A kiss that is never tasted, is forever and ever wasted.

—Billie Holiday
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"What are you thinking?" Nic asked me softly.

I take a deep breath, engulfing oxygen as much as I can explain to him.

"Love".

"What love?" He gives the impression of being confused and I get it. sometimes I don't even understand my thoughts.

"I'm not fond of love. Neither I want to fall in love nor do I believe in it. As far as my parents, I believe they were in love during my childhood. They were so happy and lively. I don't even remember when things started taking an ugly turn.
All I hear were screams and the sobbing of my mother. Love is just a fictional word that people love to hear, read but they don't even know the actual meaning of it. For everyone affection, lust, attraction towards one is love. But that's not true". I was so immersed in my explanation that I didn't even look at him. He was listening to me with full attention with those glittery eyes.

He raised his brows asking me why I stopped in between. And I shake my head.

"Love is something that should be pure, free, and selfless.
People said you'll get to know when you are going to fall in love with anyone".

"But how the hell I'm going to get to know. What if I just passed by him in the past"

He laughed. What? he laughed after I explained so much.

"This isn't funny"? I rolled my eyes.

"Love isn't soft like those poets say. Love has teeth which bite and the wounds would never close".He said those words that hit my heart.

"Is that from you?"I asked.

"No.it's what Stephen King said. And it's a fact" He sighed.
Is he suffering from heartbreak? The sadness reflects from his eyes.

" What the fuck are you doing here"?Harsh voices came from afar yet got our attention. A man who is in casual clothes tee and pj's coming towards us. When lights reflect on his face, I was startled.

"Mr.Devil"

"Huh"..Nic glare at me and then towards Mr.Devil.

"What the hell are you doing here Olivia"?He blasts at me with anger as his chest contracts and expands rapidly.

"I was just come out for some fresh air. and Nic met me here coincidentally". I wrapped my arm around nic' arm and pinch him to react but he was standing like a mannequin there.

Mr.Devil pulled me towards him and placed his hand on my shoulder. "You, stay away from her". He points a finger towards Nic.

"She is outside with a friend. You have nothing to worry about".Nic winks at Mr.Devil which is going to boil his blood more.

"She is my secretary. Keep that in your shitty brain"
With that, he pulled me and I waved Nic from behind. He smiled back.

This is so embarrassing, he is pulling me like a kid. I looked at the floor instead of anywhere else. He is creating a show here for hundred of eyes. He closed his room door behind me.

"Why don't you listen to me. Just stay the fuck away from Nicholas. Is it rocket science for you to understand?".
Where I was standing near the wall and he is walking furiously back and forth in the room.

"Why? I'm not your fucking puppy. I have my social life too".I hollered back.

He moved closer as my back touches the wall, he placed his arms on both sides of my face. Two inches gap he left. His warm breath touches my skin.

"Sei così fottutamente bella. È così difficile persino controllarmi".

"What"? I squeezed my temple in irritation. What the hell?  Can't he speak in English?

"Mi stai facendo impazzire".
The words slip from his soft lips. They seem seductive yet I don't know what he was saying. But my heart flutters the way the words slip from his mouth.

"Translate" I rolled my eyes.

"Non sai nemmeno quanto, voglio baciarti in questo momento,amore". Damn!! Which language it is? I think I have to learn it. French? Italian? I only get one word, Amore. That's love.

"Let me go. I don't want to hear your shitty language". I whined

"I hate you," He said something that wasn't expecting.

"Huh. Do I even ask you to love me"? I  retorted back.

"Stop me now, if I go further I can't stop myself". I doesn't even understand what he said as my mind is still processing. His eyes slide to my lips and in a blink of a second. He pressed his lips on mine while his one hand move to my waist pulling me closer.
He sucks my lower lip and a little moan slid from my side. Spark runs through my whole body make me want him more. What am doing? Why am not pushing him away? It's hard to accept but am enjoying his soft lips on mine, the way his lips playing with me. But am not giving him anything for entrance. He pulled my lower lip with teeth, yet another moan slips. My legs felt so weak and my heart thumping fast in my chest.

Fuck!! I regained the memories of my past and I can't fucking trust anyone. I couldn't let my guard down. I pushed him and slap him hard on his soft cheek. I open the door and a small drop slid from an eye. I rush to my room with full energy after locking the door I fell on the floor. Hoping that he is not going to follow me. I'm going to hate myself for this.

I remember the incident that happened years ago, I hate the touch of that biker guy. I try to walk to the bathroom but I felt so weak. Somehow I reached there and turn on the shower. I fell on the marble where water sprinkles on my whole body. I pressed my knees towards my chest. Mr. Devil's grip on me, I felt his soft lips on mine again and again. How am going to face him? He surely going to kick me out of his sight. What if he leave me here and went back to California. I don't have money either.

I pulled myself together and god knows for how many hours I sit there.

Daxton

I saw Olivia heading towards the beach alone from the balcony. I shouldn't act like that before. Maybe I need to talk to her. When I saw her standing there on the beach in between the glittering lights and cold breeze. She looks pale yet beautiful. I saw Nicholas approaches her. Blood boils in my veins. But suddenly my phone vibrated and I slide my phone.
"Miller"

"Boss" a Manly voice came from the other side.

"Jade, I'll talk to you later" I snapped

"It's important- " I didn't let him complete when I saw Olivia attack Nic with a knife. Woah!! She is a fighter too. That makes me want her more. A smirk played on my lips, I'm quite impressed by her reflexes, she is quite fast.

But then my phone vibrates again and I got another call. Fuck!!

It takes me quite a moment as Marcus is the only person on this earth whom I love more than my life. He followed my orders and made me laugh with the little jokes that he learned from his school.

Now I have to deal with this Nic. I want to kill him right now. The way he looks at her.
But my anger makes things worse. And I ended up getting a slap from her. I don't know why she did that. I fucking felt that she was enjoying and the moans she slips from her voice. Damn!! That turned me on.

When I stare at her lips while she talks. There's a 100 percent chance that I'm thinking about kissing her. Fuck!! I'm not angry at her. I never felt that instead, I was thinking about how she felt and why she rushed away.?
Should I talk to her?

No!! That's a bad idea. Maybe later.
Jade's name again lights up on my screen.
Yes!!

"Daxton what the fuck!! why the hell you are not picking up"? He hollered from the other side though I felt his tensed voice.

"What is it?" I asked. I don't want to waste my energy right now. There's so much I have to think about.

"It's about Olivia" He whispers her name. My muscles tensed when I hear her name.

"She is not that innocent". I'm going to bash his face until I beat the hell out of him. If he said any nuisance about her.

"See Jade, I don't want to hear any bullshit right now".I slide my phone on the bed and lay beside it staring at the ceiling.

"I have proof. Until then stay away from her".His voice still coming from the other side and I cut the call immediately.
I get it, he is just being protective because of ex-secretary betrayed us and sold our delicate information. Though meanwhile I already appointed my men to look after her property. Maybe she came back to see her old mother soon. But I don't think so, Olivia is going to do these types of things. She is furious and rebels but betraying. I shake my head.

Jade

Daxton is not just my boss but a brother to me. We are going to get Evelyn soon but the moment Olivia asks me to help her mother. My brain running like a rollercoaster and suspicion is an evil thing. Once you suspect someone, you have to check every single detail until and unless you get rid of your doubts. And doubts in our job would lead to bloodshed if we ignore something.

Sophia trusts Olivia. Most of the time she was blabbering about her. I hope my suspicion is irrelevant as I'm 100 percent sure that Boss catches feelings for her and he is not going to believe it until he realizes himself. I sighed. Waiting for Martínez's email.

His time is going to up in few minutes.
Bing!!

I hear sound from my laptop. I rush and check it's from Martinez's. Though it's from "Vanessa" named email. That's our code word to get the profile information.

Olivia White
Born on December 3, 1999 (21) Chicago, Illinois
Parents- Penelope Reed (36)
                  Alfred White (41)
Sibling-None
Alfred White - Chicago PD
Serving in the Chicago police department for 15 years.

Olivia and her mother shifted to San Francisco 7-8 months ago.
Traumatic Brain injury- Alfred was found seriously injured at his house in Chicago exactly before Olivia and her mother came to San Francisco. Alfred also lodged a file missing complaint of his daughter and wife but later pulled out. It's got 5 months to recover from brain injury. Hopefully, there's a closed brain injury, and his skull was not broken. But due to inner bleeding, he is still recovering from it.

It doesn't make any sense. Olivia using her mother's surname. These photographs of Alfred's injury, were critical. Why Olivia and her mother came to this city when Alfred's life was at stake?  Why exactly at the same time?  I print out the old man picture with black dark eyes, grey hair makes him look elder but he is quite fit though, no bumpy grumpy police officer. Send them to my men in Chicago as well as in San Fransisco. I'm sure if Olivia asked me to look after her mother then this guy is surely in our city.

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Okay, so who doesn't understand what Daxton said before. It was in Italian. Am going to write numbers 1,2,3.

1. You are so fucking beautiful. It's so hard to even control myself.

2. You are making me insane.

3. You don't even know how badly, I want to kiss you right now.

And yeah, the kiss didn't end up well. 😅

Hope you enjoyed it. My fellas❤❤️

Love you all.❤