"On the last day of love, my heart broke inside my body".

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- I would spend a life with you, but not this one. - It was the last thing he said to me before leaving my room, and then I heard the door slam and I felt my heart break.

I already called my best friends, but I didn't talk to them much, I just said I needed them and asked them to come see me and hung up as soon as I heard them say they would come.

Since then, I have been sitting on my bed looking at the door where he left. I've tried, but I can't stop. I think that even though I understood that that was the end of us, a part of me still has a little hope that this is just another one of his jokes and that at any moment he will come through that door laughing at me for believing. But time goes on, and the door remains closed. He doesn't come back.

Suddenly, I start to feel strange, I look at my hands; they are closed in fists, tightly squeezing the white sheet on my bed. I am shaking. Why am I shaking?

"I would spend a life with you, but not this life". My hands are weak and I release the sheet, I feel dizzy. I close my eyes and take a deep breath trying to get rid of this feeling of suffocating me. I close my hands again, punch the bed, it's not enough to make me feel. I stifle a scream with my hands and then start to feel the tears. hot running through my eyes.

"I would spend a life with you, but not this one." That phrase keeps hammering in my head. I start to wonder, if he said he would spend a life with me, why not this one?

The answer is obvious and it doesn't take long to arrive, it hits me hard making me fall on the bed. I turn on my side and lie in a fetal position with my knees against my chest, hugging my own body that keeps shaking... "Because he doesn't want to. That's the answer, and one of the reasons I can't stop cry".

He's still here inside me, and my biggest problem now, bigger than any other, is figuring out how to get him out of there.

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English is not my native language. And I'm not even that good at it. But I felt like at least trying to make this story reach more hearts, and I will do my best to make it happen. I apologize for any mistake.