A/N: Hey guys! So you didn't beat the last goal, but I really wanted to just get this up anyways because those of you that did comment left a lot of nice things and just it's whatever for this time I guess. Um with the whole Aiden thing it's making this story take a bit of a different turn than I originally planned so this is probably going to be a really long fic because we will have to get over that drama and then work into the whole part of Harry and Louis falling in love with each other and everything.

Dedicated to @cliffbarry59 because I loved their comment about how it was their first time reading my work and they were glad they did. Thank you so much! GO FOLLOW GUYS!

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“Harry?” Louis asked gently that night. After they had gotten home from the hospital Harry just went right up to their room and has been laying in bed since.

    “Just leave me alone.”

    Louis sighed climbing out of his bed and walking over to Harry laying down next to him and pulling him into his arms. “Please talk to me.”

    “I don’t want to go back.”

    “What do you mean?”

    “The hospital. I hate going because it reminds me of Aiden. It reminds me of everything he did to me. How I ratted him out and was laying in that hospital bed broken and alone,” Harry gripped onto Louis’ shirt crying gently.

    “But being there meant you finally got out. You stood up for yourself and got help. What Aiden did to you was wrong. You also met Nick there, he seems nice.”

    Things were silent for a few minutes before Harry finally spoke up, “Can I ask you something?”

    “Of course.”

    “What’s so appealing about me?” Harry’s face was all scrunched up, he didn’t understand why anyone liked him.

    “You’re perfect.” At that Harry scoffed. “I’m serious. You have beautiful green eyes that are easy to get lost in, your curls are soft and bouncy, your lips and soft, your nose crnkles when you’re mad it it’s kind of cute actually, and overall you have this innocent vibe and are something special.”

    “So that makes it okay for someone to rape me?”

    Louis’ heart clenched at the sad tone he asked that in. “No, it doesn’t. It makes you deserved to be loved.”

    Louis pulled Harry closer to his chest as a sob escaoed past his lips. He let him cry it out and even punch at his chest in frustration, he needed this, needed to let go. It took him a while to calm down, but eventually he did and laid on his back staring at the ceiling, vision slihtly blurred from the tears. “I don’t deserve love Louis. I don’t need it and I don’t want it. No one can love someone like me. I can’t even get past this and I honestly don’t know if I ever will. It’s always going to haunt me.”

    Louis rolled over so he was sitting on top of Harry straddling his hips. “You deserve all the love in the world Harry. I don’t care how long it takes, I don’t care if I have to spend the rest of my life holding you while you cry, I will show you that things aren’t so bad anymore.”

    Harry just couldn’t take it anymore. He grabbed the front of Louis’ shirt pulling him down and connecting their lips. Louis didn’t hesitate before kissing him back. It was desperate and quick. Harry needing something to hold him here in the present. Something to prove to him that he was worth something.

    “Boys?” Anne said knocking on the door.

    Louis rolled off Harry quickly falling onto the floor. “Fuck,” He mumbled before standing up and unlocking the door. Harry his himself under the covers wanting to disappear. “Hi,” Louis said.

    “Hello. Harry?” Anne walked in sitting on the edge of his bed. “Harry it’s going to be fine. They just need to fix your nose up a bit, won’t even take that long.”

    “Don’t care.”

    “What do I have to say or do or get you to make this okay?”

    Harry poked his head out of the top of the duvet. “Mum, nothing is going to make this okay.”

    Anne sighed. “Louis would you mind giving us a moment?”

    “Sure thing. I’ll be in the sitting room Harry okay?” Harry nodded an watched as Louis left the room closing the door behind him.

    “Harry, I need to know something. Did Aiden do anything more to you? Because I understand how you’re feeling, but if it was just that one time like you said, I don’t know, I just, I don’t feel like it should be effecting you as much as it is.”

    “I promise Mum, that was it. I don’t know. I guess it just shook me up a bit.”

    “Okay. So, how are you and Louis getting along?”

    “Good actually. He’s been really nice to me.”

    “Well, do you want him to take you for it? You two can spend the day together and get to know each other better. I’ll leave you two with some money for lunch or something.”

    “Su-sure. Thanks Mum.”

    “Love you Sweetie.” Anne kissed his forehead before standing up and leaving the room. Harry smiled before climbing out of bed and making his way to the sitting room. It was downstairs and in the back corner. It had windows all in it to see outside into all the trees. It was pretty secluded and it never seemed like anyone was ever in there other than Louis from time to time.

    Harry walked in seeing Louis sitting in the chair reading a book. He 2lked over before just sitting right in his lap. “Hi,” He smiled.

    Louis smiled up at Harry and pecked his lips. “What did she want?” Louis asked curiously.

    “Just asking about Aiden. Wanted to see if he did more to me than what I told her.” Harry said ducking his head.

    “What did you say?”

    “That he didn’t do anything than what I told her he did.”

    “Harry,” Louis sighed. “You should tell her.”

    “What? That I was sexually and physically abused for several years?” Harry said standing up.

    “Harry, it’ll be fine. She should know.”

    “No she shouldn’t. You better not say anything to her either you fucking queer!” Harry spat. Louis stopped and froze sitting there. “Oh, oh God Louis I’m so sorry.”

    Louis stood up and sighed. “It’s fine. I shouldn’ve brought the subject up to begin with.”

    “No, it’s fine. I know you’re right, but, I’m just not ready to tell her.”

    “Okay. How about we go back up to bed now?”

    “Kay.” The two boys went back upstairs where they climbed right into Louis’ bed cuddling close together. “Night Lou.”

    “Night Harry.”

~.~

    A few days had passed and before Harry knew it Louis was driving them to the hospital to have his nose fixed. “How you doing over there?” Louis asked him reaching out and taking his hand in his.

    “I don’t know. I wish I didn’t have to go though.”

    “Maybe it’s good though you know?” Harry turned to Louis raising an eyebrow. “Kind of facing things? Like, you need to take control of your life again. Otherwise it won’t get better.”

    “I know.” Harry nodded squeezing Louis’ hand searching for comfort.

    “I promise you, everything will be okay.”

    Harry just nodded and stared out the window effectively ending the conversation.

    As soon as Louis parked the car Harry was completely silent and zoned out. Louis held onto his hand tightly and led him inside. They rode the elevator in silence and Louis watched on as Harry just followed behind him. “Hello,” The lady behind the desk greeted as soon as they walked into the office.

    “Hi. Harry Styles,” Louis responded. “He’s here for have a bit of surgery on his broken nose.”

    “Oh, I’m sorry dear,” She offered Harry a small smile before turning to her computer. “Ah yes. Just have a seat and Dr.Clover will be out in a few to get you. Don’t worry dear, this only takes a little bit of time. They’ll give you some anesthia and fix you right up in no tme.”

    Harry just turned walking away. Louis thanked the lady and followed him over sitting down. “You alright?” Louis asked gently. Harry didn’t respond. “Harry, come on. Don’t let Aiden control this. You heard her. It’s real quick and then you’ll be all better.”

    Harry turned to Louis and his eyes became greener and his whole body relaxed. “Thanks.”

    Louis smiled at Harry, “Hey, see, you can pull yourself out of this.”

    Harry blushed before laying his head on Louis shoulder. “Can we get lunch after this then see a movie?”

    “Of course. You can pick too.” Harry laughed a little. “What?”

    “I just realized something.”

    “What is that something?”

    “My Mum pretty much unknowingly gave us money to go on a date.” Louis didn’t laugh though. Harry sat up. “I’m sorry. Did I say something wrong?”

    Louis shook his head and smiled. “No it’s not that. This is not a date though. Not properly at least. I need to ask you on one. I need time to prepare.”

    Harry just laughed. “Yeah, okay.”

    “Harry, so good to see you,” Dr.Clover greeted.

    Harry became silent again. “He’s a tad nervous,” Louis provided.

    “No need to be. This should only take 15 or 20 minutes Harry. I have a good feeling for you too. Usually these surgeries only work half the time so some have to undergo further alternations, but I was looking over your x-ray’s again and it wasn’t too bad of a break so I should be able to fix it up. Your nose will stay sensitive to pain from now on though so bopping it will hurt more, but it’s no biggie really.” Dr.Clover smiled explaining. “So, how about we go do this?”

    Harry turned to Louis who smiled at him. “You’ll be fine. I’ll see you in a few.”

    Harry nodded standing up and following Dr.Clover. Louis sighed as soon as the door closed. He hoped things go okay.

~.~

    25 minutes later Harry walked out of the door with Dr.Clover. He had a little white tap over his nose, but otherwise looked fine. “Hey,” Louis greeted.

    “He is all set to go. Diane will make him another appointment, I would like to see him in a month just to ensure his nose has healed properly. Take care Harry.”

    “Thank you,” Harry said.

    “You okay?” Louis asked.

    “Yeah. Does my nose look okay?”

    Louis laughed. “It looks fine.” Louis leaned in pecking the tip of Harry’s nose. “Cute as a button. I’ll go get your appointment card.

    “Okay. I’ll meet you in the car.”

    Harry left Louis and rode the elevator back down before leaving the building and finding the car. He leaned againt the side realizing he forgot to ask Louis for the keys. He watched the people walking to and from their cars, most with children, others on their own, and some with work badges. “He’s in town?” Harry rolled his eyes at the lady who just got out of her car that parked next to them. She leaned agains the tailgate finishing her conversation.
“That’s awesome. I’ll have to call his Mum and stop in sometime.” She sat there listening to her friend speak for a moment. “Yeah. Well no, wasn’t he in jail for some kind of thing to do with his little friend? Yeah. No it was on his birthday.” Harry’s eyebrows scrunched together and he subtly looked over at the lady listening closely. “No. His Mum told me that he hit his friend and was like going to rape him or something.” Harry’s body tensed. “I know. She said he when she visited him and everything that they talked and things were just crazy. He only did time for like a year or something. She said he’s been living in London since and doesn’t really come home much.” Harry’s breathing quickened up. This story sounded too familiar. “Yeah. The boys name was Harry something. No, she doesn’t know about them anymore. She just said they left Cheshire a little while ago. Moved to Doncaster or something like that. She got married. Well I’m going to be late if I don’t get inside now. Yup. I’ll tell Aiden you said hi, don’t worry. Bye.” They lady hung up and walked away having no idea what effect her conversation had on the curly haired boy standing just a few feet away.

    “Hey sorry it took me so long,” Louis smiled as he jogged over.

    “It’s fine,” Harry said before climbing in the car. He bit his lip and stared out the window. He needed to let this go.

    “So, lunch?” Harry nodded. “Where?”

    “Don’t care.”

    “You alright?” Louis asked concerned.

    “Fine, just drive.”

    Louis sighed before popping the car into gear and pulling out. Harry pulled his phone out texting Nick.

Curls: I need you.

Grimmy: What’s wrong?

Curls: Aiden’s back in town.

~.~

    Louis and Harry just picked up a couple sandwhiches and ate them in the car on the way to see a movie that Harry didn’t pay attention to. When they got home Harry went right to the living room to find his Mum. “Hey Mum?”

    “Yeah?”

    “If it’s alright with you can I go spend the night at Nick’s house tonight?”

    “You have school tomorrow Harry.”

    “Mum, I need to.”

    “Why?”

    “Mum, please,” Harry’s bottom lip quivered as he felt tears sting his eyes.

    Anne stood from the couch walking over and hugged her son. “Harry what happened?”

    “Can I please just go see Nick. I need him right now.”

    “Alright. I want you to call me tomorrow though okay? I’ll call the school for you.”

    “Thank you.” Harry hugged her tightly before pulling away and running upstairs to pack and text Nick to come get him.

    “Harry, what’s going on?” Louis asked as Harry packed his bag.

    “Nothing. I just need to see Nick tonight.”

    Louis sat on his bed and sighed. “Do you not trust me?”

    “I do. I just, this is something I need Nick for. I’ll be fine, don’t worry.”

    “Fine. Text me though.”

    “I will. Make sure you talk to Zayn too.”

    Louis smirked. “I will.” Louis waked over wrapping his arms around Harry’s middle.

    “Lou, not now.”

    “Why?” Louis asked kissing Harry’s neck.

    Harry gasped as his teeth sunk into his skin. “F-fuck.”

    Louis smirked before turning Harry and laying him back onto the bed. Louis crawled up his body before connecting their lips in a passionate kiss. “You doing okay?” Louis asked checking in, wanting to make sure he wasn’t doing anything to trigger Harry.

    “I-I don’t know,” Harry provided his breathing becoming uneven and his lower region feeling slightly aroused.

    Louis sat so he was straddling Harry’s waist and stared down at him. “Tell me what’s running through your mind.”

    “I just...I don’t know. I like this, but I’m scared, and Louis we’re step brothers. That fact keeps tripping me up. I really don’t know where I’m at with this.”

    Louis smiled leaning down and kissing Harry softly before rolling off and cuddling into his side. “That’s alright then. We can wait a little longer before we do anything”

    Harry turned to Louis surprised. “Really? You’d...wait for me?” He asked blushing slightly.

    “Yeah. I told you that I would actually try Harry. I wish you would tell me what’s going on though.”

    “I know, I just can’t right now. This is just something I need to discuss with Nick first okay?”

    “Okay. Promise you are okay though?”

    “I promise.”

    They smiled at each other before connecting thier lips again before a car horn sounded. “Is that for you?”

    “Yeah. I gotta go.” Harry stood up before throwing his bag over his shoulder. “I’ll be home tomorrw night yeah?”

    “Okay. Then you have some major snuggling to make up for,” Louis teased. “Come on.”

    The two boys walked downstairs. Harry hugged his Mum and Jay and said goodbye to the girls and Louis befre walking on and climbing into the car with Nick. Louis stood in the doorway waving to them and it hurt Harry to just leave him like this. As soon as the started driving Nick turned to Harry. “We’re going to go out to eat for a bit cause my roomates are home right now, but they’re going away later tonight because they don’t have classes tomorrow. You wanna start talking?”

    “I don’t know what to say.”

    “How did you find out he was back?”

    “I just heard this lady talking on the phone and the situation and the names matched up. Nick he was only in jail for a year or something like that. He’s been right over in London since then. For 2 years he’s been that fucking close to me!” Harry freaked hs breathing picking up.

    “Hey, hey, hey,” Nick soothed. “Take a deep breath it’s alright. Yes he was close, but he didn’t come back, that’s the important thing.”

    “I know, but just knowing that anytime during these past three years he could’ve come back and done something scares the shit out me. Fuck, Nick he’s in town and his Mum knows we moved to Doncaster, what if he comes looking for me?”

    “He’s not going to do that. Even if he does your Mum and Louis won’t let him anywhere near you.”

    “Three years. Three long fucking years,” Harry trailed off starting to cry. “I just don’t understand what I did wrong.”

    Nick pulled the car over and hugged Harry. “You didn’t do anything wrong Harry. It’s his fault, all his fault. He’s sick in the head and had no right to do that to you.”

    “God it hurt so much. He took my virginity, that’s something I’m never going to get back. I can do it with whoever I want to, but he’s always going to be my first,” Harry wailed. “I can’t do this anymore Nick. I don’t care thats it’s been almost 4 years. I know I was a child then then and I’m 17 now, but I don’t feel it. I feel stuck back then. I literally see Aiden everywhere. Louis was, well we were getting a little heated earlier and I just couldn’t focus on it. All I could think about was being tied down to the bed and being torn open just like that first time.”

    “Oh Harry,” Nick sighed hugging him again. “Is there anything I can do to make this easier?”

    “No. I’m trying. This just messed everything up. I guess knowing where he is, even though it’s close and everything it’s better. I’m also always with people, and the fact that it has been 2 years and he hasn’t come for me is somewhat comforting in a way. I just,” Harry sighed. “I don’t know.”

    “I think what you really need is to confront him. You need that kind of closure.”

    “I don’t want to ever see him again though. I don’t want anything to do with him.”

    “I realize that, but how are you supposed to move on when this is still relevant? You need that closure so you know that it’s truley over.”

    “You think?”

    “Yeah. You said he’s in town rght?” Harry nodded. “Well, why don’t we pay him a little visit?”

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A/N2: Sooo what did you guys think? Poor Harry, but his nose is better! And what about Aiden being back? Why didn't he come looking for Harry? More importantly, is Harry going to actually see him?

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