Chapter Forty One
Third Person's POV
Past; November 19, 2016
9:02 am.
Jimin slowly opened his eyes, scrunching his face up at the bright light. Jimin pushes himself and sat up. He grabbed his phone that was placed on the table beside his bed to check the time but then his eyes widened when he noticed he received a voice message from Jungkook.
Jungkook had sent the voice message at 12:01 in the morning. Jimin settle himself in his bed and hurriedly opened the voice message, heart beat racing so fast.
["Hey baby... Do you still remember our agreement? I asked you to give me a month and right now is the 30th day." ]
Jimin's expression fell down as he heard his faint voice and stayed silent as he listens to him.
["For the past weeks that I couldn't do anything but to be away from you, I was miserable. Its like I'm about to lose my mind, doesn't even know what to do, on how to distract myself from the pain, from the emptiness that I felt because of your absence."]
["I badly want to embrace you in my arms and don't ever let you go. I wanted to hold you again, I wanted to be near you."]
["But then whenever I see you looking so peaceful and contented whenever you are with your friends, with your bestfriend, doing your own things without me, makes me realize how selfish I was."]
["I took one of the things that makes you happy because I was over possessive of you and ignoring the fact that you do have your own life too."]
Jimin felt his eyes stinging because he could feel the pain Jungkook was feeling at the moment, I wish I was there to hold you and tells you, it's okay now.
["Remember when Eunwoo confessed to you?"]
["His confession triggered me, it all started because of that. I couldn't help but to doubt your love. I'm so fucking sorry for feeling that way... I couldn't help it."]
["I... I was threatened."]
Jimin pressed his eyes shut tightly. Jimin knows that he felt that way, that he feel threatened to Eunwoo but still he said those hurtful words to him...
"Eunwoo is my bestfriend Jungkook, a very close friend of mine. He came into my life first before you, did you already forgot? He's the person who knows me most, who understand me more than anyone else, more than you!"
Jimin's heart felt so heavy and ached like hell. He regret saying those hurtful words towards Jungkook, he didn't even apologize for saying those.
["You're the first person that made me feel this way, you are the first person that I ever loved like this and I was afraid that someone will take you from me. Someone who is so much better than me, someone like Eunwoo."]
But he is not you. Eunwoo, maybe he knows me better but I only want you, you're the only one that I could imagine to spend my life with, Jungkook-ah.
["I- I'm so sorry..."]
Jimin's heart tightens when Jungkook's voice suddenly cracked.
["I was insecure and wasn't aware that I started acting up like your father and knowing that you are scared of me makes my heart shattered into a million pieces, I failed you... I am supposed to make you feel protected yet you are scared of me."]
["Then you asked for a space to fix myself... You wanted me to change my behavior..."]
["The moment where I wasn't around you anymore, I realized how I slowly changed as the time goes by and seeing you looking so happy without any worries while hanging out with different people it makes me feel contented especially every time you smile."]
["I wanted you to see the change in me, how I change for you and for our relationship. I want you to feel protected again, baby."]
["Only.... If you would accept me back in your life."]
Jungkook pauses as if he was hesitating to say it and then Jimin heard him letting out a heavy sigh.
["Would you still want be back, baby?"]
"Of course, I want you back." Jimin mumbled smiling widely through his tearful eyes.
["No, Screw it! Forget I asked that stupid question."]
Jimin frowned.
["You would still want be back, right? We are still getting married, why did I even asked?"]
Jimin chuckles softly and the tears that being held in his eyes came pouring down.
["I will pick you up and take you to date later, 8 pm sharp.
Wait for me."]
Jimin wiped off his tears using his hands, feeling amused and overwhelmed at Jungkook's voice message, "You're such a bad guy for making me cry." He whispers to himself smile evident in his lips.
A noise that coming from outside of his room suddenly caught his attention, Jimin frowned and places down his phone before walking towards the door.
His frown deepened when he realized the door wasn't locked and was slightly opened.
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7:15 pm
"Hello, there." Chanyeol blurted out as he looks at his brother from head to toe. Jimin giggles and averted his gaze from the mirror and look over his older brother.
"I see," Chanyeol trailed off, "My little brother look so happy today I wonder why is that?" He added tone playful, Jimin faces his brother.
"What do you think about my outfit?" He asks him, Chanyeol places his arms over his chest. Eyeing his brother's outfit.
"I think it's too simple." He commented, not satisfied which made Jimin pout because he thought it looks cute on him.
"Oh, really." Jimin says tone disappointed before looking back at his reflection. He is wearing a striped sweater that was too big for him and a black tight pants.
"You have a date with Jungkook, don't you?" Jimin bit his bottom lip before he turned his head and smiled smugly at his brother. Chanyeol laughs.
"So you guys are together again?" Chanyeol asked amused, "We never had broken up in the first place, hyung." Jimin pointed out and gave his hyung a look.
"I know, I know, you're both too whipped to each other for that to happen." Chanyeol says grinning, Jimin rolled his eyes before going back to his cabinet to choose another outfit. When he noticed his brother is still standing there he shoot him a glare.
"I can't focus with you being here so now go because I need to prepare." Jimin says giggling shooing his brother away.
"Fine, fine!" Chanyeol says shaking head smiling.
7:35 pm
Jimin smiles as he look at his outfit, he is wearing a white long sleeves tucked into a pair of black tight pants with a belt, outlining his small frame and small waist. Jimin gazes down at his hand and sees the ring on his finger, he flashes a satisfied smile before walking outside his room.
7:48 pm
Jimin is dying from excitement and nervousness, he was feeling a mix emotion right now. He can't wait to see his boyfriend, he doesn't even realizes he was unconsciously playing with his engagement ring.
7:57 pm
A loud ring echoed throughout the room, Jimin's face lit up and looked at the door. He clumsily stood up and cursed internally.
"Jimin, relax, it's just Jungkook. Calm down." He said to himself before he rushes towards the door. He held the doorknob in his hand before he closes his eyes and breaths in slowly.
Jimin twisted the doorknob with a large smile and slowly opens his eyes to look at his boyfriend.
The smaller male's smile slowly faded upon seeing Eunwoo instead of Jungkook. A frown sprung appears in his face completely confused.
Eunwoo smiled at him and handed Jimin a bouquet of flowers and when Jimin just stayed looking at him, Eunwoo chuckles and shove the flowers to the smaller male's chest, catching Jimin by surprise and was forced to hold the flowers in his arms.
Jimin opened his mouth to ask him but Eunwoo cut him off immediately as he grab Jimin's waist with one hand, pulling him closely before he planted a soft kiss on Jimin's lips. The smaller male's eyes widens out of shock, his mind completely went blank and...
Jungkook drop off the bouquet of roses he was holding as he look at the two with hurtful eyes.
Jimin came back to his senses and took a step backward looking at Eunwoo with a questioning gaze and a mixture of betrayal in his face. Jimin's heart beat stopped for a while and felt his blood runs cold when he sees Jungkook, behind his bestfriend looking at them with pained expression.
Jimin slowly shake his head expression troubled as he locked eyes with Jungkook as if telling the other male it's not what he think.
Jungkook tore his gaze, he turn on his heels and started to walk away. Jimin immediately shove the flowers towards his bestfriend, pushing Eunwoo out the way harshly and hurriedly run after the other male.
"Jungkook-ah!" Jimin desperately call out, heart pounding against his ribcage but the other male pretended he didn't hear Jimin shouting his name.
"Jungkook, wait!" Jimin begged but the latter continued to ignore him, Jimin held his arm and forced Jungkook to face him, Jimin looks up at him with troubled expression.
"Jungkook-ah, what you've seen earlier, it's nothing, it's not what you think." Jimin hurriedly explained while shaking his head. Pleading silently that Jungkook would listen to him but Jungkook refuses to look at him, eyes fixed on the other direction, pain written all over his face.
"Jungkook-ah," Jimin calls out desperately and moves closer before he brought his hands to cup Jungkook's cheeks caressing it softly. Jimin was focus on him through his tear filled gaze, hoping Jungkook would look at him.
"Baby, listen to me," Jimin asks him voice shaking, tears threatening to fall down, "I didn't know okay? I didn't know that Eunwoo would show up and-" Jungkook glances down at him, removing Jimin's hands from holding him harshly.
"And what? You didn't know that he would kiss you?" Jungkook spat out clearly not believing Jimin's excuse, "Did you just make up those things so that you could be with him? Or when I was away you realized you weren't still over him?" He accuses tone rough. Jimin eyes widened, heart sinking at Jungkook's remarks, he couldn't believe that Jungkook would accuse him with such things, Jimin swallowed the lump in his throat, blinking his tears away.
"I don't..." Jimin whispers audibly tone hurt, "I don't love him that way, you know that." Jimin reminded him looking up at Jungkook eyes full of pain.
"Then what was that?" Jungkook snaps at him.
"Why did you look so happy upon seeing him instead of me?" Jungkook asked him voice cracking in mid-sentence, Jimin tries to explain again but he got cut off immediately, "Why did you two kissed?!" Jungkook asks roughly and a tear began to fall from Jimin's eyes.
"Trust me, I didn't kiss him---"
"I trusted you!" Jungkook shouted full of rage and eyes filled with tears while pointing his finger on Jimin, "I trusted you with my whole heart but look what you did?" A sharp pain shot in Jimin's heart when Jungkook's tears started rolling down his face, "You only hurt me." He almost whispers and Jimin shook his head, opening his mouth to talk trying to get him understands but nothing came out.
"I always have this question in my mind," Jungkook's voice trailed off as he looked on him, "Will you be able to choose me over him?" A sad smile appears in Jungkook's lips, "But now I don't need to ask myself over and over again because the scene earlier was enough to answer my question." He stated, Jimin shook his head, lips wobbling uncontrollably.
"I love you," Jimin tells him, "I only love you." He said again sincerely.
"Enough." Jungkook whispers audibly voice tired and hurt, "It's too painful, just stop." Jimin tries to reach out for him but Jungkook took a step away, a sobs escapes from the smaller male's lips, new tears streaming down his cheeks.
Jungkook looks at the smaller male with sad eyes for one last time before turning on his heels, walking away.
"Jungkook-ah," Jimin calls out in between his sobs, Jungkook clenches his jaw and stops, "Throw the ring away, you're no longer engage to me. You could do whatever you want, I don't care anymore." Jungkook says and Jimin felt his heart ripping apart.
Jimin let out a painful sob hand clutching into his chest as he let himself fall onto his knees.
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