Chapter 7 ~ Going Out?

"Yo!" my roommate greeted, getting in.

I looked up from where I sat cross-legged on the middle of the bed with the pillow on my lap.

I dropped my elbows on the pillow, "hey..."I said in a low drained voice.

Divyanshi scrunched up her nose sniffing, "did you smell that? "

"Hmm" I nodded to whatever she was saying, probably because I didn't hear what it was.

I gazed down at the white pillow staring at it lifelessly.

"It is Despair! Serra, there's despair filled in this room and I am gonna suffocate from too much of despair in this room"

I frowned then nodded again it was better to agree to whatever she was saying than to exhaust whatever remaining energy I had in my body in disputing with her.

I laid back on the bed now staring at the ceiling clutching the pillow to my chest.

In movies and books, this is the exact position where the protagonist stare at the ceiling then retrospect about their life.

Right now, I could only think of how dusty my fan was?
When was the last time I cleaned my room?

My mother would have had kicked my lazy ass if she was here and lable this sorry excuse for a room, as a dump yard. I could envision her going ballistic throwing me out of my own room.

But yeah I would have trick the maid to clean it up for me and she would get angrier if she found out. Then she would give me lecture on how making your own bed and keeping the room clean is the first sign of becoming successful.

I got lecturing habit from her. It felt good to see someone in my position.

I turned my body away, staring at the fan was making me homesick. How could I miss my mother's nagging and continuous poking me for everything?
That woman was never satisfied with what I did, would always complain and point out my mistakes.

I might be really unwell if I was missing that part the most.

But because of her unstoppable monitoring, I had this frustration this desperate urge to make the things right to improve and turn best at them and once and for all render her quiet, making no room for any complains.

Now that I am away from home from my constant complaining mom, I noticed I hardly even try or work hard to get things better. I have become like a dead fish going with the flow.

I could hear my mother's voice
Do you want to live independently? do you even know how to live independently? Serra,
How to cross a hurdle without having anyone beside you, nudging you to jump and not cover under it?

"Seriously! what happened to you both! Here you are sulking, there he is sulking! did you guys went somewhere together and now you both are having existential crises or what?" Divyanshi came over near my bed, shouting right on top of my head.

Tiredly, I glanced at her with blank eyes lying in the same position, "what?"

She had her hands on her hips she lifted one then waved pointing at something, at her left side. "My brother, he is there"

My eyes widened I sat up immediately slipping on my hand and almost falling out of my bed, "where?" I sputtered squinting at the blurry closed door. I haven't had my contacts on so was actually half-blind now. Oh wait 3/4th blind, I knew it was a door already, otherwise I would think of it as some brown unmoving thing.

"And now that I got you out from dazing Serra, today is weekend and I am going out!" She announced.

I turned my head to her with narrowed eyes," and you could have gone out without announcing it to me" I said then laid back with a thump, yanked up my blanket irritatedly, but I punched my face because I couldn't bring it up because Divyanshi held it back.

She was grinning evilly like her brother.

I frowned remembering him brought a dull ache in my chest of another regret on my list. I overreacted that day but who knew he was such a big softie from the heart would get so much offended and would literally be out of my eyes. I thought he would come around troubling me again after a day or two but now it was a week and he had just disappeared into thin air.. without giving me a chance to ....to rectify the parting speech at least it could have been better than a woman high on wrath and frustration kicking at a puppy for playing around.

"You are coming with me Serra, I can't leave you here and allow you to spread despair in my room I sleep here too I don't want to catch it!" Divyanshi said and tossed away my blanket I watched it landing at one corner of the room, my eyes twitching with rage and tiredness and blindness.

Both brother and sister have had drank some potion to annoy the life out of me.

She lifted my Harry Potter and the half-blood Prince which I was reading for the 4th time, "and this is with me I am keeping it hostage for now, go freshen up and wear something cute not grandma type I don't judge your style Serra but I don't go clubs with my grandma"

I shot death glares, still in half sitting and lying position.

"Hurry up Serra! I am waiting outside unless... you need some help" she winked at me I got up quickly. And I don't want to imagine how that will go.

•~•~

I sat consciously pulling my black crop top down, then left it scowling, it was fruitless I can't yank it all-over down and cover my stomach. It wasn't made that way.

And, that's why I didn't wear short tops that barely covered my stomach because most of the time I am either pulling them down or looking around in self-conscious, whether I was showing too much of my skin or not.

I couldn't find anything okayish and not 'grandma type'.

FYI my clothes weren't grandma type! I agree they were a little on the basic and outdated type but not grandma like!

Actually, I had sort out all of my clothes searching for something suitable and I was having my own time choosing them. When I was on round three of the selection, Divyanshi burst into my room and snatched something off that wasn't one of the nominees. She shoved me inside the bathroom with the small crop top and tight jeans. I didn't even get to waste any time on making my hair, Divyanshi was yelling on my head so I made a high pony and shoved up my black spectacles, they coincidentally matched my outfit. Divyanshi didn't wait for me to put on my contacts. Anyway, my eyes were itchy so I opted for a day out without them.

Divyanshi literally stepped back in surprise when I got out of my room dressed up, she clutched her heart and said, "I will have a heart attack, you look hot, nerd"

I blushed and then rolled my eyes at her exaggerated reaction.

Now that, I was here in the club sitting on a seat inspecting my surrounding with a frown. I have never been to a club so I was thinking of it more like a crowded and rowdy place with a disco ball and loud music. But it was a very warm and quiet, less congested place, there were people of course but we are moving around in our own space without like stuffed up or bumping into each other.

No doubt, it was a very lavish place with supreme quality of set up with a background slow music but the lack of disco ball had me frowning.

Divyanshi told me this was her father's, one of the clubs so we didn't have to worry about for id checks or getting kicked out.

Right now, she was flirting with the bartender to get some drinks that no matter whose club it was, they were age-restricted and I didn't think the bartender would risk his job by serving them to a teenager no matter how pretty she was.

One couldn't say Divyanshi was 16 years old, the way she looked in that silver dress. But yeah her behavior and pink, little chubby cheeks shatter the facade.

She came back with a huff, "he won't budge, AT ALL"

I dragged my eyes from the disco at a step-raised platform where people were dancing, lost in the music, and were just swaying without any care. I wish I was that carefree to let go all and sway enjoying the moment.

I sighed concentrating back on Divyanshi who was still muttering glaring at the bartender, he winked at our way or my way. I looked away immediately, feeling the heat rising my cheeks.

"Oh, Serra he will allow you why don't you go!" She started pushing me gently to get up.

I swatted her hands, "no! I won't I don't even want to get drunk! I am happy with... " I looked at the pink cocktail I was seeping from and the cute glass with a tiny umbrella in it. Can I take it home?

"But I want to! You go just flirt with him-

"I don't know how to flirt" I hissed, embarrassed.

She stared at me skeptically to see if I was lying which I wasn't but I could have. I lie less once I knew the people it was hard to make them believe.

"How can anyone not know how to flirt!" She yelled again as if it was all my fault.

"I don't know.." I said, looking back at the disco area. Sipping from my glass feeling my face burning when I can notice her gaze on me in disbelief.

She huffed eventually dropping on the seat beside me, "bhaiya will get it, we gotta wait for him till then, Serra don't mind me but you are hardly any fun"

I coughed, choking on my drink, "Wh-at"
She passed me a tissue smirking, "remember he was sulking too? He needs fresh air just like you do. Don't be greedy Serra share the company.."

Okay, it was time to leave I got out tick,
had fresh air tick,
visited a club tick,

and that's it! good night

"Wait-where are you going?" Divyanshi asked amusedly.

I got up turning to get my clutch which was placed on the bar I rushed seeing Divyanshi leaping to get it before me I stretched my arm and grinned on seeing it was just near my white clutch was within my grasp, I put my hand but - suddenly I stumbled into someone so hard it knocked the breath out of my lungs, I would have instantly fallen back and toppled over the chair if they hadn't held me pulling me close to them with their arm around my waist.

I looked up, shocked, my hands splayed on a hard chest. Aftershave smell filling in my nose sending a shiver down my spine. In the dim lighting I blinked staring at the dark eyes.

"Serra?" He said rubbing his eyes as if he couldn't believe I was here or he was imagining me. I stepped back on recognising it was Sahil. He at once dropped his arm off my waist.

"Umm..hey," I said awkwardly, looking around. He was wearing a black shirt and pants and they fitted so well and he looked and smelled so ..AHH...

"What are you doing here?" He asked, did he sound breathless?.

"Bahiya!" Divyanshi shouted from where she sat, casually waving both of her hands.

Sahil groaned noticing her, "I can guess why"

"Bhaiya get me some bourbon!" Divyanshi ordered still shouting. People were looking at her and Sahil, some of them expressions said they were accustomed to it.

"Stop shouting Divya! you are embarrassing me" Sahil said walking swiftly to where she sat.

I watched him from behind should I leave? Then he would think I am avoiding him and that, I was still angry at him and was like a woman high on rage. I wanted to throw my arms in frustration.

I walked back maybe sitting for 10 or 15 minutes won't hurt. We could have a better parting speech this time. Dragging myself I took my place back digging my fingers in my clutch, anxiously.

"You won't drink anymore Divya for god's sake you are 16 years old!" Sahil was near shouting himself.

"Oh my gosh really!" Divya said flatly.

"Divya what are you doing here?"

"I came here because of Serra she was crying alone I wanted to make her happy!" Divyanshi answered wiping her nonexistent tears, "bhalai ka zamana hi nai"

I gasped.

what! Crying

Sahil's head snapped to me. "You were crying, something happened?" He sounded really concerned.

"No, I wasn't! " I said and shook my head way too vehemently.

"Of course she would say no! How often do you go around telling people you were crying?" Divyanshi shook her in disappointment at Sahil.

Sahil flushed, guiltily looking away from me, "you are right" he said, softly

I frowned.

"I am always right! " Divyanshi said haughtily, "now get us drinks"

Sahil nodded absent-mindedly moving to the bar.

"I wasn't crying," I told her firmly.

She was beaming at Sahil or the drinks he was getting, "you were crying Serra, you were crying on the inside" she said and then jumped off the seat hurrying to get her drink. She literally snatched it off Sahil's hand then she took a sip suspiciously and glared at him and they were back to bickering.

I looked away and watched the people dancing someway I was finding it soothing if I close my eyes I could even imagine myself there. The music had some piano notes I listened to them intently. It was rare, a club with a calming atmosphere and slow song. But anyway I never went to one before so can't say much.

Someone cleared their throat and it broke my trance. I jerked up my neck whipped in the direction, Sahil sat beside me, uncertainly.

I drew my eyes away from him quickly before I started staring at him at his exposed neck and his arms with corded muscle. God, he was really an athlete

"Where is Divyanshi?" I asked my heartbeat increasing suddenly. I would blame the sudden change in the atmosphere.

"On the floor, dancing around" He answered sounding distracted. My eyebrows furrowed, I glanced at him he was staring at my face, incessantly his eyes roaming all over it and again. I faced away felt it like it was on a furnace.

He noticed my panic and nervousness he pulled his eyes away quickly, rubbing his neck, "you look different" he mumbled.

I must look very strange today that's why I felt people mainly boys looking at my way often. I don't want to be naive and consider myself attractive as the reason for it.

"Very different" He continued I felt his eyes sliding down taking in my attire lingering on my stomach.

"Really? Is it a good different or bad different?" I can't help myself from asking, pulling my top down again. It was of no use Serra, I reminded myself.Gazing up at him nervously, suddenly why did it matter what did he think of me?

He held my stare then gulped shying away,
"Too good" he replied, huskily.

My lips curled, I bit it looking down at my clutch.

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