7. Fun, the year of the Unicorn     

Dear diary,

I have told you many things, about the fairies and my life, all in an effort to avoid telling you my huge secret. It is my biggest and brightest secret, and it is another reason I am so much against the fairy marrying rules. They take it for granted that a fairy should marry a fairy (male or female) but I... 

Well, I am in love with a non-fairy. He is so special and precious to me that words fail me any time I try to describe how he makes me feel. No one knows about him, not even Linky because I am not sure how she would react. 

He has the funniest and the most beautiful soul I have ever seen. Besides always making me laugh, he is also kind and goodhearted. I am not sure if he is The One but I would like the chance to find out. The problem is, he is an elf.

Yes, yes, I know what you are thinking.

"Aren't elves and fairies completely different species? Shouldn't the elves be much bigger and completely different from fairies?" 

Well, that is partly true. Our size is different, I have wings, and he has pointy ears but besides that, we are quite similar. I bet you forgot one important thing! We are both magical beings, and we can change whatever we want including our sizes. 

Sometimes he shrinks back to my size and sometimes I become bigger and to be honest it is really fun. Although, I must say that all this sneaking around isn't fun, especially for a fairy such as myself, since I have always done my best to follow all the rules. 

We, fairies, are generally very honest and open-minded and here I am lying to everyone, even to my best friend which is also a challenge because of the whole telepathy thing. 

But I do love the excitement of changing sizes and experiencing the world from a whole new perspective. To be honest, what's also interesting and eye-opening is dating a non-fairy. I had some nice and comfortable dates with fairies but this... This is completely different from anything I have ever experienced before.

It's exciting and fun, but sometimes even a bit scary, in a good way. Isn't that how love should feel like, like a roller coaster of emotions and not only a warm blanket of safety? 

I don't know. I just know that I feel so good when I am with him. My whole body trembles when I am with him and my heart beats faster whenever I look into his deep blue eyes. 

Objectively speaking, I have no idea if he is handsome or not but to me, he is just perfect. Funny enough this relationship has actually helped me to better understand humans. I know, I know, very surprising but true. I have often heard them say that they felt butterflies in their stomachs and I could never fully understand that feeling, until now. Every time I am around Van I feel a strange tickling sensation in my stomach. That's probably the same as the butterflies.

The strange thing is that I like the fact that our relationship is not perfect. You would think that a relationship between two magical beings would be perfect but actually, it is not. Putting aside the part about the forbidden relationship that is such a cliche, if I do say so myself, there are other problems as well. 

Sometimes, I get angry with him so much that I can't help but argue with him. You might be wondering what is so strange about that? The answer is simple enough, fairy folk almost never argue and when we do those are mostly very mild and calm arguments. 

However, with Van the arguments sometimes get very heated and I kinda like it. No, I don't mean the anger, but the passion behind the argument. I like it because we are not afraid to show each other who we are and to stand behind our beliefs. I don't know why, but arguing with him is for me just a part of loving him. Loving him, for who he is and not for who I want him to be. Our arguments don't last long but I feel as if instead of damaging our relationship, they are only making it stronger.

Is he The One? I have no idea, but I would surely like the chance to find out, and that is why I keep hiding our relationship from everyone else. 

What would they do if they found out? I am not sure but one thing is for sure, they would strongly disapprove of our relationship. They would disapprove of the mixing of the species, mostly because it has never been done before. 

What they refuse to admit is that all of us magical creatures share the same origins. We have all been created together by the hand of the mighty Medshal. I know that you are unfamiliar with this name, probably because it is a long-hidden secret. 

Medshal is the fairy divinity, the Almighty being who created us all. Since we are all basically the same, with some physical differences, I think that Van and I deserve the chance to try to make our relationship work. For now, I shall just enjoy what we have and time will tell if he is The One.