I will be with you
I’ll come up to you
I will be with you
Always, my love for you...
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Four months earlier

Broken and slightly out of breath, Taeyong let himself fall on the sandy ground and grabbed his drinking bottle. They had been in America for several days now and were about to shoot the music video for the English version of Highway to Heaven. They had just shot the dance break and through the heat of the blazing sun, he felt like he was about to collapse at any moment. The others felt the same. Taeil and Haechan also fell to the ground next to him and inhaled their complete water bottle.
"I don't think I've ever sweated so much in my life."
Whining, Haechan let himself fall on his back and held the small hand fan in front of his face in the hope that it would give him some cool air. Taeyong nodded in agreement and drank the last sip of water and looked around for his other band members. Jungwoo, Doyoung and Yuta sat with their backs against the jeep and looked incredibly exhausted as well, while Mark and Johnny talked to the staff team. Taeyong continued to glide his gaze over the crowd and then let it stick to Jaehyun, mustering him slightly. Jaehyun looked unbelievably good and that although he was incredibly sweaty, just like the others. When Jaehyun then poured the water from his water bottle over himself, Taeyong bit his lip without noticing and let his gaze glide gently down on Jaehyun's body. The white clothes immediately became transparent through the contact with the water and clung more to Jaehyun's body, revealing his abs incredibly. Taeyong could no longer deny having an unbelievable crush on the younger one. At first he had tried to convince himself that Jaehyun was only a good friend but slowly he realized, that he liked Jaehyun much more than that. Again and again he caught himself staring at the other one. Sighing, since he had done it again, Taeyong lowered his gaze frustratedly to the floor in front of him and pulled his hair desperate. It couldn't go on like this anymore. His crush on Jaehyun completely took away his control and concentration. 

Even today during the shooting, he made a lot of mistakes, because he felt distracted by the presence of the other person. When Jaehyun was around, his body just went crazy. His heart was beating very fast, his cheeks turned red and he had to be careful not to stutter every time Jaehyun talked to him. Taeyong already had feelings for the younger one for quite a long time, but he never admitted this to himself. His feelings towards Jaehyun grew day by day and he felt, that he couldn't control them anymore. Every day he had to be careful not to expose himself. Jae and he were close friends and he didn't wanted to risk this friendship. But slowly he didn't know what to do anymore. Normally he would always go to Jaehyun or Johnny in the first place with problems he couldn't solve on his own, but both options didn't come up in this case. Johnny was Jaehyun's best friend and therefore would not be able to keep Taeyong's secret for long. 

When a shadow appeared above him, he raised his eyes slightly from the ground to look directly into Jaehyun's face. He held out a full bottle of water to him.
"You should drink more Taeyong-Hyung."
Taeyong's cheeks immediately turned red as he quietly accepted the bottle with thanks. He tried to keep his eyes away from the other one, after all his shirt was still transparent and Taeyong didn't want to stare again. Jaehyun let himself slide to them on the floor and was directly drawn into a conversation between Haechan and Taeil. Taeyong himself tried to get his face color as well as his heartbeat under control again while he focused on the water in his hands. Jaehyun had brought him water. Taeyong hated himself for this small gesture that immediately gave him hope. Probably, he just looked completely exhausted and Jaehyun, like all the others, did not want their leader to collapse and thats why he gave him the water. Sighing, Taeyong shook his head to get rid of the thoughts and took a few sips of water.

That same night, Taeyong woke up covered in sweat again. That same night, Taeyong woke up in a sweat again. But not this time, because of the heat. He had another nightmare in which Jaehyun hated him. Taeyong often had nightmares like that. But this one was different. Normally, he always dreamed that Jaehyun would hate him as soon as he learned about his feelings, but this time it was completely different. In his dream, Jaehyun hated him for not telling about his feelings and keeping it from him for months. Taeyong's heart beat against his chest and his loose shirt stuck to his wet back. He shakily brushed the sweaty hair out of his face and tried to control his breathing, but it only got more panicky. This time his dream felt much more realistic than ever before and before he could prevent it, he jumped out of his bed and left the hotel room. With watery eyes and hands trembling with panic, he walked down the hotel corridor to Jaehyun's room. Both Jaehyun and Taeyong had been given a single room, and when Taeyong knocked at the door in panic, Jaehyun opened it with a confused and tired expression. When he saw Taeyong in this state, he immediately pulled the elder one into his room, concerned.

"Hyung, what's wrong? You look like you've seen a ghost." Jaehyun looked worriedly at his leader while Taeyong threw himself into his arms and clung to him as if his life depended on it.

"p..please don't hate me." Taeyong had completely lost control over himself and could neither think nor prevent his next words and actions.

"Why should I hate you?" Jaehyun was incredibly confused and slowly loosened Taeyong's grip to be able to look at the older but also smaller one. Taeyong's first tears ran down his cheeks. Normally he would hate himself for showing this weakness in front of Jaehyun, especially since he is supposed to be strong as leader and Hyung, but the dream had shocked him too much to think clearly. Jaehyun's expression immediately became even more worried. He had never seen Taeyong like this before. Taeyong buried his face in his hands. "i..I'm so sorry." He breathed in shakily and wiped the backs of his hands over his wet eyes before looking at Jaehyun. "I have fallen in love with you." As soon as he pronounced the words, he understood what he was actually saying and let himself fall on his knees. It was out. Jaehyun knew. Taeyong knew he would hate him now. Jaehyun reacted to Taeyong's surprise completely different than expected. He knelt down to him and took his hands off his face. Even before Taeyong could react, Jaehyun's lips were on his. Taeyong's heart immediately did tumbles and his whole body was tingling.

Even now, four months later, Taeyong's body still reacted to Jaehyun's closeness in the same way as before. Cuddled up against Jaehyun, he lay on Taemin's sofa and let his boyfriend gently stroke his hair. They had spent all evening planning how they would proceed before Taemin offered Jaehyun to stay the night as well. They were all scattered around the living room watching a movie and trying to process and distract themselves from the news Jaehyun had given them. Although Taeyong was shocked and blown away by the news, he was still happy for a short moment to be hold in the arms of his boyfriend again. With Jaehyun at his side he felt stronger, braver and definitely more self-confident and he knew that from now on he could always rely on him. Jaehyun would never leave him alone again.