One of the most anticipated chapters of their timeline '''! 

Ranbir Unfiltered, speaks for the first time :)

Some revelations, a take on Ranbir's relationship from an outsider POV (strictly!) and a bit of imagination on how he must have felt about his past relations and the black image the media has painted him in ! Most of the facts and thoughts are collected from various folks I've interacted and asked on the same topic. It's their unbiased viewpoint as well. 

He opens his heart to y'all so listen to him with patience and an open mind ^.^

If you belong to RanDeep / RanKat ship, kindly do not read. I don't need unnecessary triggers and negative shit in my comment section :) Even though I haven't shamed both the actresses :) Just showed an angle on why they didn't worked (could be wrong) and how everything at the end, pulled Ranbir's image down. 

Also my own imagination of how Ranlia met for the first time (before they came to movies) and his reaction to their first meeting. Some adorable stuff geared up for you guys ;)

Here it is in the month of Bira's birthday,  :=)

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3 Months Later .....

(Ranbir's POV)

It's winter here in Bulgaria but nevertheless warm with it's people and kindness. 

Been three months to that rather iconic New Year's eve at Tel Aviv, Israel. In that open restaurant facing a hill top. Where I had found myself falling for the most beautiful pair of eyes I've ever laid mine on. I cannot delete that memory ever. Just got to be the most magical beginning to a tale I never anticipated. Somehow with destiny weaving it's right threads, I happened to kiss Alia !

Like a legitimate KISS, okay ?

The memory of how her lips moulded with mine, still lingers in my head like a slow fire. Of how delicate and beautiful she felt, still gives me serious chills. The way we melted in each other with the backdrop 2018's entrance, will forever be etched in my soul. I thought I couldn't hold this much happiness in me, maybe explode. But she proved me wrong. 

She gracefully glided into my monotonous, gray life like a smear of bright colours, brushed on a canvas. Like a ballerina dancing away in glory. Like a rainbow sparkling after heavy rain. Like a Sanjay Leela Bhansali heroine, running down a stair/corridor, resembling a friggin Goddess! 

Yes, she became my light. As dramatic as it seems, she filled the emptiness in my soul, the cracks and pores that had started widening. There was no stopping us after that kiss. Could not go back to normal after something that mind blowing. 

So here we are in love, three months strong ! 

Every day felt like a fantasy. Each beautiful than the previous. 

We didn't planned it anyway. Just happened, like it should be. Love fell into our bare laps like an oyster. We received it gratefully without ruining it with ten thousand negative counter thoughts. Obviously this would look sketched, a film strategy to sell our film. Or worse, another successful actress fell into the trap of Bollywood's playboy ! That's what they'll say, write, sell and earn money from. I know, she knows and so does our immediate family and friends. 

But should that stop your heart from racing wild at a mere smile from her ? Or a walk with her in Bulgarian foggy parks ? Or the never ending conversations with her that seems perfect ? Or just the way we feel complete at having each other ? 

NO

It's not like we weighed every single punch that'll come our way. We did and found that nothing will stop their brains to think a certain negative way. One day, our relationship news will break from it's cocoon that is here and will reach the Indian soil. Everyone's gonna whisper, bitch, talk and malign the purity of our love in their own wicked ways. They will humiliate us for no fault of ours. Will crucify us for falling in love. We may not get the same freedom that we enjoy here as a couple, there. We are aware of the pros and cons that surround an actor's love life more so of mine. 

And still we decided to move along the call of our heart. To listen to it's fine beat. 

On set we're as professional as we get with some playful fun in between shots. Some leg pulling and teasing from both sides. And pure torturous mockery from the team of Brahmastra ! They left no stone unturned to make us blush or shoo them away in embarassment. But that's all part and parcel of this blossoming garden that we set to grow. Our parents have never been this happy at any of of ours relationship status before. 

My mom is over the moon with our news since she had always harboured love and admiration for Alia, like the rest of the world. Dad for a change was keenly interested to know more details. He intends to meet us when we return back to Mumbai. Daadi is pleading me to take Alia to her bungalow. I laughed how impatient she seemed to meet my love. All my cousins, close friends and relatives were quite overjoyed themselves and have planned too many parties concerning us. They might even plan the decor of our wedding, if we give them a single nod. 

Wedding .... hmm ! Still a long way to get there but the thought made my insides tingle for some odd reason.  

I've always had dreams for a perfect wedding and marriage life with beautiful babies. Dreams to settle down in a new villa kinda home with my own little family and my parents can live with us if they wish. Dreams of playing football with my son, doing good films and dying a happy man.  

But nothing culminated into the initial stage, leaving me more disturbed than ever. Me being the Kapoor clan's only heir didn't helped either. Both times, my family wasn't that happy with my ex partners leaving me perplexed. Even I had overlooked lot of family values in order to be with them. With Katrina, I had left my parent's home to have a live- in with her. That was a nasty decision. Lost my parent's faith, belief, respect. Whatever bond I had with dad, was lost!

Fought with them for what ?

Nothing ! All their predictions came true. We split. 

Thought it would work but didn't. Some close mentors had even warned me of the puncture they saw in our relation. Imtiaz had hinted me so many times as to how bleak our bond looks. I payed no heed obviously. It wouldn't last they all predicted. I being the fool and quite a rebel in love, both the times (though the first one broke due to my hormonal mistake and I deeply regret committing that, but even Deepika and I were doomed from the beginning) leading to lot of mishaps and bad mouthing from the world. 

It's a miracle how me and Katrina, held on to our thin rope of relation and dragged it to six long years! Things weren't great, both of us had trust issues, family wasn't supporting and my career saw some crazy ups and downs during this period. We managed to hold on to the last ribbon of hope until we couldn't cling more. Tired and exhausted, it broke apart. I believe it was for the better. No one should go through such a doomed phase. 

Already I lived with a playboy image painted beautifully by our Indian media. Yes I committed a grave mistake by cheating on my ex- girlfriend and I regret it with all my soul. But when she made a dig so big on me at National Television with Sonam, I stayed silent. Respected both the girls and never once did I spoke a single crude remark in return for what they said. Not like I don't know how to make comebacks but I refrained from making a national joke of our lives, mine and theirs included. Our parents were deeply hurt and did made some remarks that again went vile across the media. 

In fact I admitted my mistake on television for record. Kindly guess the guts needed to do that especially for a male actor in the industry. Well I did. Yet, I became the popular villain in the eyes of the common folks and media scrutiny. They wrote and rewrote on my life and my words, ruined my reputation and made me a figure of disgust. As my family quite often asks, I could have hired a very influential PR marketing team to clean my image -

YET I DIDN'T 

They continued to conspire against my peace, my happiness. Deprived me of a carefree life. But I hung on to a lesson my grandfather once taught "Be chill ! Life comes and goes, so does people, whatever happens in between shouldn't affect you. Live your life in your own terms with dignity." And chilled I am, so much that neither success nor failure affects me or gets to my head. I've had the most unfortunate phase any actor can ever get in my career with a string of flops. But this lesson was my anchor. Daddu's words made me strong. 

Being single wasn't great either. I didn't miss the physical attraction but I deeply missed companionship. After our split, I had nothing in me to move ahead normally. How can I be normal when the dreams that I once build were suddenly crushed, lying on ground ? My hopes of getting settled at once, crumbled. I moved to our ancestral property in Chembur, with my daadi for few months. Needed someone to cradle my head while I blabbered like a baby. Someone to hold my ears and twist them playfully while I pranked like older days. Who better than your grandmother ? 

She gave me her undying spirit, matchless zest and overflowing love to keep me going. Her lessons on life made me see life from a different lens. Was a great unwinding experience. Inspite of two broken, tainted relationships, I still held on to my belief that one day I'm gonna fall madly and deeply in love with someone whose gonna love me back deeply and madly and that's what gonna happen. My heart knows it will happen. 

And maybe, it did 

There was no plan to fall in love after the two crushed fiasco's. But when does your heart ever goes according to the plan ? Traitor! 

Always knew Alia's forever crush on me, thanks to the media and some mutuals. She would never look into my eyes directly. Would blush non stop and speak less when I'm around. Maybe she never noticed her actions around me but I did. And for some reason it gave a flutter to my heart to know the kind of effect I had on her. No other fan girl (s) or any female who claimed to have a major crush on me, made me feel this blissful like the way her admiration did. 

She was special ! Always did and always will. From the very beginning my 21 year old eyes saw the chubbiest, most adorable girl ever with eyes that literally shined like some diamonds, I knew she secured some corner of my heart. Not in any vulgar way to think since she was just an 11 year old kid but from a pure, positive space. She was a happy, go lucky, sunshine kind of a person. And I had named her "Sunshine" in my head, there and then! 

I was assisting Sanjay Leela Bhansali for Black and was summoned to be a male prop for a girl's audition photoshoot that Bhansali Sir needed. Reaching Mehboob studios, I entered the special room to see a sight that had me carry the biggest smile ever adorned. There stood a young girl, porcelain white, rose hinted cheeks, chubby, wearing cute shorts and some graphic tee. Her silky hair flying in the air like typical heroines. 

As the camera's fought to capture her natural charm, she spunned with a squeal and made all sorts of faces I've never seen in my life until then. Her spunk and energy had mesmerized everybody in that room. All gawking at this tiny diva, smiling and giggling away to glory, in abandon. 

She wasn't faking anything, she could never. She was just being herself, Alia! One thing was pretty sure, this girl was born for camera's since the lens loved her! I sat next to the monitor screen where literally everyone stared at this dazzling star, spreading her wings, soaring high and maybe throwing few rainbows. Looking at a gaping SLB I realised this is it - SHE IS A STAR and not just any other star - A SUPERSTAR, A LEGEND IN THE MAKING ! 

And I had the fortune of seeing it blossom and come alive, for the very first time! 

I could see the pride forming in Sanjay Sir's orbs. He had a brilliant finding for the industry in front of him and every one could see the potential in this little package of goodness. Had seen many movies and actors, met so many legends but that evening, inside that room, I felt my heart shudder at the sight of this girl whose name I didn't know. She had a vibe to her, a born inherited kind of glamour and lustre, only a bonafide superstar has! 

Why is this girl affecting me this bad ? 

Sanjay sir turned to me and smiled one of his rarest one's. He gave me the cue to go and stand next to her. All of a sudden the room began to shrink and gloom, deprived of any light. I panicked a little, why ? Never mind. My head came fuzzy, thoughts disheveled. Knees turned mushy and I had no strength to get up and move towards her. Jeez, get a grip RK ! 

Why am I behaving like some whipped guy ? 

And this isn't even right to begin with! She's ten years younger to me for Christ's sake! I ain't a pedophile and never going to be. But why am I so worked up when all I gotta do is stand next to her, that's it. 

Slowly yet painfully, my legs reached me next to a curiously staring sunshine. 

Yes, Ms Sunshine she's going to be since I didn't know her name. Reaching near her made me feel suddenly too conscious of my height. I was a six damned foot while she resembled a scared pup. She had to crane her neck forcefully to see me while I had to bend mine down to meet her eye sight. Her small, delicate form gave me a sudden urge to protect her, to keep her safe. 

Did I bumped my head last night ? Yes, has to be. 

Turning away from her awkwardly, also to not torture the poor thing to look up at me for so long, I rather turned to smile at the camera's now zooming at us. We saw the head of the team, motioning us to stay alert and be focused. He made a sign in the air and gestured Sunshine to move closer. 

Closer where ? Shit!

Hesitatingly, her feet scurried next to me, her head reaching just my waist! Wow, nice prop they got for her, I thought bitterly. I mean, shouldn't they get anyone of her age ? To make this comfortable for her. Not that I am complaining but still. Then after making dozens of frame like director sign towards us, Sanjay Sir tilted his palm in the air, signalling Sunshine to bend her head. 

Huh ?

His eyes found mine and he told me silently to bend down a little. Shaking my head, I took the back support of a cardboard pile just behind us and bended my body downwards, still clueless. And then it happened like a slow motion film. A small head suddenly placed itself on my shoulder, with cautious move. I wouldn't have felt the weight of her head if not for her jet black hair, that tickled me a bit. My heart would have burst out at this sudden movement but I composed myself for the sake of the shoot. 

It took so much of my strength to not wrap my arm around a nervously shaking Sunshine. She was really nervous, could have even faded with stress. That made me smile coyly. Paagal ! So much for a eleven year old it is. But I'm sure she has had her own share of interaction with boys in school and around her. 

Something ticked off in me at that thought and I swayed it away. 

After what seemed eternity, Sanjay Sir screamed "Perfect" and everyone clapped in glee. My shoulder eased in relief and I felt her do the same, not before frantically standing straight from the earlier position. "Alia, you are born for movies! I'm sure you'll make all of us especially Mahesh and Soni, really proud" exclaimed Sir with delight. And then it hit me -

A L I A 

Oh, so that's her name ? 

Alia ! Pretty name for a pretty girl, I smirked. 

But I prefer Sunshine though. That fits her more perfectly. 

And wait, what else did Sir said ? Mahesh and Soni ..... as in Mahesh bhatt and his wife ? Oh gosh! So she's Mahesh uncle's daughter ?! 

I knew about Pooja Bhatt, his eldest and a once successful actress. And maybe they had a son. Bu this younger one is a new revelation. No wonder, she looked familiar yet so confident. Belongs to one of the most experienced, influential families of the industry, explains her interest in the same line. But I haven't seen her like I've met most of the star kids. Shraddha, Varun, his brother Rohit, Arjun, Sonam, her siblings ... I know the mall since a child. We meet at each other's birthday parties, at some high end functions, weddings etc. 

But never her! Maybe once or twice at some function. I can't recall any other meeting except for this one. So the next big thing would be Alia Bhatt , eh ? Not bad, quite a great choice if I may add. 

That was our first unofficial meet and since then my admiration for her grew. I didn't see her for a long time until I heard Karan was looking to launch debutantes for his next high school drama ft Dharma glam. By then I had already debuted in the industry and was doing decently well. Ayan had shown me the three new faces in his phone, at one of his countless visits at my place. I knew the boys - Sidharth Malhotra and Varun Dhawan. 

But when Ayan showed me a rather attractive young lady's picture in some real posh dress, my eyes stuck to the screen. Who's this ? I've seen her, I thought. But where ? Her eyes looked too familiar, like I've seen them dazzle somewhere. That beautiful face, I've seen, but where ? 

"Alia Bhatt, Mahesh Bhatt and Soni Razdan's youngest daughter. She's the female lead. Quite a choice. She has a long way I tell you" smiled Ayan, eyes on the screen. 

ALIA ! 

Clicked -

Oh shoot! This one's the same girl I saw years back! Dang, she did grow and how. 

Suddenly I turned all my attention to her smiling face with a twinkle in my eyes. I found her! Man, she really grew into a gorgeous young lass. Where was she all these years ? I thought she got some project already under her sleeve. So she's finally making her big step. Well, this one should give other's a run for their money. 

"She's here to stay. I tell you yeh legendary material hai. Likh ke rakh le Ayan, Amitabh Bachchan hai yeh ladki! This is just her beginning !" I grinned at Ayan and I meant each syllable I spoke. She really had it in her to make it huge. And to earn my respect and trust is hard but Sunshine had her way I guess. My head fell back and I laughed silently. 

Ayan stared at me as if I've lost it. I might have. 

Haven't I named her Sunshine ? So be it. In my head she's Sunshine and for the world she's Alia! The things destiny does is crazy. I laughed at how stupid I sounded in my head and if Ayan were to hear it, he'll admit me to some mental asylum. 

Since then I've seen my Sunshine grow. Each day, each year. With every film of hers. I've seen her leap like a cheetah! Into new territories and horizons of heights never touched before. For a new comer, she was really fast with her popularity and her growth as an actor was exponential. And after years of causal Hi-Bye's at parties and award ceremonies, her boldly confessing her crush for me everywhere and my yearning to do a film with her, we finally found a project ! 

Who better than Ayan, our mutual anchor. The contract had been signed few years back but the film began principally this year. I couldn't be more grateful. For all that happened was for the best! If I hadn't gone through those broken shards of glass and first hand humiliation, I wouldn't have retrospected my life and reflected on my actions. I wouldn't have become a better possible version of myself. 

From some great falls you learn to pick your shit and climb up. I did. 

Cannot express how blessed am I to have found love again, for the better I BELIEVE, in Alia, my Sunshine, the girl who captured my heart some seventeen years back! Back then I never felt anything remotely closer to this passionate emotion but it had been there, like a newly sown seed. That kept growing with summers and winters and springs and autumn. Until finally it sprouted like a rose petal, gushing into my heart's chamber with a fire so hot. That I burned in it's intensity, in it's passion, in it's love. 

It's like life prepared me, refined me in fire, purified me, again and again, only to be made a better companion, a friend, a partner and a lover for her! To be hers! 

In HIS time, he makes all things beautiful and bright. And he gave me light, my Sunshine. 

And I'm gonna spend the rest of my life loving and cherishing her, triggering her to laugh with abandon, making her blush furiously and to make her feel like the Queen she is! 

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NOTE :  *alia behind the screen, blushing mad af!* 

Okay so how was the chapter guys ? I solid had another exciting plan but turns out this one led me into the deepest portion of Ranbir's heart and I couldn't back off ! I thought the world needs to listen to him, atleast once. So let it be. 

Therefore I dedicate this chapter to Ranbir, who never spoke about his hurt, his failures or his heart bleed but always asked for forgiveness, spoke with grace about everyone, never belittled anyone and always walked with humility! 

I know a lot of RanbirAliaFc fans wanted me to post a Ranbir's Media Image analysis on Instagram but I never got the right research and right time to put that up. So this is for you guys! I might not post that analysis there, so here it is for you. Not an analysis but still something. Because honestly no one would get Ranbir and his goodness on that platform, no matter how much we scream and preach! And he doesn't deserves their cruel words either. Hereby, I thought it's wise enough to sum my words here :) 

And since everyone gets triggered so quickly, I don't need another fan war -.- 

Reality being, Ranbir became a better version of how he had aspired to be and Alia got to have that version of him :) End of story <3 *grins*

There was more to say but as I told you I had begun the draft to write another track but then suddenly midway, I turned this direction. So this chapter also talks about the first meet of Ranlia and since then what he felt for her. The highway-Imtiaz etc part will come later, so don't fret :) Now that I've done the blunder, it looks more perfectly balanced with how he felt doomed after the first few break-ups and later on what kept him going and him finding love again ! It's long so I really hope you enjoy :)

From the next chapter onwards you'll see the family angle as well ^.^ I do not plan to do more of shooting scenes, just few adequate one's. But I'll try to accommodate most of their true blue spottings and milestones. Let's see if the next one comes this month or the next (depends on my free time) ;) 

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Love you folks,

Jemi :)