Josh cuddled into his pillow harder, cuddling up with his blanket.

he let his tears fall, leaving a large wet spot on his pillow.

he was at his house in bed on a thursday night around 11 pm.

tonight was just one of those nights.

Josh hated how he looked. he hated his body and hair and everything about himself. (me)

it hit him hard too. he had a good day at school, nothing bad happened. then after his shower he was just looking at himself in the mirror and it went downhill from there.

he shakily picked up his phone and went to Tyler's number, typing in the space.

he deleted the text, not knowing if he should text Tyler. he didnt know if tyler even cared. he didnt want to bother him. he didnt want him to think he was annoying. God he probably was tired of him. he probably didnt even love Josh.

after many many minutes of him arguing with himself, he finally decided to call him. Tyler answered after about four rings.

"hey Joshua. whatcha doin baby?" Tyler's tired, raspy voice came through the phone. Josh knew he had woken him up, mentally cursing at himself for it.

"n-nothing. just cant s-sleep. needed to hear your v-voice." Josh stuttered through the phone, holding back his tears. even hearing Tyler's voice made him feel better.

"are you okay?" Tyler asked, worry filling his voice.

"I n-need you t-ty." Josh cried, losing it and breaking down.

"shit, I'll be there as fast as I can Joshua. I love you." Tyler said, immediately hanging up the phone after.

Josh dropped his phone on the bed, covering himself completely with the blankets. he was shaking and his lip was quivering. he just couldnt stop thinking.

after around 10 minutes later he heard a quiet knock on the door, poking his head out from under the blankets and seeing Tyler walk in. he was wearing his army green and plaid pajama pants and a long sleeve black and white Adidas shirt and some Nike socks and slides. he had his backpack for school and another smaller bag filled with random things and his phone and charger was in his hand also. his hair was all sorts of messy and his eyes were tired.

"baby, hey." Tyler softly said, setting his backpack down. he walked over to the bed, seeing Josh's face and frowning.

josh cried harder now, Tyler setting the bag on the floor next to the bed. he plugged his phone up, lifting the blankets up and sliding under next to Josh.

Josh immediately turned over and clinged on to Tyler, rolling on top of him. he wrapped his arms and legs around him tight, Tyler wrapping his arms around him while he sobbed into his shoulder.

"shhhhh you're okay Joshua. everything's okay now. I'm here. im with you. you're gonna be okay." Tyler softly said, scratching up and down joshs back.

Josh cried hard, Tyler just soothing him by rubbing his back and quietly talking to him.

"what's wrong?" he asked after Josh had calmed a bit and could actually form words.

"i-im okay now." Josh whimpered, Tyler frowning.

"Joshua tell me what's wrong." Tyler said.

"I-I dont wanna." he said, feeling that Tyler will judge him or get annoyed.

"you can tell me everything, okay? I care what it is." Tyler said, Josh sniffling.

"I just,, i-i dont know why you like me. im not really attractive. and my body is ugly and gross. I feel like you're just wasting your time on me. why are you still with me?" Josh asked, Tyler's heart breaking.

"no no no you got it all wrong babyboy. I fucking love you so much. you are so beautiful. everything about you." Tyler said. hes delt with Josh on days like this before but never usually this bad.

"no 'm not." Josh said.

"yes you are Joshua william. I better not ever hear you say that you're not. you are perfect. from your beautiful brown eyes to your cute little nose. your jawline is perfect and your cheekbones. you're the most beautiful boy I've ever laid eyes on. you have amazing fluffy curly hair that is so dark and beautiful. I get lost just staring at your body. your thick thighs and your beautiful flat stomach. your collarbones are perfect. everything about you is perfect baby. everything. I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend." Tyler said very quiet and calm, tears forming in his own eyes from seeing his baby like this.

"b-but I'm so boring an-and all I do is take your money." Josh said, his voice muffled cause his face was pressed into Tyler's neck and shoulder.

"you have never ever taken my money Josh. I choose to spend it on you. I love spoiling you and buying you stuff. and you're way far from boring. I've never had a dull moment when I was with you. from when we're laughing, or smoking, or cuddling, or even when we're just sitting on our phones. I am so fucking lucky I found you Josh. I'm so fucking lucky that you're mine. you are the greatest thing that's ever happened to me and I mean that. I mean every word I'm saying to you. I love you Josh." Tyler, hugged him very tight, leaning down and kissing his head.

"how do I know you're not lying? or are just using me for sex? did jenna have something I didnt?" Josh said, his voice weak.

"dont you ever think that Josh please. I would never ever lie to you. and don't care if we never have sex again, I love you. not your body, though it is pretty fucking amazing, but you. your personality is so great. jenna is a fucking whore and I regret everything about her. all she has is a pussy that every guy above 5' 7" has stuck their dick in. she doesnt even compare to how fucking perfect you are. fuck her, and fuck every other single guy and girl. its just me and you Joshua. nobody else. no one compares to you." Tyler rolled them over, Josh pulling his head out of Tyler's neck and looking him in the eyes.

Tyler's heart hurt, seeing Josh with teary eyes and a tear streaked face staring at him like he was the only thing that mattered in this world to him.

"you p-promise Tyler?"

"I promise Josh. you are my world. my everything." he said.

Josh's face turned red, him cracking a small smile, causing Tyler to smile big.

"there's that smile. so beautiful." Tyler said. he kissed Josh's lips, looking him in the eyes and going back in.

they moved their lips together perfectly, Tyler reaching up and playing with Josh's hair. there was no tongue in the kiss, no teeth clashing. just love and so fucking much of it.

Tyler slowly pulled away, Josh keeping his eyes closed. he fluttered them open, smiling when he saw Tyler staring at him.

Tyler moved his thumb down to joshs lip, rubbing it across his plump bottom one.

"so fucking beautiful." Tyler said, kissing the tip of his nose.

"I'm sorry for making you come over so late on a school night." Josh said, Tyler wiping Josh's tears off with the pads of his thumbs.

"dont you ever be sorry for asking me to come over. I dont care if its 3 in the morning and you want me to watch a funny video you found. I'll be here if I can." Tyler said, Josh nodding and smiling.

"I brought you some stuff." Tyler smiled, Josh giggling.

"what kinda stuff?" he asked, Tyler reaching down to the floor to grab the bag.

they both sat up, sitting across from each other. Tyler had his legs spread on either side of Josh and Josh was sitting criss cross.

"okay first thing. I didn't know what kinda sad this was so I brought everything." he said, Josh laughing.

"i brought a big bag of funyuns. and I also brought some of these,,," he set out 4 Hershey chocolate bars and the chips, Josh giggling. "and I brought another one of my hoodies that smells a lot like my cologne." he said, pulling out a orange hoodie with a black Adidas logo on the front that did smell a lot like him.

josb grabbed it, smelling it and feeling his heart flutter.

"and I brought some gummy worms and some pictures. i know you have a bunch but this is one of my favorites and I know this is your favorite." Tyler blushed, showing him a printed out picture of them at the beach. they were in their bathing suits and were in the water about to their knees. they were apart from each other but were holding hands and in between them was this sun which was really big and it was setting and they were mostly silhouettes. Ryan took that picture. the other one was of Tyler that Josh took and it was of them when they went to the peer one day. it was kinda up close and Tyler was looking into the camera. it was portrait mode so the background was blurry and it was very high quality of Tyler. as soon as he took it he told Tyler it was his favorite picture of him ever. Tyler went and got them developed the other day.

"thank you Tyler. so much. I really do appreciate this so much." Josh said, taking a big smell of Tyler's hoodie again.

"anytime." Tyler said, setting the stuff in the floor by the bed.

"you better now?" Tyler asked.

"much. I'm sorry for bothering you. you can go home now I guess." Josh said, still feeling like hes being annoying.

"you kicking me out?" Tyler joked.

"n-no. I mean you can stay but you probably dont wanna." jobs blushed.

"I'm staying. I'm not going anywhere. I wanna stay." Tyler said, kissing Josh's lips.

Josh blushed harder, Tyler crawling up and pushing him back so he was laying down.

he pulled the blanket up over them, pressing kisses all over Josh's face.

Tyler kissed at Josh's neck, softly biting the skin.

"w-wait n-no." Josh stuttered, stopping Tyler.

"what's wrong?" Tyler asked, Josh hating himself.

"I d-dont wanna have s-sex right now." Josh said, thinking Tyler was gonna leave.

"I know baby. I dont either. just gonna leave some hickeys on you. is that okay?" Tyler asked.  he knew Josh was in no state of mind for anything like that.

"yeah I'd like that. sorry." Josh said.

"dont be sorry. I dont wanna do anything right now either." Tyler smiled, Josh blushing.

he sucked on a few places on his neck, leaving some reddish purple marks. there wasnt any sexual tension at all, strictly just a way for Tyler to love on his baby.

he pulled down Josh's shirt collar and sucked one on his collarbone, sliding down more and pushing his shirt up to his chest.

Tyler slid his hands up joshs sides, feeling every inch if the boy.

"close your eyes baby. relax okay?" Tyler said, Josh nodding.

he kissed down the middle of his stomach, stopping at his belly button.

Tyler kissed under his ribs on his right side, Josh arching his back from Tyler's kisses

"tickles." Josh quietly said, Tyler chuckling.

he started sucking hickeys on his right side, Josh focusing on feeling Tyler's lips on him and his teeth slightly biting down. he focused hard so he got his mind off of the other things.

Tyler spent a long time on that side, Josh not really noticing though.  after a long time over there he moved back to the center of his stomach and sucked some more, also making some down below his belly button and on his hip bones.

"you doin okay still?" Tyler asked.

"yeah ty." he said.

Tyler licked up his stomach, Josh feeling his metal piercing sliding up his body. he pressed a final kiss, pulling his shirt down and laying on top of Josh.

he buried his face in Josh's neck, kissing the skin.

Josh grabbed his phone and opened snapchat, videoing tylers face which was pressed up against his neck.

Tyler looked up at the camera and softly smiled, kissing Josh's neck and smiling bigger at the end of the video, hiding his red face behind Josh's neck. Josh put it on his story with "hey, i love you🖤" as the caption.

"will you plug this up?" Josh asked, Tyler nodding and plugging it into the charger and setting it next to his phone.

"thank you Tyler." Josh said.

"you're welcome. I love you Josh. dont ever forget that." Tyler said.

"I love you too." Josh said, Tyler kissing his jaw.

"now get some sleep, beautiful." he said.

Josh took a deep breath, closing his eyes and falling asleep to the sound of Tyler's quiet snores and breaths.

-

both Tyler and Josh's alarm went of at 6:30, awaking the cuddling boys up.

"ugh fuck." Josh groaned, rolling over on top of Tyler.

"morning Josh. you feel better?" Tyler asked in his raspy voice, making Josh smile.

"yeah I feel lots better. thank you again." Josh said.

"you dont have to go today. I'll pick up your work for you." Tyler offered, Josh shaking his head.

"nah I need to go. only a few months left so I should." Josh said, Tyler nodding.

Tyler stood up, reaching in his bag he brought and grabbing a pair of basketball shorts and a yellow Nike longsleeve sweatshirt with the black Nike sign on the front.

he took his clothes off, putting on a fresh pair of boxers and his clothes, josh watching him the whole time.

"you just gonna watch?" Tyler asked, pulling his shirt over his head.

"mhm." Josh nodded, Tyler smiling.

he pulled on some black tall Nike socks and he put on his all white birkenstocks.

"get your ass up." Tyler said, ruffling Josh's hair.

Josh giggled and got up, going through his drawers and grabbing some boxers, some black khaki shorts and grabbing tylers orange and black Adidas hoodie.

he put on some white Nike socks and his black birkenstocks.

"do you ever wear your own clothes anymore?" Tyler joked, Josh putting on his boxers and shorts.

"no not really." Josh laughed, taking off his shirt.

"holy shit."

"what?" Tyler asked, looking at Josh.

"Tyler ohmygod! did you do that last night." Josh laughed, looking in the mirror.

"yeah. I got a little carried away I guess." Tyler chuckled.

he had a line of hickeys running down his chest and stomach, a few on either side of his belly button. he had a large heart on the right side made of hickeys. he pulled his shorts down a bit, seeing a few on each of his hip bones.

"goddamn Tyler.." Josh said, staring at himself.

"sorry. I didnt mean to leave that many." Tyler said.

"no ty. it's fine. I love them." he said, Tyler smiling.

Josh giggled, grabbing his phone and taking a mirror selfie. the flash was on so you couldnt see Josh's face but you could see Tyler's. he was turned to Joshs left side, sticking his tongue out and he had his left hand on Josh's side, his hair messy and sticking up. he put it on his story with "Tyler likes to leave hickeys" as the caption.

Tyler laughed and took a picture of Josh with his hand hooked in the waistband of Josh's shorts. Josh was smiling real big. he put that on his story with "👅" as his caption.

"my moms gonna flip." Josh said, pulling his hoodie on. he also had a mess of hickeys on his neck.

"wear a shirt. you'll be fine." Tyler said, grabbing his brush and blow dryer.

he fixed his hair up, Josh watching him and smiling.

they went to his bathroom and brushed their teeth, Josh wetting his brush and brushing his hair so it was wet, then spraying his stuff in it that keeps it curly.

"ready?" Tyler asked, grabbing his grey Nike back pack.

Josh stood on his tiptoes, setting a hand on Tyler's cheek and connecting their lips.

Tyler pushed Josh back on his heels, leaning down to kiss him.

"I love you." Tyler said after setting their foreheads together.

"I love you too." Josh blushed, kissing him again and then grabbing his black Adidas backpack.

"alright. lets go get some breakfast." Tyler said

they went down to the kitchen, seeing Ashley eating a bowl of cereal while scrolling through Instagram and abigail drinking a glass of water. Laura was making Ashley and abigail's lunches.

"morning boys." she said, Tyler pouring him and Josh each some cereal.

"morning mom." josh said.

she looked at Josh, her face frowning when he saw him.

"Josh look like someone tried to choke you to death." she said, referring to his hickeys.

"this is nothing momma. no one even notices." Josh said, eating his food.

"yeah. you should see his stomach." Ashley said, showing her the picture Josh put on his story.

"Ashleyyyy what the hell." Josh whined.

"with all do respect, Laura, your boy is just too irresistible not to mark him up. I gotta let other guys know hes mine." Tyler said.

"oh Tyler. you're so sweet." she said, Tyler smiling.

"wait when did you even get here?" abigail asked.

"oh yeah, you weren't here yesterday when I went to bed. when did you come?" she asked.

"it was around 11." Tyler said.

"little late to be out." Laura said.

"sorry. it was important." he said.

"alright well yall better get out of here. dont wanna be late." she said, waving them off.

they all told her bye, everyone piling into Tyler's truck.

"I'm blocking you from my snapchat story Ashley." Josh said, doing so.

"good. I dont wanna see my brother covered in hickeys no more." she said, Josh rolling his eyes.

they arrived at school, Tyler pulling into his parking spot and turning his truck off.

they all went in the school, everyone going to their class.

"hey Josh." dallon said when he saw them, him and Tyler just giving each other looks.

"Josh show me your fucking stomach!" brendon said, Josh blushing and laughing.

he videod josh lifting his hoodie up, showing off his hickeys.

"damn Tyler. busy night?" brendon winked, talking to him aside from everyone"

"actually the exact opposite." he smiled.

"yall weren't fuckin?" he asked, Tyler shaking his head.

"Josh was having a rough night. I came to cuddle." Tyler said.

"awwww." brendon cooed, Tyler blushing and pushing him.

"yeah yeah whatever brendick."

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