he asks me
who I love
I name everyone I've loved

he asks me
to love myself
for its the only way to love another

I wish to tell him
I forgot how loving oneself even feels
'cause people I loved left me to pieces
shattering my heart like broken glass

I wish to tell him
I only know how to give
'cause hurt is the only thing I recieved
the thumping pain in my chest rising

I wish to tell him
they leave everytime
'cause they say I'm too much
I nod understanding, maybe it's the truth

I wish to tell him
Can you love me?
'cause I forgot how to love
but instead I chose to keep my lips pursued
'cause I don't want you to drown
in the deep waters where I finally
found my happy place

I don't utter a word
'cause I'm afraid you'll ask
and how can I tell you
it's filled with darkness

I put on a smile
'cause I'm afraid you'll leave
wondering I'm insane

but maybe your distance
won't affect me anymore
'cause alone, I feel home