6. Bliss, the year of the Unicorn  

Dear diary,

I know that I made you very curious to find out what was happening to me and Van and how we got to have this amazing relationship that we have now, but I have to change the subject.

Honestly, I need time to cool down. Thinking about all of those moments of bliss we shared and still share makes me so ecstatic that it is difficult to fall asleep.

Memories keep flooding my mind, and I can't help but feel butterflies in my stomach thinking about that perfect first kiss, about those wonderful lips of his...

Oh, here I go again. See what I mean?

I need to stop thinking about that for a moment or I might simply explode from joy.

Do I sound like those obnoxious couples who keep trying to prove to everyone how perfect their relationship is? Well, I don't care.

All I care about is that I have been happy for the first time.

Thinking about all these sweet memories has kept me awake for three nights straight, and no amount of magic can hide dark bags under my eyes.

So today I shall tell you a bit about my best friend Tinky.

But don't worry soon enough I will go back to talking about Van. I can't stay away from him for long, and maybe next time, I will be able to make you see why I love him so much.

Talking about my best friend, I think it is important to mention that no matter how much fun we have, she does get me into a fair amount of trouble, and sometimes that is a good thing.

I am, well was, a type of person who always followed the rules, and when I broke any social norms I felt guilty.

For example, my house was my big act of rebellion, and Tinky thought it was funny that I would consider that as rebellion.

It was such a small thing, but it did break the social norms.

For me, breaking the rules is usually unacceptable because after doing something against the rules, I would feel guilty for days. But rules are made to be broken, aren't they?

That is where my dear Tinky, or as I call her Tinky-Linky comes in.

I don't think there is a rule she hasn't broken, and most people call her a bad influence, but I disagree.

She is just living life the way she sees fit, not following other people's rules and expectations.

When I get stuck in social conventions and norms, she is there to help me feel free. She seems to know when I need to get rid of the reins, and she comes in to ask me to hang out.

Hanging out with her usually turns out to be a rule-breaking experience.

Before meeting Van, I never wanted to break rules on purpose, and that is where she helped me out. She would convince me to do the strangest things that made me feel like myself more than anything else.

Sometimes we would sneak out to the human village just to see how it is. We knew it could be dangerous and that we shouldn't do it, but it was also very exciting.

It was never enough for us to be told what something was like, we had to see it for ourselves. I think the element of danger made it that much more fun.

Fairy life is wonderful, but it is mostly peaceful and calm. To be honest, that can be a bit boring for me, and that is why it wasn't too difficult for Linky to convince me to go on our little expeditions.

We even managed to befriend a few human children that seemed different from the majority.

It was soon obvious that humans were much more dangerous for us than we initially assumed, but that didn't stop us from researching.

That is one of the reasons I know so much about humans. I have seen them at their best and their worst, and I find it very strange.

Unlike fairies, they never keep to one extreme, the worst human being can do the nicest things, and vice versa.

That is probably the reason why I was so fascinated.

Although these days I rarely visit human villages anymore, I still have a lot of fond memories.

As you have probably noticed, I also have a lot of horrible memories, and that is one of the reasons I don't go there as often.

Another reason is that it has become even more dangerous because humans don't appreciate someone different from them.

Nevertheless, I am eternally grateful to Linky for helping me see more than our little fairy village and our perfect lives.

We also do a lot of less dangerous things that are still frowned upon, and people don't understand why we would choose to do something like that.

Sometimes we can spend hours watching clouds and trying to decipher their different shapes. On some occasions, we see horses or dragons or some everyday things, and it is inexplicably fun.

Other fairies often say that we are wasting our time when we could be doing so much more.

But we are fairies, aren't we supposed to enjoy all the small wonders of nature?

It seems that somewhere along the way, fairies forgot how fun and liberating it can be to just enjoy the small wonders of life. Because let's be honest being alive and seeing the breathtaking nature is a miracle in itself.

So many things had to happen simultaneously for us to be here that I can't help but see it as true magic.

What also makes me and my friend happy is doing simple things such as dancing in the rain, or twirling among the flowers.

It makes us so giddy, and we refuse to stop. We will keep doing the things that make us happy, even if the whole world finds them ridiculous.

I know we are right, and all of them are wrong, so I don't worry too much about their reactions.

Unfortunately, we don't hang out as much as we used to, because I am avoiding her.

Since we have the telepathic connection, I am afraid she will find out about Van, and I am not sure what her reaction will be.

She will notice if we hang out that my mind keeps wandering to Van.

It's impossible. In the strangest moments, I would think about something he said or did and almost melt from joy.

I know this is an important thing, possibly the most important thing that has happened to me so far, and I should tell Linky. But I don't want to lose my friend.

If I am being honest, I am scared, and that is very rare for me.

Although I miss hanging out with her and I know I have to tell her the truth sooner or later, I still hesitate.  

I better go make dinner. 

Until next time.