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"Hunkarim, you have called for me," Namik Pasha said as he bowed to Suleiman when he entered his chambers. Namik hoped with his whole heart to finally get the position in Divan he was dreaming for his whole life.

"Yes, we have some very serious topic to talk about," Suleiman said with kinda angry tone on Namik who didn't feel so comfortable now. Through his head went everything he has done to Fahriye and if Suleiman would find out about it, Namik would be beheaded.

"What is it, Your Majesty?" Namik asked hoping Suleiman knows nothing about punching Fahriye or cheating on her with Aylin.

"Fahriye said to me she doesn't want to return to Bosnia, she wants to stay here. Do you know how did this happen?" Suleiman asked looking every move Namik made trying to get the truth out of him, to see if he will dare to say anything or will continue with his lies.

"Sultana has been separated from her family for so many years. She said to me she wishes to stay here, because in Bosnia she had no one else beside me and our children. I said to her we have to return to Bosnia because I have to governor there, but she hopes I could get some job here so we could stay," Namik lied so well that anyone there could believe him each word he said and think Fahriye begs for his position, and not him.

"If it's like that, I can't deny my sister's wish. I will give you a job in Istanbul, and I hope you won't disappoint me," Suleiman said to Namik once again looking at his each moviment.

"Your slave Namik is happy with whatever job you give him, Hunkarim," Namik said as he continued to look at the ground and couldn't hide the smile he had on his face.

"Today there will be meet up of Divan, I will name not only you but some else loyal men in the Divan also, so I want you to be present there," Suleiman said and dismissed Namik.

End of the scene

"Validem," I said as I entered my mother's chambers together with my daughter Kaya who wanted to see her grandmother and also play with Mihrimah and Mehmed. As Namik had things to do in Palace, we used time to go there also while Fehime stayed in my Palace together with Mahmud who was too young to travel so often.

"Grandma!" Kaya said as she run in the hug of my mother who loved her so much, sometimes I thought she loves my daughter more than myself but I didn't care about it because I loved my children most in the world and I would never behave to them like my mother behaved to me.

"My beautiful granddaughter, come here," she said as she placed Kaya to sit in her lap while I sat next to her, and Gulfem was sitting on the pillows down on the right side of my Valide.

"I wish you would visit us more often Fahriye, you are only 10 minutes ride from the Palace and you barely come here," my Valide said not even looking at me but looking at Kaya who was so happy to be with her grandmother.

"The situation was like this, now when we will probably stay in Istanbul I will be here more often," I said and I already knew she doesn't like the plan of Namik getting into Divan. I didn't like it too but what could I do when Suleiman wants to find out the truth about him.

"You did your everything to place your husband in Divan," Valide said and embarrassing silence started. If she only would have known how is he behaving to me I wouldn't even want to see him, not even putting him in Divan. But I had to be silent because this was the thing only Suleiman, Osman, I and now Mahidevran knew.

"Sultanim, you have very beautiful necklace, I have never seen so beautiful one like this," Gulfem said looking at the necklace Osman has gifted me.

"Namik Pasha must have gifted this him to his beloved wife who wants to do everything to put him on higher positions," Valide said being arrogant once again. I knew she never loved me but I didn't know why she has to behave like this even in front of Gulfem and Kaya who was only 4 years old and had no idea how her father was.

"No, father didn't give it to her, Osman Agha gave it to her," Kaya said to my Valide and I felt so ashamed in this moment. I knew Fehime said this to me in front of Kaya but I didn't know she could say this in front of Valide who looked like she will faint any moment from shock.

"Gulfem will you please take Kaya to play with Mihrimah?" I asked Gulfem who took Kaya's hand and left the chambers together with Daye and all other maids to leave me to speak alone with my Valide.

"What is this Fahriye? How can he gift you with anything? Are you normal? You should have declined it," Valide said looking at another side as she didn't even want to look at me after this. Obviously everything that is related to me can disappoint her.

"Valide, I..." I wish I could have say to her what is happening in my life but she wouldn't even care for it as I wasn't Hatice and I wasn't important then.

"I don't care. You can shame on yourself, what will people say if they hear about it? You are Ottoman Sultana and you are married to governor of Bosnia but still you obviously have emotions towards other man," Valide said looking at me with so much disappointment in her eyes.

"I don't..." I wanted to say something but she stopped me in each word I wanted to say to her. She didn't even try to understand me or cared for me.

"You could have declined the gift, or at least not wear it, but no you are proudly walking around with another man's gift. Shame on you, you shouldn't even talk with other men beside your husband," she said once again looking at me while her eyes were full of anger, like she is talking to the worst enemy not to her own daughter.

"You never wanted to know how I feel Valide that's why you always behaved like this to me. You never cared if I am fine, now you don't ask yourself if the problem is in Namik, because you always blame me and everything is my fault," I said and raised my voice on her which she couldn't stand.

"You will take care how you act towards me, I might be your mother but I am Valide Sultan and you will act towards me respectfully," she raised her voice on me now and I knew nothing of this has sense anymore.

"You know what? Blame me for everything, it's the easiest for you. What hurts me as your daughter is seeing how you even treat Gulfem and Mahidevran as your daughters, love and respect them, but you never did that to me. Whenever Mahidevran is sad you try your best to find out why is it like this, but I am suffering for a last month and you have no idea what is happening in my life and you aren't even interested in it," I said as I got up.

"Obviously nothing bothers you when you have time to beg Suleiman to place your husband in Divan," she said as she looked once again at another side.

"Think what you want, I don't care anymore. But to me, you aren't my mother anymore," I said the words which hurt my heart and left her chambers.

"How could you behave like this to Valide? And how you aren't ashamed to wear Osman's gift when you are married? Gulfem said everything to me," Hatice said as she stood in the hallway next to Valide's chambers and Gulfem stood next to her. I could see Gulfem is ashamed when Hatice said she gossiped to her about everything but I knew she is like that.

"I am not ashamed by anything I have done and I will never be, Hatice. I don't care if you or Valide will approve my actions and my behaviour because you never approved it and I learned to live without your consent," I said seriously to my sister who to I didn't feel any connection anymore.

After them blaming me so much I didn't care about Valide or Hatice anymore. Suleiman also disappointed me. All the three of them didn't even care about me and to me they were like strangers now. I didn't want to be close to them anymore. To me, Valide was not my mother anymore, Hatice wasn't my sister anymore and Suleiman wasn't my brother anymore.

"You will never learn the right way, but you shouldn't teach your children to think like you. Now Kaya will think it's fine for you to be married but still flirting with another men and being in their closeness?" Hatice said as she was confused and angry on my decisions and my words.

"You will never be able to tell me how I should teach my children, at least I love them all equally, unlike our mother did. You always raised your head high because you were favourite, but if you weren't you would understand me. Same way Sahuban, Beyhan and Fatma understand me," I said and fake smiled to her.

"You talk like this because you are jealous, but I won't allow Kaya and Mahmud to see in front of their eyes how their mother is meeting with another man even if she has husband," Hatice yelled on me and I knew whole Harem heard her. If she only knew I am not the one like this, but my husband is, I wonder if her reaction would be different.

"Maybe one day you will understand my behaviour, Hatice, maybe," I said and walked away past her going to meet Hurrem where also my daughter Kaya was.

I entered Hurrem's chambers and she bowed to me even if it was hard for her to get up as she was pregnant and it was only a question of time when will she give a birth.

"Sultanim, I just wanted to meet you I wanted to talk to you," she said as I sat next to her while Kaya and Mihrimah were still somewhere playing.

"Sultanas, I have important news to you," Sumbul said as he arrived just at the moment I sat down next to Hurrem.

"Namik Pasha is promoted in Divan as 3rd vizier. And Osman Agha got the title of Pasha as he is now 4th vizier in Divan," Sumbul said and actually I was more happy for Osman to get the title than I was to Namik. I just wanted to get rid of him as soon as possible but Suleiman complicated a lot.

"Sultana, this is perfect news, I wanted to ask you now since your husband is in Divan now we could unite our power to be against Ibrahim Pasha," Hurrem said when Sumbul left her chambers.

"You should talk with Namik about that, for sure he will be by your side as he can't stand Ibrahim, but don't mix me in anything of those," I said because politics were the topic that least interested me now.