Chapter Forty Eight
Third Person's POV
Eunwoo dragged Jimin outside the School when he was about to follow Jungkook. "How long have you been interacting with him? You know, you shouldn't." Jimin stopped walking, Eunwoo look at him with irritated expression and Jimin look at him with confused expression. Just like Chanyeol, Eunwoo is against of him interacting with Jungkook so Eunwoo know the reason why.
"How would I know? I lost my memories and you didn't mention him to me, not even once." Jimin said voice laced with sadness. Eunwoo then gave him a pointed look, "Now that you know, you should stop seeing him, you should stop getting near him." Eunwoo spat voice annoyed. The smaller male clenches his fist and swallowed the lump in his throat, before opening his mouth to ask him again.
"Why?" He almost whispered voice scared. "What was the reason?" Jimin added while still looking at him with confused gaze. Eunwoo's eyes changes into a hesitation because had promise Chanyeol to not bring what happened in past and apart from that reason, he's also scared that it might break Jimin.
"Tell me!" He half shouted angrily when the taller chooses to stay silent. "Fucking tell me Eunwoo!" Jimin shouted again eyes full of rage, Eunwoo looked at him expression unreadable and Jimin felt his heart racing violently against his chest.
"Jungkook was the reason why you got into the accident two years ago." Jimin's eyes widened.
5:59 pm
After hearing what Eunwoo said to him, Jimin asked him again but Eunwoo brushes him away saying that was all he can tell, the smaller male left his friend and finds himself sitting on a grass while looking at the view in front of him for hours already, face blank.
"Jungkook was the reason why you got into the accident two years ago."
I left Busan because of Jungkook but unfortunately the accident happened and they blamed everything to him. Jungkook ended up blaming himself hence why until now he can't still forgive himself.
But I survived, I'm alive, I'm still breathing yet he's still blaming himself and feels sorry for me. I really thought the reason why he pushes me away was because he's scared that he'll get hurt again but it turns out it was the other way around. He pushes me away because he doesn't want me to get hurt again. If that was his reason then I will try to convince him. I will sort things out between us.
I fell into him, I fell again without realizing it since the night fate brought us together again and I will never let him go, my heart is calling out for him, my heart wants him, he owns my heart and the only thing I want right now is for us to be together again.
Jimin realizes he was already crying and chuckles softly before wiping off his tears using his hands. He needs to find Jungkook to tell him what he really feels about him. Jimin badly want to be with him because he loves him so much, he loves everything about him, Jimin loves his big doe eyes and the way his eyes crinkle when he laughs or when his lips would curve into a smile. He love how protective Jungkook is with him, the way he cares for him, he loves his touches, he loves it when he let Jimin uses his shoulder as pillow or when he carry Jimin, hug Jimin, kisses Jimin in his sleep, literally everything.
Jimin's phone then vibrates snapping his thoughts. His eyes widened when he realizes it was Jungkook. The smaller male presses the accept button and brought his phone close to his ear. "I'm sorry." Jungkook says in the other line, Jimin felt his heart aches at the sound of his voice.
"I'm sorry for hurting you earlier." Jimin bit his lower lip and nodded his head because he couldn't open his mouth to talk. "I'm so sorry for always hurting you." He said again voice contorted with nothing but sadness. "I didn't mean to." Jimin hummed in response while nodding his head rapidly and then Jungkook pauses for a moment and there's a long silence fell between them.
"Where are you?" Jimin finally asked but instead of answering him. "Please forget about me." Jungkook whispered audibly. "Just forget about me." He said tone desperate, Jimin's expression fell down and heart clenches in an unbearable pain.
"Where are you?" Jimin repeated himself keeping his voice calm. "Tell me where you are." Jimin asked again but the latter remained silence and soon hangs up. A sigh of disappointment escape from the smaller male's lips and presses his eyes shut in annoyance.
Not long enough, Jimin opened his eyes and scroll through his phone, he presses the button and called Taehyung.
6:40 pm
Just as he walked outside the Bar his eyes landed on the smaller male. Jungkook could see the sadness that build around him but he brushes it away and was the one who glances away first and headed straight towards the Parking lot.
"Do you think asking me to forget about you will make things better between us?" Jungkook pauses from opening his car door and clenches his jaw. Why Jimin is so stubborn? Why can't he just leave it that way and forget about Jungkook. It's not that they are together, they are just friends for fuck sake. Can't the smaller male see that he is giving Jungkook a hard time?
"After everything that happens do you really think I would forget you that easily?" Jimin asked him tone mockery and Jungkook rolled his tongue against the inside of his cheek in annoyance, "How low of you to think that I would." Jimin spit out at him.
Jungkook faces the smaller male and their eyes locked. "Why do you keep on pushing yourself to me, huh? Why is it so hard for you to just stay the fuck away?!" Jungkook asked him roughly with sharp eyes.
"Because I am in love with you!" Jimin retorts back at him, "I can't stay away from you even how hard you try because I love you, do you understand now?" Jungkook freezes on his spot, heart racing so fast.
"What?" He managed to ask and in disbelief, Jimin swallowed the lump in his throat and look deeply into the latter's dark eyes.
"I fell... for you... Again." Jimin said firmly confessing to him sincerely.
"And I'm tired of pretending that I don't." Jimin tells him voice cracking in mid-sentence, eyes started to water, "I'm tired of acting oblivious, I'm tired of acting weak and sick or even pretending to be asleep just to get your attention and get taken care of you!" He admitted pain painted all over his face, Jungkook remained looking at Jimin in disbelief. Jimin can't fall in love with him again. Not again.
"No." He said denying the smaller male's confession and Jimin felt a painful stab inside his heart. "No, you don't." He repeated himself. "You are just saying that because you don't know what really happen in the past." Jungkook pointed out eyes were full of emotions that Jimin can't read.
"Does the past really matter?" The younger male questioned him, "I fell in love with you without knowing who you are in my life. I fell in love with you without having any memories from the past! Isn't that enough reason to start over again?" Jimin continued, eyes searching for an answer.
"We broke up for a reason Jimin." Jungkook said to him instead of answering Jimin's question, Jimin shook his head stubbornly tears ready to spill from his eyes.
"I'm willing to forgive you, just please." Jimin tells him voice suddenly changes into soft one as if he was persuading the other male. Jungkook averted his gaze from the smaller male and closed his eyes, unable to bear looking into Jimin.
"It's easy for you to say that because you don't know what I did to you." Jungkook says trying to make him understand that it's completely different. He has amnesia that's why it's easy for him to forgive Jungkook but if Jimin didn't forgotten his memories he would never forgive him.
"Do you think I care?! I don't, Jungkook!" Jimin says shaking his head, "I don't." He said again making it clear for the taller male, Jungkook gazes back to him. "I just want to be with you is that too much to ask?" Jimin continued and whispered the last part voice tired already.
When he got no response from him, Jimin kneeled down onto his knees, he doesn't care how pathetic he looks right now. Jungkook was taken aback, eyes growing wide and mouth hangs open in surprised.
"Please," Jimin said to him in desperation. "I'm begging you, give us a chance, I know you still love me, let's start over again and be happy together." He begged in his breaking tone. Jungkook curses under his breath and rashes towards the shorter male. "Enough, Jimin. Just stop this already." He said grabbing Jimin's arms making his hand in his own feet.
Jimin stared at him looking for answer but Jungkook only look at him with hurtful eyes before dropping his hands off Jimin. "We can't be together again." He said voice painful, Jimin's tears came pouring down his face pathetically.
"Then tell me the reason why! Make me understand why?!" Jimin screamed at Jungkook's face in frustration when he only shut his mouth and looks away. Jimin grabbed him harshly by the collar, "Look at me! Look at me and tell me why!" He said through gritted teeth, gripping Jungkook's shirt tightly.
Jungkook slowly look down at him through his tear filled gaze. "I..." He trailed off and tears started rolling down his face completely tearing Jimin's heart apart but little did the smaller male know the next thing Jungkook will say would completely crash his world down.
"I... raped you, Jimin."
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