"Hurrem, how have you been feeling for the last time? How is the child?" I asked Hurrem after a month has passed since Namik Pasha's beheading. Hurrem was pregnant once again and I had no idea how this woman would get pregnant so quickly one baby after another. But I knew I would also love to have big family if I would be with a man I love.

Namik always said to me two children is enough and I never knew why, and just later I found out it is because he has much more children everywhere around whom he hides from me.

"The Prince is very well, and I am too. I can't be sad while I am pregnant," Hurrem said and couldn't hide her smile. She was once again sure she would give a birth to a son but for real who knew when she already had two.

"Haven't you seen something weird about Nigar Kalfa?" I asked Hurrem as I still couldn't forget her. I know she is married to Nasuh Effendi but she still continued to work both for Topkapi and in Hatice's palace and if she was pregnant I didn't know why would she work.

"She said she gained her weight, but I don't trust her," Hurrem said and I knew I will have to find what it is about it. If Nigar was pregnant which I thought she was, why would she still be in the Palace. And there haven't been enough months since she married Nasuh Effendi so this whole story was weird to me.

"Sultanas, I have a news for you," Sumbul said as she entered Hurrem's chambers and he didn't seem like he is bringing the good news. I was afraid if something has happened to Osman because those last month I wasn't able to see him, but he was always in my heart. He was the only reason I came to Topkapi today and my only wish was to see him.

"Gulcemal Hatun, Sultan's favourite is pregnant," Sumbul said and Hurrem looked at him shocked as she couldn't believe this, neither could I. It meant Suleiman has spent much more nights with Gulcemal which none of us knew about especially not Hurrem, since Gulcemal was in his Harem for three months already.

Hurrem just looked angrily on Sumbul who left her chambers quickly and she couldn't hide the sadness in her eyes.

"He was more times with her and he lied to me he has so many state jobs. He lied to me for the whole time while I took care of our children," Hurrem said as she just started crying and she couldn't help herself. I knew it was hard for her especially since Suleiman loved her a lot. I couldn't feel the same sadness when I knew Aylin was pregnant because I didn't love Namik anymore when I found out that.

"Hurrem you are pregnant and you shouldn't cry about it. I know it's hard for you because she is also pregnant, but you are mother of two princes and sultana and you shouldn't worry about it. Also soon you will get another child. It doesn't mean anything to you when you are mother with highest number of sons and you are only one in Suleiman's heart," I said and took her hands into mines because I knew she was really sad and I had to comfort her. I also couldn't believe Gulcemal was so often with Sultan.

"But I don't need one more Mahidevran who will be always against me. I can't lose Suleiman because of her," Hurrem said as she couldn't still stop crying and I knew there was no way to comfort her enough now.

"But you are stronger than all of them, Mahidevran isn't even important to you anymore and while you are pregnant you won't worry about them but take care of the baby because that is all that is important to you," I said to her before I had to leave her. I knew Malkocoglu would count me exact time which I spent here and he annoyed me so much.

I didn't like how Suleiman ordered him to follow me everywhere. I already had a fight with Suleiman about the fact of Malkocoglu reading my letter so he dismissed that order which was only good thing he has done in the last time.

While I was here only thing I wished to do was to see Osman, and I knew exactly how I would do it. I went in harem to search for Gulcemal who should in that moment visit Suleiman and tell him the happy news so he wouldn't take care where Osman is.

"Sultanim, I am afraid if Hurrem will do anything bad to me since I am pregnant, no one can save me from her," Gulcemal said to me while we were walking towards Suleiman's chambers. She was really worried about herself and the life of her baby and I knew why she was that's why I had to keep Hurrem far away from her. No matter I was friend with Hurrem, Gulcemal was with me for almost my whole life and without her I couldn't do anything and I wouldn't allow anyone to hurt her.

"You shouldn't be afraid, Hurrem won't focus on you so much while she is pregnant," I said to her when we came in front of Suleiman's chambers. She went inside, and I went into Osman's chambers while no one was around.

I opened the doors and I had luck none of the guards was there to see me entering because that way I would write his death sentence.

"Osman," I said when I saw him and I couldn't help myself not to run and hug him and not caring anymore if Suleiman or Valide will see me here, because if I couldn't be with him I wouldn't want to be with anyone else.

"Sultanim," Osman said as he didn't want to take me out of hug and both of us knew this was enough for Suleiman to think we are lovers and cheaters, but I didn't care anymore as I didn't look at Suleiman as my own brother anymore.

"I know I am risking now, but I came to Topkapi only to see you, I couldn't stand it anymore," I said to him as I couldn't stop looking him in the eyes and I knew this is the man with who I would love to spend the rest of my life.

"I would have visited you Sultanim but Malkocoglu is always somewhere around, I heard what duty Sultan gave to him so I was afraid to write any more letters because I don't want to put you in the trouble," Osman said to me.

"Osman I don't want to live in world where we will be separated from each other, I don't care anymore about Suleiman's orders if I could I would go far away with you not caring about the consequences," I said as I took his hands into mines and I couldn't stand distance with him Suleiman wanted us to have.

I was ready to risk even my life now just to be happy with a person I love and I wouldn't care if Suleiman would kill me after because living without him is killing me everyday.

"I am ready to do at any moment and I wouldn't care if Sultan would kill me just because I love you," Osman said and at that moment he placed his hand on my cheeks and kissed me passionately for the first time.

I couldn't get to myself and realise this is reality not the dream and I was kissing the man I love the most and I was ready to go anywhere with him and leave everyone behind.

At that moment we heard the door opening which destroyed our first moment of romantic and true love which we weren't supposed to, but we couldn't handle anymore. At that moment Prince Mustafa came inside and I knew this would make trouble for all of us.

"Fahriye Sultan, I didn't know you were here," Mustafa said and I showed him to talk more quiet because Suleiman was in the chambers next to Osman's and if he would hear for it then the disaster would happen.

"Mustafa, no one should know I was here. Not even your mother, no one, because both of us will stay without a head," I said seriously to Mustafa who was already a teenager and I hoped he would maybe understand me and keep it as a secret.

"Don't worry aunt, I won't tell anyone. You should leave with me now until no one sees you, and Osman Pasha will you later meet me in the Gardens as you promised me to teach me better with sword," Mustafa said and he was totally chill about this and I hoped it would stay like this because I couldn't let Suleiman know about what happened.

"Of course, my Prince," Osman said as he was still shocked how Mustafa came inside and saw us and we both were worried what if this will be the last time we saw each other.

I quietly left with Mustafa and this was even better way of leaving because no one could blame me for being around the palace with my nephew.

"Mustafa, I will owe it to you till the rest of my life, just no one, no one, should know about this," I said to him when we left the Palace and I was next to my carriage making sure I am far away for Malkocoglu so he couldn't hear this.

"Only thing I want from you Sultana is to not behave bad towards my mother as my father does, that will make me happy enough. And your secret will be safe with me forever," Mustafa said and I patted his shoulder and smiled to him before I entered the carriage.

"Sultanim, what happened?" Fehime asked me when I came inside my Palace and first thing I made sure is that neither Kaya or Mahmud or even maybe Malkocoglu aren't here to listen to me.

"Mustafa saw me when Osman kissed me," I said and Fehime was shocked. I still couldn't get over the kiss which was the most beautiful moment in my life and I could die peacefully after I saw Osman at least once again in my life and kissed him.

"If he tells it to Mahidevran Sultan, it will be disaster," Fehime said as she was very afraid for me. I was also and I knew Mahidevran would tell it to Suleiman immediately and we would get killed.

"I hope he will keep it as a secret as he promised," I said and went to sleep as it was already late and I was for the whole day in the Palace.

"Sultanim, a fire!" Suddenly in the night I was woken up by screams of Fehime. I got up and saw only so much smoke around me and through the window I could see the whole palace is burning.

I couldn't help myself but not to panic so the first thing I did was to go and take care of Kaya and Mahmud and take them out of their chambers. There was so much smoke in their chambers that I could barely breathe and took them both in my arms. Fehime came and took them into her arms.

"Sultanim, let's go outside we will burn here," Fehime said as she couldn't stop panicking. Everything was burning and it was barely able to breath.

"You take the children out I have to take something from my chambers before everything burns," I said to her as I barely could breath anymore.

Anything could burn but I couldn't let myself leave Palace without the necklace Osman gifted me with. I never knew what tommorrow will bring us and it was only thing I had from him and I wanted it to be with me.

I was coughing for the whole time and everything became dizzy as I hadn't enough air anymore. I finally found the necklace and wanted to go downstairs, but everything became black in front of my eyes until I collapsed.

"Malkocoglu, save the Sultana do something she must get out!" Fehime yelled on Malkocoglu who was standing in front of the Palace. He immediately entered the Palace which was full burning and someone has done this on purpose.

Malkocoglu looked at whole first level and couldn't find her anymore. He barely had any breath anymore as he went upstairs knowing he must risk his life to find her. Malkocoglu saw Fahriye laying on the stairs without conscious.

He took her in his hands in bridal style and saw the necklace laying next to her which he also took because he knew when Fahriye went for it it had huge meaningful to her.

Malkocoglu barely could breathe but successfully took Fahriye outside of the Palace.