"With you I can finally be free, and finally be who I am," I said as I laid down in my bed while Osman's hands were wrapped around me. This was the first time I woke up in the morning with him and I knew from now on my life is going to get on the better way.

"I promise you that I will make you happy every day like you are now, I want this happiness to last forever until death separates us," Osman said as he kissed my lips gently.

"Mommy, will you have a baby with Osman Pasha? I really want to have a sibling," my little daughter Kaya said when Osman and I came downstairs in our new palace as we wanted to have breakfast together with my children.

"One day I hope you will get a sibling," I said as I patted her head and kissed her cheeks while Osman smiled at her.

Most important thing to me was that my children were glad with the situation with Osman and they accepted him. Especially Kaya who knew who her father was started loving Osman as her own father, and Mahmud was still little to even remember Namik and it was better this way.

"Sultanim, Sultan Suleiman has murdered Grand Vizier Ibrahim Pasha this night," Fehime said when she entered my chambers. Ibrahim has spent almost three months in dungeon and Suleiman could just now make a proper decision about this fate.

"He finally got what he deserved. Did Nigar Kalfa give a birth?" I asked Fehime who together with Bidar followed Nigar and made sure everything is alright with her.

"Yes, she gave birth to a girl three days ago," Fehime said and she was really sorry for Nigar, because her daughter couldn't even met her father but her father did bad things and deserved to be punished.

"Send her on one of my estates and give money to her and daughter. If Hatice finds that kid, I am afraid what she would be able to do after those news," I said to her as I knew Hatice will get crazy now and I didn't know if she will be able to survive this.

"Sultanim, good news came from Palace. Both Hurrem Sultan and Gulcemal gave birth today," Fehime said making me really excited. I barely could get up from the couch as I was pregnant with Osman's child and I didn't go around a lot since Osman was afraid for me. Suleiman named him as Grand Vizier and he had a lot of job so I rather stayed at our Palace.

"Hurrem Sultana gave birth to Sehzade Bayezid, and Gulcemal gave birth to a daughter Raziye Sultan," Fehime said making me happy for getting a nephew and a niece.

"Did Mustafa go to Sanjak?" I asked her since it was already few months since Mahidevran has been begging Suleiman to send Mustafa in Sanjak, because she couldn't accept the fact that he married Hurrem.

"Yes, he arrived to Manisa few days ago," Fehime said. Manisa meant Mustafa is going to be a heir to the throne.

"Kaya, come and meet your little brother," I said as my daughter Kaya entered my chambers after I gave birth. She came closer and looked at a baby which I was holding in my hands.

"What's his name?" Kaya asked me as she touched him gently and she was afraid not to hurt the baby.

"His name is Cemil," I said and smiled to her, but she didn't seem to be very happy, "what's wrong my love?"

"I am sad about grandma Ayse Hafsa, I wish she would meet my brother," Kaya said and bring in tears since my Valide died less than a month ago due to all the stress she suffered and few Hatice's attempts of suicide after Ibrahim's beheading.

"Your grandmother wouldn't want you to be sad now my love," I said to comfort her a bit since she was closed with her more than I was. I went to her funeral just because of the traditions and because of respect, but she acted horrible towards me for her whole life.

"Hurrem, congradulations on giving birth to another prince. I hope everything will be fine with Cihangir and that his pain will stop," I said as I sat behind Hurrem who was devastated after she has found out Cihangir's diagnosis.

"Cihangir is sick, and now Gulcemal gave birth to a prince. Nothing is going well in my life Sultanim," Hurrem said as he started crying so much and I was sorry, but only thing she should care now was Cihangir and not to be jealous of Gulcemal who gave birth to a son named Murad.

"Hurrem, you have four sons and you shouldn't even care about Gulcemal. Stop devastating yourself with those thoughts and put all of your attention to Cihangir," I said as I took her hand into mine.

"Kaya, Mahmud, Cemil, those are your new brothers and they are twins," I said after giving birth to a twins which was huge surprise to both me and Osman.

"What are their names?" Five years old Cemil asked me as he seemed to be happy to get more brothers now.

"This one is Ahmed, and this one is Yusuf," I said but Kaya wasn't happy once again which worried me again. She was im her teenage years and she was kinda problematic and I didn't want her to be like this.

"Why again brothers? Why couldn't I get a sister?" Kaya asked me as she wasn't really happy because they are boys, but still took the babies in her hands to kiss them.

"Sehzade Mehmed! He died! Everyone believes Mahidevran Sultan did it by force to remove him from Manisa and make sure the throne is here for Mustafa," Osman said to me after he arrived back from Manisa. Mehmed just had a child and Osman was working with Mehmed trying to teach him more things, when we found out about this.

Mehmed was if I could say favourite nephew and I loved him the most. My heart has broken when I found out this happened to him. He was so young and he didn't deserve this to happen because his future might have been bright.

He was the one that I saw on the Ottoman throne and always hoped it would be him. Everyone blamed Mahidevran for a reason and I also thought she has to do something related to this.

"Your sister Hatice Sultan commited a suicide after it has been exactly 10 years since Ibrahim Pasha was beheaded," Osman said to me while I was breastfeeding my youngest child, a daughter named Aslihan.

Hatice was my sister after all and she did this to save herself because she couldn't stand her new husband Suleiman married her for. She threatened in all those 10 last years she would kill herself.

I didn't even need to say a word but Osman sat next to me and hugged me to comfort me. Even though we have never been in well relationship she was my sister at the end. One by one I was losing all the family members and Osman was here for me for the whole time, he didn't want to make me sad and wanted to be with me in all those moments.

"Sultan has been angry on everyone in the last time. After he married Mihrimah to Rustem Pasha, he has been a lot under Rustem's influence," Osman said and sighed. He worried what could happen because we knew Rustem didn't love him very much.

"They are married for a long time, Osman. But I understand you, Mustafa is now even bigger threat to Hurrem and she has nothing to get from you so she uses Rustem and wants to place him on your position," I said and even though I was still in very good relations with Hurrem, her goal was obvious.

"I don't know what should I do, I have to care each day if I will make any bad step because Rustem will search for it and tell it to Sultan. And I'm not doing any mistake," Osman said and I just took his hands into mine and looked him in his eyes.

"If you would want it, I think it would be the best if you ask Sultan to retire yourself. I can't live this way while I am afraid if something will happen to you even if you are innocent, just because Rustem is plotting together with Hurrem. We can live our more peaceful life like that," I said and he thought exactly the same what I did, and that is what was most similiar to both of us because we thought the same way.

"Valide, I will really be able to marry Malkocoglu Bali Bey?" Kaya asked me as she was already in her twenties but she didn't marry yet because I didn't want to force her unless she wanted it.

"If you want it, you can do it my love," I said and smiled to her even though I wasn't really happy about this. I never liked Malkocoglu and Suleiman even wanted to marry me from him, because it's huge age gap between him and Kaya I didn't want to approve it, but what mattered the most was her happiness.

"I remember when I wanted this in childhood, and I want to thank you mother for making this able to happen one day," Kaya said kissing my hand as she couldn't hide her happiness.

"Be aware of Mihrimah, she will be jealous on you," I said and smiled because everyone knew how Mihrimah was crazy for Malkocoglu her whole life, but at the end married Rustem because Hurrem forced her.

Even Sahuban wanted to marry her son Esmahan to Malkocoglu, which he didn't accept. I was afraid if he wouldn't want to marry Kaya, but he fully agreed with that and my heart was on its place then.

"Sultan beheaded Mustafa three days ago on a campagin. They say Sehzade Cihangir died few hours after him because of sadness," Osman said and my heart broke on million pieces.

"How could he kill his own son?" I asked as I was shocked. I never expected this to happen and I knew something very serious must have been when he decided to do that, but whatever it was, nothing was enough reason to kill his own son.

"Sultan was very angry on Mustafa because he thought he is making a revolt against him and has his own janissaries. Now only heirs to the throne are Sehzades Selim, Bayezid and Gulcemal's son Murad," Osman said taking me into a hug because this was too much for me already and I didn't know if my heart would survive more bad news.

"We have to take care of Murad, because now the real battle for the throne will start, and I know Hurrem is ready to do much things in a grief," I said as I wanted to save my best friend's son.

"Sehzade Murad died after he fell down the stairs and crushed his head so heavily," Osman said as just a month has passed since Mustafa and Cihangir died and I knew this isn't all of sudden.

"I am afraid Hurrem has something to do with it, I can't blame her just like that, but I am afraid. If not her, then her sons," I said as I was nervously walking around my chambers while Osman followed me trying to comfort me but nothing could help now.

"We should side with Prince Bayezid now, Fahriye. If Selim ascends the throne that will be chaos for all of us. He is an alcoholic," Osman said to me even though he knew I didn't want to side between my nephews, but he was right.

"I don't think I could survive more Fahriye. But at least I am dying in your hands having you next to my side," Osman said as he laid down on my lap since he was so weak. In the last two months he has been very weak and doctors diagnosed him liver problems and said he won't survive any more.

"I won't be able to continue without you, Osman. I want to stay forever with you, I can't lose you just like that," I said as my tears were dropping even on his face as I couldn't help myself. I loved this man more than anything in this world.

"Those 25 years I have spent married to you, were the most beautiful years of my life. If I would have a chance to live once again, even then I would spend my whole life with you," Osman said squeezing my hand.

"I can't stay without you, I can't even breath without you Osman," I said not being able to stop crying. With his right hand he removed tears from my eyes as he wanted to see me happy at least at his last moments.

"I remember the first time when I met you my love. I never had idea you would mean so much to me. But I loved you and I still love you more than my own life and I want you to stay strong for the children," Osman said as his squeeze suddenly became weaker, and his eyes closed.

"OSMAN"