"I have talked with Sultan about everything important, but he hadn't even leave me a clue if he might place me in Divan," Namik said as he was annoyed already at the morning when we wake up in our new Palace in Istanbul.

"You worry too much about your position, alone yourself you know that position in Divan is not so good, because you are always one step next to the death if you make a mistake," I said trying to make him stop focusing on political influence and he could rather focus on our family as he hadn't for a long time.

I had a feeling in the last time he is doing everything to get from me to make him better positioned and I swore to myself that I would never beg Suleiman to put him in that positioned.

"How could have Ibrahim been positioned better than I was? That is making me crazy for the whole time, I was the one who deserved..." Namik started to tell but I stopped him.

"Enough, Namik, enough! I am tired of your stories about Ibrahim. Why do you think that you are better than him?" I raised my voice over him and he stood up looking me in distrust.

"I am a soldier of Ottoman Empire since my birth, I fought so many times and was winning in those battles," Namik started to explain to me things he always used to, but this time more aggressively.

"You may be but Ibrahim is Suleiman's best friend since childhood and you can't change the relationship between them. Suleiman trusts Ibrahim like he trusts no one else and you can't get on his position so don't dream about it," I yelled on him and this time he looked so disappointedly at me.

"I thought my wife would support me at this, but you are here defending Ibrahim and telling me how he is better than I am," Namik yelled on me.

"I would support you it you would act normal not like this. Haven't you seen yourself in the last few months since Ibrahim was promoted? You act like crazy. You aren't anymore Namik I fell in love," I said to him so disappointed in his words and actions.

"Fahriye," he calmed down and came closer to me and putted his hands on my arms.

"Don't tell me now something you won't do. Only thing I want from you is that everything will be as before, not you being obsessed about some position. Time will give itself. Prove yourself in front of Suleiman and you will be rewarded for your actions. He will reward you only if he thinks you deserve it," I said to him this time also in calm tone as yelling wouldn't help us both who were really temperament and stubborn.

"I am sorry if I hadn't given you enough attention and love as you deserve, I will give my best to compensate it," Namik said and kissed my forehead.

Later that day Suleiman invited Namik to go hunting together with him and Ibrahim and I took this as a perfect opportunity to call Hurrem to get to my Palace as I wanted to meet her better.

Everyone was against that woman and I felt actually really sorry for her. Only thing she wanted was to love my brother and she was wrong because of it. They even called her a witch but what that woman has done is to be herself like she really is in front of my brother and that's why he actually fell in love with her.

"Sultanim," Hurrem said as she came to my new Palace and I welcomed her in Gardens. She came together with one of her maids Gulnihal about who I heard Ibrahim Pasha sent her to Sultan while Hurrem was giving birth. I knew Hurrem did bad things to her but at the end she stil stayed loyal to Hurrem.

Gulnihal came with Mehmed and Mihrimah who were both around 4 or 5 years old excatly like my daughter was.

"Hurrem, welcome," I said to her with a smile and showed her to sit next to me on the sofa that was placed under rhe pavillion of the gardens.

"Gulnihal, you can bring children inside to play with Kaya and take care of them together with Fehime," I said and she took the children inside while I would be with Hurrem.

"You are only person beside Sultan and my children who smiles when they see me," Hurrem said and my heart actually hurt at that moment. I knew she wasn't loved by our family and that is why I totally understand her.

"You will get used to it because I am nothing like my mother or my sisters," I said to her.

"I hope you will be able to meet me more to find out I am not really who they think I am. They call me a witch and magician, but only thing I did I was true myself and fell in love with Suleiman," Hurrem said and her eyes were full of love even at the mention of Suleiman. I could see from far away she was really in love with him because who he is not because of his position.

"My mother judges people and she doesn't like when it's not her way. You are not like Mahidevran who listens to her and does whatever she wants and I respect you because of that. But that was Valide will never love you like she never loved me because I stood on her way," I said and Hurrem looked at me weirdly like she didn't knew about this. Actually there was no way she could hear about this when I was absent for so many years.

"I thought you had good relationship with your mother," Hurrem said and her smile disappeared.

"I never had the good one, like mother should have with daughter. I was always overshadowed by Hatice's success and Hatice was always better than me," I said and looked away.

"And Hatice is acting to you the way Valide wants, because Hatice always did what was ordered to her," I said and knew she will completely get what I meant.

"I don't have any problem with Hatice Sultan, but Ibrahim Pasha is one who I don't like," Hurrem said like she wants to tell me something that she couldn't tell to anyone of our family for so long, but I still heard the fear in her voice of telling that.

"No one likes Ibrahim," I said and she looked me very surprised again.

"You don't also?" She asked me as she raised my eyebrows.

"I think he is better positioned than he should be and that is everything thankful to Hatice," I said as I didn't want to tell Hurrem what would I usually say to my husband. Hurrem didn't need to know how my husband hated Ibrahim and wanted to do whatever was needed against him.

"Your husband would be better as Grand Vizier than Ibrahim is," Hurrem said already making me know she will for sure try to get Namik on her side.

"I don't know, but I am happy how our life is in Bosnia. His father passed away last year and now he is the governor of Bosnia and that's enough for me," I said what I really thought, but that wasn't enough for Namik who actually dreamt about Namik's position.

At that moment the carriage stopped in my Gardens and I was surprised as it wasn't Namik for sure as he was in hunting and I haven't invited anyone besides Hurrem so I had no idea who this might be. The carriage opened and Mahidevran came out of it with her servant Gulsah who stood beside her.

"Sultanim, I didn't know you have guests," Mahidevran said as she bowed and smiled to me and then with the edge of her eyes looked at Hurrem and her smile immediately disappeared.

"Come Mahidevran join us," I said even though I didn't know what is she doing here right now.

"I will go now not to bother your conversations," Hurrem said as she started to get up but I stopped her.

"There is no reasons for you to go Hurrem. I called you to spend here day with me as both of our husbands are on the hunting today and you pregnant shouldn't be alone," I said and Hurrem smiled to me back while Mahidevran was even more nervous.

"Sultanim, Sehzade Mustafa wants to meet his cousins, he haven't seen them yet," Mahidevran said.

"Of course, he can come whenever he wants as Mihrimah and Mehmed now came with Hurrem," I said and smiled to Hurrem and turned around to look at the window if everything is fine with children inside.

"You could have call me also, if I would have known I would bring..." Mahidevran started telling very nervously already getting on my nerves as I didn't like her even since she came to Manisa, now even less after I heard how she beated and poisoned Hurrem.

"If I wished I would have call you Mahidevran you shouldn't make up excuses," I said and fake smiled to her which made Hurrem smile.

The whole day I spent mentally exhausted me from Mahidevran constantly playing the innocent one and trying to get closer to me even though I didn't want to spend time with her. I enjoyed spending time with Hurrem but as the night came both of them went to the Palace back to await for Suleiman.

I entered my chambers and saw my one and half year son Mahmud sleeping peacefully, while Kaya was playing with her doll.

"Mommy," she said happily when she saw me and placed her hands in the air as she knew I would come to her and take her in my hands. I hugged her and sat next to her in bed.

"Did you enjoy your time with your cousins?" I asked her as she was so happy for the whole time.

"I did, can they come again please?" she asked me happily and I kissed her forehead.

At that moment Gulcemal entered my chambers signaling me to come outside with her what meant that children shouldn't hear what we have to speak about.

"Sultanim, Osman Agha is in the Gardens and he said he must immediately talk with you," Gulcemal said.

"What it would be so important this late at night?" I asked her as I was so exhausted from today.

"I don't know but he said it's emergency," she said and I putted my veil on my head and went down to the Gardens to meet him.

He was turned with his back while he awaited for me because it was inappropriate for him to meet the female members of the family.

"I am listening, what happened?" I asked him and he turned around as he for sure didn't except for me to come down so quickly.

"Sultanim, I am sorry for bringing the bad news," he said looking anxiously down at the floor.

"What bad news? What happened?" I asked him as I was so scared only at the mention of the bad news.

"During the hunt Sultan Suleiman and your husband Namik Pasha were injured and they aren't fine at the moment,"