"Hunkarim, I wish to speak with you about something important," I said and bowed to my brother Suleiman when I entered his chambers.

"Sister, did anything bad happened?" Suleiman asked me as we sat on his terrace. I didn't even know how to tell him everything that was on my mind but I knew I should have.

"Nothing is fine in my life since I arrived here in Istanbul," I said and wanted to stay calm as much as I could have. I was even afraid of lives of my children so I ordered Gulcemal to take them to Hatice's palace until Suleiman decides what will happen next.

"Do you want to return to Bosnia?" Suleiman asked me and this was exact proof to me no one of them knows me well enough to see my emotions. I don't know if I hid them so well but for my whole life all my family thought situation will be better if I go somewhere away.

"No, on the opposite I want to stay here in Istanbul," I said and looked at Suleiman hoping he would realise how I feel.

"Don't tell me please you came here to beg me to place your husband in Divan and that's the reason you want to stay here," Suleiman said and each his word hurted me because he showed me least affection out of all the five sisters.

I didn't want to put Namik in Divan, but I realised now if I even wanted to it would be impossible. But when Hatice would be in the same thing, he would do everything. He even named Ibrahim Grand Vizier so he could marry Hatice.

"I didn't, I don't want to talk to you as a Sultan, but rather as a brother," I said not wanting even to show my emotions in front of him as he thought I also wanted to fake this whole sadness to get political profit which hurted a lot.

"I want to divorce Namik Pasha," I said and Suleiman was so shocked like he would never expect this to hear from me.

"Sister, how did that happen so suddenly? You didn't even want to visit us in Istanbul because you loved him so much and wanted to be with him in Bosnia for the whole time?" Suleiman asked me not being able to stop the shocking feeling he got when he heard my words.

"Because everything changed when we arrived in Istanbul and I can't stand being his wife anymore," I said and my tears wanted to start going down my face but my proudness couldn't allow me to do it. I could never cry in front of another person.

"You are in Istanbul for less than a month, you need to think about your decision more," Suleiman said and looked at another way. It was like a stranger is next to me not my brother.

"Do I need to think more when he wanted to punch me today?" I asked him as he quickly looked at me being shocked once again.

"What did he wanted?" Suleiman yelled.

"He wanted to punch me today when we fought, because he always complains to me and I shouldn't have any freedom. He was angry because Osman Agha gave me letter from the palace, and he wanted to kill him because of that. But he can spend time with nurse alone and forbids me from complaining, I also think he cheats on me with her," I said barely stopping myself from crying.

"Fahriye, he doesn't have any right to do any of that thing. He can't even raise his voice on you who are most precious Ottoman jewel, I won't allow him to act like this," Suleiman said and removed tears which went down my eyes.

"I sent my children to Hatice's palace because I am afraid what might happen there," I said and my children were the ones who I cared the most and I would never want them to grow next to such an animal of man who would punch his wife.

"As a Sultana you have all the rights for divorce, but I think I don't you allow to divorce right now," Suleiman said and at first I thought I heard wrong. I couldn't believe what he actually said.

"You don't allow me to divorce from a cheater and man who is ready to beat me?" I stand up as I couldn't even sit next to my brother who didn't even care about me.

"Calm down and sit here to let me explain to you," Suleiman said and took my hand to sit next to him, but I was so angry and furious.

"There is nothing you can explain to me about this," I said to him so angrily.

"We are doing investigation on Namik for three last years because many people have complained about him. Osman is investigating that and Namik will be punished when we find enough proofs for that," Suleiman said.

"You have been investigating him for criminals for last three years but also let your sister and her children live with him there? You didn't even care a bit about me or my safety," I said to him.

"Fahriye you were so stubborn, you didn't even answer our letters nor wanted to visit us because you enjoyed with Namik, now you will wait as you did before when you knew nothing until we find the proofs so you will divorce him and he will be punished the same day," Suleiman said but his words meant nothing to me anymore. Nothing.

"I am so disappointed in you. You will leave me there with him where I will have to be afraid if he would beat me or do anything to me because your proofs are more important than me," I said and stood up ready to leave. I knew I wouldn't listen to him anymore and I didn't even care about his words or orders.

He killed Beyhan's husband even though he didn't have enough proof and Beyhan loved him a lot and he never did anything bad to her. My husband beats me and cheats on me, also has criminal record in Bosnia but Suleiman can't do anything because he has "no proof".

"This is why you made me feel worthless for my whole life. If this would happen to Hatice, if Ibrahim would dare to do something like this you would punish him immediately. You killed Beyhan's husband without too much proofs, but now you can't let me divorce," I said so disappointed of my brother. I didn't even think of him as my brother of this moment.

"There needs to be justice, Fahriye," Suleiman yelled on me.

"What is the justice that I have to live with that man still?" I yelled on him back not caring if he would punish me.

"You don't need to kill him I don't care about him, I just want to divorce from him and not ever see him once again in my life Suleiman, why don't you let me do at least that," I said to him as my voice was breaking from tears and sadness, but also disappointment.

"Because Namik shouldn't know we are after him, this is a big plan that is operating for three years, if you divorce him, he will know about it and run away from us," Suleiman said as he came closer to me trying to manipulate over me thinking I would make something good for our state. But state meant nothing when I was afraid of that man.

"I don't care, if you don't let me divorce him, I will do it myself. I won't care if you find it suitable or not. I came here to get your blessing but instead I found out what I was fearing for my whole life was truth, you always loved me less than Hatice. My happiness was never important to you," I said and left his chambers without even bowing to him anymore.