healthy and fine. And anika's health condition was improving.  He finally got himself back from his fear when everything went fine in his life. But then things started to change. 

"I signed the divorce papers this time, Shivaay." - She said looking at him handing him the papers. He was shaken but she was too relaxed.

"When did I ask for this?" - He asked her stammering.

"You asked before naina's birth and I am gifting you after Arush's birth. Take it as a gift. You're a free man, from now on." - She said with a smile wiping all the happiness in his heart. 

"Anika. I didn't mean to get separated from you, Even you signed it on that day." - He said. 

"So, Am I looking like a lab rat to check the reaction of the chemical experiments." - She asked him in a fury. Her mood changed in a second. He didn't speak anything in fear which he never showed it in his face.

"We are leaving you, Forever." - She said finally. He was confused more than angry. If she already decided that, why the hell she did that. 

"Go alone. Arush will be staying with me." - He spoke in order to stop her. 

"Arush is all everyone wants. I love him and I don't want to fight for him and disturb his peacefulness. Take him. He's all yours." - She spoke out of shock. He didn't expect that from her. He couldn't take naina's name with any right. He has never been available for her at the moment she got hurt when she was six months old. 

"I taking naina with me. Our existence and non-existence ever mattered you?" - She asked him, He didn't want to answer yes. His ego took over him and made him sign the papers. 

"Get out." - He said pointing his index towards the gate. But inside he was yearning her not to leave and he again felt two-person in himself. The shivaay who cried for her not to leave buried deep inside when he fights with her with his ego and harsh words. He never tried to understand her but hurted her like none. He paid the price too when she left him forever. He found answers to everything. And also understood that His fear also distanced him from her and his daughter. Now he never let anyone hurt her further with anything. 

It was the whole thing roaming in his mind when he already boards India from London leaving everything aside. He switched on his phone. 87 calls from Anika. He got hell scared. What could have happened in those 10 hours? He spoke to them before he board. Tried calling her but her phone was switched off. He headed straight to his house. But up to his shock, Anika was already there in messed up state, Confronting his mom. Her mom was suppressing a smile. 

"What you have done to my naina? Please tell me. I am grouping my hands infront of you." - He heard anika's voice in a frail tone. He was shocked but didn't come infront of them. 

"I don't know anything. Even I have no interest in knowing anything about that black mark of our family." - Pinky spoke coldly. His fists got tightened when he heard that. 

"I know you know about her. She has been missing for the past 5 hours. I searched for her everywhere. Please tell me. I am begging you." - Anika again said, This time, Her knees reached the floor and her head bowed to her feet. He was shaken, He had no idea what was going on. 

"Please tell me where is my baby. I can't spare myself if anything happened to her again. Please tell me, Where she's." - Anika asked. He was about to come infront of them. But stopped when he heard his mom's words. 

"I warned you both to go away from my son's life. Who asked you to come back? Now bear the outcome. You deserve this." - She spoke but stopped in fear when shivaay walked towards her with the bloodshot eyes. Anika was still kneeled down and bowing her head down crying.

"You warned them?" - He asked her. She was spellbound. Anika raised her head but couldn't turn back. 

"ANI. STAND UP." - He thundered looking at his mom while giving his hand to her to stand up. She held his hand in a jerk and stood up. She couldn't meet his eyelids. But he continued to stare at his mom for answers.

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