Josh woke up, surrounded by tear stains and tissues, memories of last night flooding back.

he checked his phone, seeing 12 missed calls from Tyler and 23 text messages.

t💕: Josh please answer me

t💕: i'm so fucking sorry Josh please

t💕:  i fucked up bad Josh i know just please answer me

t💕: please Josh I can't lose you

t💕:  you are my everything baby please call me Josh

t💕: i don't wanna lose you baby please. I love you Joshua

and so on.

josh threw his phone down, burying his face in his pillow.

he cried and cried and cried.

he was broken.

Tyler was his everything.  his life revolved around Tyler.  it's like someone reached in his chest and ripped his heart out.

all he can think is 'what now'. what is he supposed to do? how is he supposed to live his life without the one person that made him happy? the one person that cared about him? how is he gonna go back to school when it starts back up? he can't face Tyler.

he heard a knock on his door, expecting it to be his mom.

"come in." he said, not removing his face from the pillow.

"josh?"

Josh froze, not knowing what to do.

"Josh please listen to me."

"no tyler get the fuck away from me!" Josh screamed, throwing his pillow at him.

"Josh please just talk to me we can work things out I can't lose you!" Tyler yelled back.

"no Tyler! why the fuck are you even here! I can't believe you have the nerve to even look at me right now." Josh, getting up off of his bed and looking him in the eye.

"baby please." tyler said, setting his hand on Joshs shoulder.

"I am not your baby anymore Tyler. don't ever fucking touch me again." Josh said, grabbing his wrist and pushing it off of him, hot tears forming in his eyes and running down his face

"Josh I was drunk just please listing to me." Tyler said.

"do you remember being with her?" Josh asked.

"well y-yeah bu-"

"then apparently you weren't too drunk."

"Josh please. we can work things out." Tyler said.

"I loved you Tyler. I loved you so fucking much. and you knew that too. and I really did think you could change. I really did. and now I'm sitting here thinking how stupid I am for actually believing you when you said you loved me. I guess you'll always be a worthless fuckboy. I never wanna see you again Tyler Joseph.  you stay the fuck away from me." Josh said, not breaking eye contact.

"j-"

"leave." Josh said and pointed to his door.

Tyler left, josh hearing him walk away and shut the front door.

he went and sat by his door, leaning his back against it.

"why'd you leave." Josh said. he brought his knees up to his chest, crying into them.

he went back to his bed, cuddling up with all of his pillows.

he cried and cried, eventually falling asleep.

-💔-

Josh shuffled awake when he heard his door open, sitting up with puffy eyes to see all his siblings.

"hewe you go joshy." Jordan said, bringing him a bottle of water.

"thank you j." Josh smiled.

he crawled up in the bed with Josh, giving him a big hug.

"mommy told me what happened. dont wowwy joshy. I'll always love you no matter what happens." he said.

"us too." Abigail said, her and Ashley giving Josh hugs too.

"thank you guys. I love yall too." Josh said.

"and if you give me your car keys I'll drive down to his house and beat the shit out of him." Ashley said.

"as nice as that sounds I think it's better if you dont." Josh let out a weak laugh.

"we'll leave you alone now " Ashley said. "cmon Jordan."

"bye bye joshy." he said, giving him one last hug.

"bye bye."

-💔-

"shit!" Tyler yelled, kicking his basketball that was in his floor. "FUCK!" he screamed, throwing his fist into the wall, punching a hole in the dry wall and busting his knuckle.

"Tyler what the hell man?" Zack asked, bursting in his room.

"I fucked up Zack. i fucked up so bad." Tyler said, examining his hand.

"well yeah you just punched a whole in the wall. mom's gonna be so pissed off." Zack said walking in and shutting the door behind him.

"no. I g-got fucking drunk at a party me and Josh went to and i fucked another girl." Tyler said, grabbing some toilet paper and some tape, wrapping his hand up.

"no. cmon ty." Zack said softly.

"I did. i ruined everything. he hates me Zack. he fucking hates me. he won't even let me talk to him. i dont know what to fucking do!" Tyler screamed.

"Tyler. cmon dude. what the fuck were you thinking?" Zack said, sitting next to him on the bed.

"I wasn't. I wasn't thinking at all. I'm so fucking stupid. I d-don't know what happened." Tyler said, burying his face in his hands.

"do you really love him Tyler." Zack said.

"I really do. so fucking much Zack. but he won't even let me get a sentence out." he said.

"I'm scared." Tyler said. "I can't lose him."

"you're gonna have to give him some time to cool off. It just happened so of course he's gonna be broken. just give him time to get less mad and then we'll think of something. you'll get him back T." Zack said, patting his shoulder.

"but what if I dont..."

-💔-

"momma I-I love him. I dont know what to do without him." Josh said, burying his face in her shoulder.

"it's gonna be okay Josh. I know him. I know that he'll come to his senses and realize how bad he fucked up." she said.

"but what if he doesn't..."

-💔-

Tyler heard a knock on his door, forcing himself to get up out of bed and open the door, since no one else was home.

he opened it, seeing Brendon, Emma, Ryan, and Dallon at his door.

"now you better do some explaining before I beat the shit out of you bitch." dallon said.

A/N: I'm tired

so are yall liking the book?