Kie's POV:

My mom came to visit me becuse JJ went right over to my parent's house and told them about the breakup. He was worried about me and didn't want me to be alone. I'll admit, I appreciated it because I never would've asked my mom to come down.

She hugged me and told me that everything was going to be okay. I told her everything and she was just there for me to cry and talk to. It was nice actually.

We were sitting on the beach and she looked at me and asked, "Kiara, you don't have to answer me and you don't need to decide this second but just ask yourself this, is having a baby really that important to you? More important than being with JJ"

I looked at her and said, "I want to be a mom so badly it's all I can think about"

"I want that for you, being a mom is the best thing in the whole world and I'm sorry that it's something you won't get to experience with JJ"

"Me too, he'd be such a good dad"

"I know he would be, but he doesn't seem to think so"

My mom hugged me and said, "I'm so sorry, honey"

"I'll be okay" I said

My mom stayed for a week before heading back home. I was glad my dad stayed to keep an eye on JJ. I made my mom promised that she'd do the same.

She left and I spent the day catching up on school and I've been an emotional mess the past week. I told my friends about my breakup with JJ and they were all super supportive. They all couldn't believe that we only broke up because JJ didn't want kids.

The next few weeks of the summer semester sucked. I missed JJ so much and I didn't go home on break because I didn't want to see him. I knew if I saw him, we'd end up in bed together and that wasn't going to help me get over him.

I was hanging out with Libby and she asked why I didn't go home and I told her.

"You know the fastest way to get over someone is by getting under someone else"

"I'm not interested in anyone else"

"Well, I hate to break it to you but the whole reason you and JJ broke up is because you want kids and in order for you to have kids, you're gonna have to find a guy to have kids with"

"I know, I'm just not ready to go hook up with guys"

"Then at least let me set you up on a few dates"

"Fine" I agreed and Libby grabbed her phone

Ten minutes later she told me that I had a dinner date tonight. When I said yes to dating, I didn't mean today. She insisted that I go and she helped me get ready. Before I knew it, I was meeting this mystery guy for our date. I showed up and it was Andrew. He was a nice guy but not my type. Dinner was fine, we talked about surface-level shit and then I left. It felt so forced and wrong, like I was cheating on JJ.

It took everything in me not to call him and tell him about the date. I texted Libby and told her that I wasn't ready to date anyone. The next night, I hung out with my friends at the beach and they were all asking about the date. I was quiet and didn't say much. Matt sat by me and said, "I'm sure getting over JJ is going to take some time, don't make Libby feel like you have to rush into anything"

"I can't... I felt like I was cheating on him all night"

"Anything I can do to make you feel better?"

"No, but thank you... I'm gonna head home" I said just wanting to be alone

I said goodbye to my friends and I drove to the beach house. I took a shower and grabbed one of JJ's sweatshirts that I stole and curled up in bed, in the same sheets that I still hadn't washed because they smelt like JJ.

I was so close to texting him, but I didn't. I watched a movie and eventually fell asleep. When I woke up, I didn't feel any better. I still missed JJ. I couldn't do this. I went for a run and then I went to the library at school to do homework. I got most of it done when Matt walked over and asked, "Ice cream study break?"

"Yes!" I said packing up my bag and we left the library and walked a few blocks to the popular ice cream shop

We ordered and went to the beach and ate it as we casually talked. He told me about his ex-girlfriend from freshmen year. Her name was Jillian and he broke up with her because all she wanted to do was party and he was heartbroken as they'd been dating since they were in high school, ninth grade.

He told me how he got over her in healthy ways and how hard it was not to text her. I related to it completely and it was nice to talk to someone who understood what I was going through.

"So, a baby, huh?"

"Yeah, not right now but soon... JJ doesn't want kids and I do..."

"His loss"

I nodded in agreement because I didn't know what to say. He walked me back to campus and the library was now closed. He hugged me goodbye and I got in my car and drove home. I wanted nothing more than to go up to bed and find JJ there waiting for me to get home but he wasn't there.

I grabbed my phone and typed a message that I was tempted to send to JJ.

Jayge, I miss you.... I miss coming home to you. I miss texting you. I even miss picking up your dirty socks all over the house. I've been talking to Matt about the breakup and it helped. But you're the only one that I want to talk to. I didn't just lose my boyfriend, I also lost my best friend. I love you and I miss you

I deleted the message, put my phone down, and I went to sleep.