Josh laid back on his back, grabbing his phone and opening Instagram.

he looked at his profile, seeing Tylers name still in his bio, and all of their pictures still on there.

he went to Tylers Instagram, seeing all their pictures still on there, but his name not being his bio.

he scrolled through his posts, his most recent one being a picture of them in science class. Tyler was sitting in a chair and Josh was sitting sideways in his lap. Tyler was smirking, Josh had his hand on Tylers face and he had a huge smile on his face. the caption was 'he makes it easy😜'

Josh teared up, smiling as he remembered this day. Josh told dallon to take a picture of them and then he dropped the phone and screamed 'fuck' and got yelled at by the teacher.

The next was a picture of Tyler at the gym. it was a mirror selfie and he had on basketball shorts and didn't have a shirt on. you could see his abs and josh's hickeys on his stomach and his tongue was out so you could also see his piercing. the caption was 'flexin🔞💯'. (ty is such a fuckboy bye)

The next was Tyler and Josh at the movies that they got one of Tylers basketball friends that they saw there to take. Tyler was sitting with his legs spread and Josh had his legs over one of Tylers. Tyler had his hand on Joshs thigh. they were both wearing sunglasses and was drinking their drinks. the caption was 'we didn't really watch the movie'

Josh knew he should stop scrolling through these, knowing that it was only gonna make him even more depressed but he just couldn't.

Tyler was his world.

love isn't normally something you can normally find at only 17, but Josh just knew. ever since they ran into each other in the hallway he's been head over heels for this boy. he spent every second of his day thinking of Tyler. he loves every single part of him. his perfect messy long hair, and his cute little nose. just everything about him he loved. he never knew you could love someone so fucking much.

and now everything's gone.

he's never gonna be able to feel Tylers lips on his again. or feel his hands on his body again. he's never gonna wake up to phone calls from Tyler, or read texts about how much he loves him. he's never gonna get to brag about him to all the hoes on his Snapchat. he's never gonna get to run his fingers through his hair again. or fall asleep with Tylers breath on the back of his neck. all the memories they made together just gone. he really thought he was gonna spend the rest of his life with that boy. they never got tired of each other. they really truly loved each other.

and now it's all gone.

he hates himself for falling in love. he hates Tyler. he hates that he actually believed that Tyler was gonna change.

Josh grabs a tissue, wiping his face and eyes off so he can see.

he doesn't know how he's gonna ever recover from this.

he goes back to looking at Tylers Instagram, the next picture being of Tyler and Jordan. jordan had a huge smile on his face and Tyler had one also. the caption was 'the best part of my boyfriend is his little bro👣'

Josh smiled, that was the day Tyler was over and Josh was horny but Tyler ignored him to play video games with Jordan. Tyler eventually fucked him though, don't worry.

the next was a picture of him and this guy named jaxon from his basketball team. they were holding a plaque from a tournament that they won. the caption was 'we out here💯'

next was a bunch of pictures. the first was just a regular selfie of Tyler and Josh and they had the heart filter on Snapchat and they were both smiling. you scrolled and it was an offgaurd picture of Josh that Tyler took when they were eating. Josh was in the middle of taking a bite of his burger. next was a video Tyler took of Josh laying in bed. the flash was bright so Josh covered his face, Tyler pulled josh's hands away and Josh smacked the phone and all you could hear was Tyler screaming before the video cut off. then the next was a video Tyler took of Josh. he videod Josh coming out from under the blankets. when Josh saw he was recording he said "I just sucked Tylers dick whatcha gonna do about it", the two boys laughing after he said that. the last picture in the collage was a selfie Josh took. Tyler was behind him and his lips were attached to Joshs neck. you could see a few hickeys all over his neck. the caption to all those was 'appreciation post to the one boy that makes me the luckiest guy on the planet💘'.

fuck.

after that, it was a picture of Tyler in the middle of shooting a basketball. the caption was 'grind don't stop😴'

next was a throwback picture of Tyler and dallon and all his friends in their uniforms after a baseball game. caption: 'missin' it😩'

next was a picture of Josh on Tylers back. it was the day they went to the water hole with all the guys. they were in their swimsuits and Josh was clinging onto Tyler. caption: 'swimming'

after that was a selfie Tyler took. his hair was messy and in his eyes and his cheeks were covered in a dusty rose color. his tongue was slightly sticking out the corner of his mouth and his lips were swollen. caption: 'afterglow' (okay but that would be so fucking hot tho)

Josh looked at his comment on that picture. 'that's a look I need to see more often if you know what i mean'.

next was another selfie of him and Josh. Josh took the picture, Tyler was kissing his cheek. caption: 'Josh isn't a virgin'.

Josh giggled cause he remembered Tyler was high when he posted that.

after was a strait up picture of Tylers face with no filter or nothing. it was 'golden hour' so his face was glowing. his jawline was chiseled out perfectly and he had a strait face. his eyebrows were slightly arched, and his lips looking full and perfect. caption: 'oh baby'.

next was a picture of the team after their first basketball game, and you could swipe and there was a picture of him and Josh with Tyler in his uniform. caption: 'senior szn😴'.

after that was a mirror picture. Tyler was sitting on his bed and Josh was in between his legs. the flash was on so you couldn't really see their faces. they both didn't have shirts on and Tyler had his arm wrapped around Josh's stomach and Josh was clinging onto his arm. you could see hickeys all over Josh's stomach. caption: 'my baby💞'

next was a selfie Tyler took. he was laying in bed and you could only see half his face. Josh was alseep cuddled into his side with his head on his shoulder. you could see hickeys on Tylers neck. caption: 'snoozin'

next was a picture of Josh straddling Tylers lap in dallons hot tub. they were kissing and you could see Tylers love bites all over Josh. caption: 'just guys being dudes'

after that was a picture of Brendon, Ryan, Emma, dallon, Tyler, and Josh at some lake. Tyler set his phone up on his truck and set a timer to take a picture they were all sitting around the fire pit with beers in their hands. caption: 'cracking open a cold one'.

he scrolled down, the next picture was of Tyler and josh's legs all tangled together in bed. caption: 'weekends are for the boys'.

next was a picture josh's took of Tyler and Brendon. brendon had some sunglasses on and he was wearing a random cowboy hat. they were at Brendons house. caption 'Brendon was drunk'

after that was a bunch of pictures again that you could scroll through. first was a picture of Josh Tyler took. his hair was fluffy and curly and he was smiling with his eyes closed. then there was a video. Tyler was recording Josh coming out of the bathroom and when josh saw tyler recording he started dancing. next was a picture of Josh Tyler took when he was laying down on his stomach. his face was all squished and he was asleep. next was a video. Tyler started recording his face, he told josh's to "come here" and then you could hear Josh say "no fuck you bitch" in the background and Tyler started laughing. caption: 'look how cute my boy is'

Josh got off of Tylers Instagram, setting his phone down. he got out of bed, grabbing Tylers maroon sweatshirt and sliding it over his head. he took his shorts off so he was in his briefs and laid down, cuddling into himself.

he breathed in the smell of Tylers shirt, memories flooding over him.

"fuck Tyler. why do you have to be such a fucking idiot." Josh sighed.

he grabbed his phone again, scrolling through all the texts Tyler sent him after that night.

Tyler: Josh please let me talk to you. I'm so fucking sorry for what I did. I'm such a fucking dick. please Joshua call me or FaceTime me. I miss you. I want you back. you can scream and yell and hit me all you want but I just need to hear your voice again. I need to talk to you. I can't go on without you baby. you are still my everything. I don't expect you to forgive me but I need you Josh...

Tyler: baby please answer me

Tyler: let me come over

Tyler: call me

Tyler: I love you Joshua

Tyler: I miss you

Tyler: I'm sorry...

Tyler: I don't want us to end

there was just so many texts and misses calls and FaceTimes.

Josh wanted to reply so bad.

he wanted Tyler to come over and kiss him and love him and touch him but at the same time he wanted to move to another country to avoid ever seeing Tyler again.

he hates this

-💔-

"youre a fucking idiot Tyler." Kelley said, sitting next to him on the couch.

"you think I don't know that?" Tyler said, rolling his eyes.

"you better lose the fucking attitude Tyler." Chris said.

"how about you leave me the fuck alone and let me get back to my bed." Tyler said.

"going to a frat party? seriously Tyler?! I raised you better than that." Kelley said.

"well you must not have because look how fucked up I turned out to be." Tyler said.

"you broke poor Josh's heart Tyler." Kelley said.

"you don't think I'm trying to fix that?" Tyler said.

"fix what?! there's nothing to fix tyler. you ruined everything!" Kelley said.

"aw fuck you." Tyler said.

"what has gotten into you Tyler? drinking really?" Chris said.

"you're just now finding this out? wow what great parents you are good job." Tyler said, clapping and rolling his eyes.

"I can't believe this." Kelley said.

"why are yall getting me in trouble? I just fucking cheated on the love of my life and possible may have thrown away everything we had together and now you're getting me in trouble for drinking beer. really? you couldn't have picked better fucking timing huh." Tyler said.

"what happened to our sweet little boy." Kelley said.

"I'm going back to my room." Tyler said, standing up.

"you sit down and you better not move until we're done talking to you." Chris said.

"God." Tyler huffed, sitting back down.

"what happened to your eye and lip." Chris asked.

"me and dallon got into it." Tyler said.

"why?" he asked.

"cause why the fuck not."

"I saw the hole you punched in the wall. let me see your hand." Kelley said.

"not like you care." Tyler said, holding his hand out.

"Tyler this is bad." Kelley said, running her thumb over his bruised and cut swollen knuckles.

"yeah no shit." Tyler scoffed.

"Tyler." Kelley warned.

"oh wow what are you gonna do about it? take my phone? take my car keys? wow you really got me there." he rolled his eyes.

"listen Tyler. we get it y-"

"no you don't fucking get it! you don't understand how hard it's been on me. I threw away everything cause I'm too stupid not to keep it in my pants. I'm a worthless fuckboy. that's all I am and that's all I'll ever be." Tyler said.

"listen to me Tyler," Kelley said, starting to tear up. "yes you fucked up. yes you we're being stupid. but you're gonna fix this. I know you are. you may be a little bitch sometimes but you're always be my Tyler. you'll always be my son. I know how strong you can be. you'll pull through this and you'll get Josh back. you messed up. got drunk. fooled around. and yes that was the stupidest thing you've ever done Tyler but you and Josh are so in love. this is just a hiccup on y'alls journey. you can either sit on your ass and be a little bitch to us or you can try and work things out."

"I'm trying to work things out mom. Brendon and all them are helping me." Tyler said, starting to cry.

"I believe you'll be able to fix things ty." Kelley said.

"I'm s-sorry momma." Tyler said, crying into her shoulder.

"it's okay Tyler. im sorry too." Kelley said running her hand up and down Tylers back.

"me too." chris said, patting his back.

"I love you Tyler. I'm sorry if I haven't been the best mom." Kelley said.

"you're the best mom I could ask for. I'm sorry for not being a better son." Tyler said.

"it's okay Tyler. you are stupid sometimes but you're still tyler. I still love you no matter what." Kelley said.

they sat in the living room, Tyler leaning against Kelley while he told the whole story about Josh again.

"I love him mom." Tyler said.

"I know you do baby." she said.

"he changed me. he made me a better person. he was my other half. he completed me. and he's gone."

"you'll get him back ty. what you have planned for him will get him back." she said.

"I hope so."

A/N: this was a weird chapter and it was badley written bye

Tylers a bitch