Third Person's POV

Past; October 19, 2016

9:40 pm

Every night Jungkook drank non-stop to get rid of the pain, it's almost a week since their heated argument, it's almost a week since he ruined Jimin's special day and his special gift for the latter.

Jungkook had failed to control his emotions that day. He ignored how Jimin feels being torn between his boyfriend and bestfriend. If only Jungkook trusted Jimin enough and let him handle the situation, maybe none of this had happened.

But Jungkook was truly hurt that day, he knew he was nothing compares to Eunwoo but hearing all those things especially coming from Jimin himself causes him pain. The pain he had inside his heart when heard those words it was unbearable.

Jungkook wanted to apologize for hurting the smaller male that day, for creating a huge scene, for shouting at him, breaking his promises, for making Jimin feel that he doesn't trust him; for always disappointing the smaller male but he can't because he was ashamed of himself.

"Stop the drama Kook, if Jimin doesn't want you, let him be." Yugyeom, Jungkook's friend tells him. If he doesn't want me anymore? Jungkook thought bitterly before he pours himself another drink and takes a gulp of his drink. Jungkook is sober and could still feel how his heart aches just by the thought of the smaller male.

Yugyeom looked at the other side and then spotted someone, Yugyeom smirked and wrapped his shoulder around the other male, Jungkook furrowed his brows and gazes at his friend confused.

"Look at that girl, Kook. She's looking at your way." Jungkook looked over the girl who was dancing on the dance floor and had her eyes on him, Jungkook averted his gaze pouring his glass another drink.

"Forget about Jimin and let yourself get laid." Yugyeom says chuckling. Jungkook stops for a moment and then glanced at the girl again. Jungkook brought his glass in his lips, eyes fixed on the girl as he take a sip of his drink.

"Oh, shit, she's coming for you." Yugyeom says tone excited, he grins and look over Jungkook before patting his shoulder and left the scene. Jungkook had his eyes still on the girl before placing his glass on the counter.

The girl's eyes dilated stopping in her track and biting her lower lip seductively as she watched Jungkook walked over her. She's obvious, she doesn't even try to hide her excitement, smiling from ear to ear.

The girl didn't expect what Jungkook did next, Jungkook walked past her and intentionally bump her shoulder. To make it obvious for her that he doesn't care about her. He doesn't want anyone, he only wants Jimin.

The girl left dumbfounded and embarrassed.

Jungkook walked inside his car and then he let's out a frustrated breath, gripping his steering wheel tighter before he hit the steering wheel with his palm and then run a hand over his face in irritation.

Jungkook is angry with himself. He always messes up. All this happened because he was a fucking moron.

"Fuck, I missed you so much, baby."

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Jimin had locked up himself in their house, he doesn't want to go outside or even attend School. What happened between him and Jungkook had wounded him badly.

This isn't the first time they had an argument, they had multiple arguments already in the past but they always manage to make up as soon as possible but now, it was as if no one care and doesn't want to fix their relationship.

Jimin couldn't face him.

It's not that he was still mad at him but it's more like he chooses not to because like Jungkook, he was hurting too. It hurts to know that until now he has still trust issue with the smaller male, it hurts seeing Jungkook still doubting him. Jimin can't find any reason for Jungkook to doubt him like that.

There is no way Jimin would love someone else that is not him, he owns Jimin's heart, Jungkook owns his whole heart. It was his first time loving someone to this extent, he love him more than himself and what ever happens his heart will always choose Jungkook. He would always choose him no matter what even if that means hurting his own best friend.

But they always fight with the same reason. They fight if there's other people involved. It was like Jungkook's world is only Jimin that it hurts to see the smaller male with someone else. Jimin couldn't understand why he always feel threatened, can't he feel how much Jimin loves him? Does Jimin's love wasn't enough for him? Jimin doesn't know what to do to justify himself anymore.

He's tired of arguing with the same thing over and over again.

Jimin missed the old him. He misses how his relationship with Jimin was pure and peaceful, he just missed how he was before their relationship turned into a toxic one, before he starts being so possessive over him, before he starts behaving like his father.

It hurts to see how every time they argue, the image of his father hurting his mom popping in his mind, Jungkook reminded Jimin so much of him and he hated it.

He hated the feeling of being afraid to the person who was supposed to make him feel protected.

He doesn't want him to turn like his father. He doesn't want their relationship to get ruined, Jimin need to prevent that from happening and he had been thinking about this for days already...

They need to consider giving themselves space.

Jimin's phone rang and then Jimin turned to looked at his phone that was placed beside him, Jimin reached out his hand and take his phone in his hand and sees the caller ID.

It was Jungkook.

Jimin just stares at the screen for a moment before he decided to accept the call and then place his phone against his ear.

"Hey baby..."

His sweet and deep voice gave a painful stab in Jimin's heart directly. Jimin slowly closes his eyes as the familiar tears begin to sting in his eyes.

"I missed you...."

He says quietly and so sincere, Jimin smiled faintly, he misses him too so damn much.

"I want to see you."

He says desperately and a hot tear roll down Jimin's face hearing his painful voice, the smaller male covered his mouth using his hand, preventing from letting out a sound.

"Let me see you, please?"

Jungkook begged. Jimin took a shaky breath and swallowed the lump in his throat and opened his mouth to speak calmly as possible.

"Let's meet," Jimin manage to say tears doesn't stop from falling silently, "I'll wait for you to the place where we first met." The smaller male added voice determined.

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Jungkook immediately spotted his small frame, he was standing on the exact spot where he had first seen him, head hanging low.

Jungkook walked closer to him, his steps were slow making his heart race. He could feel his heart pounding as if it would burst from his chest any moment. Why does it feel like Jimin was up to something? Is he going to ask for a break-up? Just by the thought of it, makes Jungkook's heart shattered into pieces.

Jungkook was now in front of the smaller male with his eyes focus on him, Jimin noticed his presence, he clenched his fist and gathered some strength to look into his eyes. Jungkook's eyes held so many emotions of love, hurt, pain and sadness, a tinge of pain that crosses Jimin's eyes and couldn't help but to feel guilty, Jimin faced away unable to look at him longer.

"Let's talk somewhere else." Jungkook insisted, Jungkook turned on his heels and Jimin look over him following the taller male without a word.

Jimin and Jungkook are seated on a bench in the park, silence fell off between as they looked up deeply at the stars, cold winds hitting their skins. Jungkook slowly tilted his head to look at the smaller male's face, the mere thought of Jimin asking for a break up was enough to cut his heart open.

Jungkook immediately looks away eyes filled with nothing but sadness, Jimin glances at the taller male and felt his heart ache when he a saw a flicked of sadness on Jungkook's eyes.

"Since the day, my best friend confessed to me, you changed." Jimin trailed off and hearing the sound of his voice made Jungkook's heart sank, "You became over protective of me and started to behave like a possessive boyfriend." Jimin continued, Jungkook lowered down his head as he sink in his own guilt.

"You always behave as if someone would steal me away from you, as if I'd let someone do that to me." Jimin says voice laced with sadness, looking at the taller male with hurtful expression, "I tried to understand you, I tried to set aside my own feelings about the issue and let it passed. I lost my friends and my best friend is hurting because I chose to be with you." Jungkook remained silent and Jimin looked away, closing his eyes.

"I always put you first before me, always considering your feelings and ignoring mine because the moment, I see the hurt in your eyes I can't help but to give in and take the blame for everything." Every words causing Jungkook pain, he couldn't even lift his head up to look at Jimin as he realizes how the smaller male was hurting in their relationship.

"I know I shouldn't have done that, I should've showed you how much I'm hurting but what can I do? I love you, I can't see you hurting, it hurts me as well." Jungkook felt terrible, hoping he could vanish all the pain he had done to the smaller male.

A moment of silence had passed, Jimin looked up, blinking his tears away, heart squeezes in pain as he asks,

"But do you know what hurt me most?" His voice cracked from the mixture of being on the verge of tears, "The fact that you don't have any trust in me." Jungkook opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out.

Jungkook doesn't trust Jimin's friends but he wasn't lying when he told Jimin he trusted him but after realizing everything he couldn't blame the smaller male that he felt that way because he was completely acting as if he doesn't trust Jimin at all. Jungkook couldn't even let Jimin hang out with his friends and let Jimin handle things with his own without him meddling in. He was being unreasonable in everything, because he always let his emotion win over him.

"You were there when I rejected Eunwoo, you overheard everything I said." Jimin stated, "But why is it so hard to earn your trust? I did everything for you but why do you still doubt me?" Jungkook clenches his jaw expression troubled.

"You know exactly what happened to my family," Jimin mumbled then the tears started to fall down, "... and I can see my father in you, Jungkook-ah." He whispers voice cracking and Jungkook froze, eyes growing wide and looked at Jimin.

Jimin wiped off his tears and then he look at the other male, eyes red-rimmed from crying and cheeks wet.

"I wanted to erase that thought away but I can't because every time we argue, every time you look at me with full of hatred, with those eyes, it brings me back the memories from the past."

"You seemed out of control when you're mad, you're hurting me physically without you noticing, you are scaring me!" Jungkook's heart drops unable to speak up out of shock, he couldn't believe what he heard, "I'm scared, Jungkook. I'm scared that that it will completely ruin our relationship, I don't want our relationship to turn exactly just like what happened to them." Jungkook shook his head no, eyes welling up in tears and pained expression written all over his face.

"I wouldn't hurt you like that, Jimin. I would never-" Jimin cuts in.

"We need space." The moment Jimin said those words, Jungkook's world came crashing down and heart has been shattered into even more pieces than before.

Jungkook glances away, he stood up and took a step away and a moment after Jungkook heard Jimin's footsteps behind him.

Jungkook stood there with his back away from the smaller male, Jungkook pressed his eyes shut and ran a hand over his face angrily. Jungkook hisses as he turned around, pain and sadness visible inside his eyes.

"No, Jimin, we don't be needing that!" Jungkook shouted as he look at the smaller male in front of him but the moment he met Jimin's eyes, Jungkook's face softens, eyes shining in tears.

"I'm sorry," Jungkook whispers tears falling from his eyes, "I'm so sorry for everything, I'm so sorry for the things I did, I will change, please just no." Jungkook pleaded voice cracking, Jimin walked towards Jungkook, heart aches seeing his vulnerable condition and brought his hands to the taller male's cheeks, Jimin look on the ground, unable to bear looking into those tear-filled eyes any longer.

"Please no," Jungkook beg in his breaking voice eyes close, tears still rolling down his face, "Jungkook-ah," Jimin called out his name, breaking Jungkook's heart more. Jungkook tilt his head to the side, kissing Jimin's palm tenderly. Jimin lips trembled and heart having a crucifying pain, he tilt down Jungkook's head making their forehead touch, Jimin pressed his eyes shut.

"I love you," Jungkook said and a sob leaves his mouth, Jimin nods his head slowly, "I know, I know you love me baby but-." Jungkook immediately cut him off.

"Jimin please...." Jimin hiccuped, eyes full of tears, "Please baby, no, don't do this to me." Jimin breath in deeply and caress Jungkook's wet cheeks.

"We are not breaking over this, we just need it." Jimin says trying to keep his voice steady, "I still want to marry you, I only want you. I'm here and I'm not going anywhere. I want a happy life with you, Jungkook... but I don't want to spend my life with you with conflicts like this, I want a peaceful relationship, I know we can't avoid fighting in a relationship but what we have right now is completely different." He pauses and bit his lower lip preventing himself from letting out a painful sobs.

"We... we always fight with the same thing over and over again, I'm feeling terrified with you, it needed to be stop. I want you learn to trust me. I want your full trust. I don't want you to turn exactly like my father, I need to do this, we need to." Jimin begged desperately trying to get him understand, Jungkook opened his eyes, hands reaching to cupped Jimin's face to make the smaller male look at him.

"H-how long?" He asks giving in, looking into those brown eyes, face contorted with mix emotions, "Until you can prove to me that you can handle seeing me with other people... with my friends... that I can do things freely again with my own, without you being around, prove to me that I have your full trust." Jungkook left speechless for a moment, new tears streaming down his cheeks, Jimin thumbs Jungkook's tears away.

"Give me a month to prove myself, just by the thought of not having you around me, pains me so bad, I'll give you the space you wanted but just a month please?" Jungkook pleads, Jimin hiccuped, tears still rolling down the side of his face.

Jimin nodded his head rapidly, Jungkook smiled through the pain and wiped the tears off Jimin's cheeks. Jimin was just staring at him looking at every indent on his face as if he was memorizing them.

Jungkook looks at Jimin into the eyes before Jungkook traces his lips with his thumb, a small and painful smile spread across Jimin's face before he lean up and Jungkook closes the space between them, capturing Jimin's lips in a passionate and meaningful kiss.

Jimin slid his hands on Jungkook's chest before he broke the kiss and pushes himself off him, he took a step away head hang low, Jungkook automatically opened his eyes. Jimin clenched his fists before he turned on his heels but Jungkook grab his wrist preventing him from going anywhere, looking at Jimin with hurtful eyes.

Jungkook tightened his hold not wanting to let go and Jimin just stood there without saying a word, without even looking at him and...

With a heavy heart, Jungkook drop his hand off him, closing his eyes as Jimin walks away from him.