[AU: Modern World]

High School. What a joke.

How is Juvia supposed to survive in this plague-stricken world?

People are monstrous beings, hunting for ways to destroy others, and it's the sick society that fuels their heinous hunger.

As for Juvia, she is one of the helpless victims, slowly being torn apart and eaten alive by their brutality.

Thankfully for her, not everyone is as heartless as those creatures. There's one person who seems to put a smile on Juvia's face. One person...who absolutely hates Juvia.

Does Juvia know this for sure? Of course. Although she may come across as a love-stricken idiot, Juvia doesn't let her feelings blind her conscious. Juvia knows he hates her. Juvia sees him roll his eyes, she sees him try to avoid her. Juvia needs to stop acting like she never notices. Juvia needs to stop playing pretend. Because no matter what Juvia does, she can't force him to return his feelings.

Juvia just needs to accept the facts. Gray Fullbuster is forever out of Juvia's reach.

So that leaves Juvia with no one. Everyone else is a vile demon.

Why you ask? Why does Juvia see everyone else in such a negative light?

Hah. Same question Juvia asked herself for years, but not because Juvia doesn't understand why she's not fond of them. The truth is, Juvia has been bullied ever since she attended Fairy Tail High. Poisonous rumors about Juvia lurk around every hall, not to mention physical abuse as well. Juvia has been locked in the bathroom for hours, shoved and pushed around like a piece of garbage, and beaten to the point where Juvia almost resembles a lame dog.

So Juvia guesses that should answer your question.

That's why Juvia has been keeping a journal, attempting to release her from the ceaseless pain. But each and every time Juvia does this, she gets closer to breaking herself, reminding herself that her life's not worth all of this trouble. This always happens without fail.

That's why Juvia has resorted to her so-called "drastic actions" to let go of this overpowering pain.

It doesn't hurt, really. It's not the knife that bothers Juvia.

It's the loneliness.

[.......Three Days Earlier........]

"Gray-sama!" The bluenette cried out. Her effervescent voice filled the halls as she chirped out his name.

The man in front of her had one hand shoved into his pocket while he carried his folders under the other arm. He had unkempt, jet black hair and wore a large cross pendant around his neck. Gray sped up the pace of his saunter, eager to get Juvia off his trail. Unfortunately, it didn't work, as she squeezed through the bustling students and reached him.

"H-hi! Juvia wanted to walk with you to class." The girl stuttered as she felt her face become flustered. The male next to her scoffed.

"Whatever."

Walking in silence, the two made their way to History Class. The raven haired male quickly made his way to the seat by the window while the smaller girl took her assigned seat towards the back.

[...............]

Right after the bell rung, Gray bolted out of his seat.

"G-Gray? Wait!" Called out the girl, who was eager to see him again. She stumbled over the feet of countless students blocking her path.

The bluenette pulled on the icy, blue eyed male's shirt as she tripped.

"Let go of me!" Gray whined as she shoved the girl away from him, wearing a disgusted look on his face.

Juvia's eyes widened, surprised at his actions. She was left speechless as she tried finding the words which had slipped out of her mouth when she tripped.

"Why do you obsess over me, huh? I don't care about you, so stop caring about me." The raven haired male snapped coldly before turning away from the girl.

Juvia was left alone, again. Alone with the bullies entrapping her in the abyss of hate. And alone with the monsters in her head.

He hates you. The voices screeched.

They all hate you.

Juvia's hands tore at her hair as the mocking voices antagonized her.

"Why do they all hate me?" The solemn girl muttered to herself.

[........Present Day.......]

See? What did Juvia tell you? Juvia has tried to get closer to the angelic man, but he looks upon her as a demon. But Juvia guesses that's what she get for being so weak.

Juvia isn't strong. She cracks under pressure, and she weeps uncontrollably when she's in solitude.

Juvia's so utterly feeble that she even let her depression take over.

'Have hope for the future. You'll get through this.' Yea, that's what they all say. But simple words aren't enough. Anyone who thinks they are, well, they're certainly a fool.

[.......Two Days Later........]

Juvia's angel had begun to turn into one of the greedy, beastly viruses plaguing the young, female teen's life. Gray was hasty to snap at her whenever she tried to speak to him, and he even humiliated her when they were in the hallway. Tension was rapidly growing between them.

The bluenette had walked alone to her house, saddened by Gray's recent actions.

"I'm such an idiot." The raven haired male muttered to himself as he rested his face in his coarse hands.

"I should've known what she was doing. And all I did was help it progress along..." Gray paced back and forth as his breathing became irregular.

Suddenly, a bold thought popped into his head.

"Of course..." He muttered as he contemplated his idea.

The male teen swiftly threw on his shoes, lazily tying them. As he exited his quaint house, Gray slammed the door shut and began to sprint down the street.

"Juvia..."

[........The End Of Part 1.......]

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Hello everyone! Forgive our slow updates! If you haven't already catched on, here's the gist of it: Juvia has depression and self harms herself, but tries to act like to doesn't bother her. She tries to stay strong but her method of pretending to be happy begins to fail. She has a crush on Gray and he's the only one who doesn't act mean to her. However, Gray becomes annoyed with her (you'll find out the true reason why in Part 2) because she's seemingly obsessive over him. Juvia feels completely alone and gives in to get depression. But then...

*Important Note!*

Well, that's it so far! There will be much for Gruvia in the next part. I hope you guys understand that I take depression and self harm very seriously. I'm not trying to romanticize it. There will be a note at the end of Part 2 stating the deep theme behind this.

Next Chapter: Part 2?

- Ms. Crime Sorcière
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