Two weeks have passed since Hurrem gave birth. In meanwhile, actually just few days after her my sister Hatice also gave birth to twins, Osman and Huricihan. I was happy for her because she lived so much in fear and pain after losing a child. But none of those events surprised me so much like how Gulcemal slept with Suleiman. She was very afraid of Hurrem, but then Suleiman asked me for permission to take her in Harem. I had to accept it because no matter what she served me, at the end we all had to serve him. I didn't have any opportunity to see Hurrem, but I knew relations after this won't be good anymore since she will for sure think I am the one who sent her to Suleiman.

It was time for Beyhan to arrive since she wanted to visit Hatice after getting children, but she would stay in my palace. Beyhan wasn't in good relationship with Suleiman after he killed her husband and I knew Beyhan would be the only one to understand me.

Ever since I lived in Bosnia, Beyhan visited me every few months because we lived closer. She was my favourite sister together with Sahuban who lived far away and I couldn't see her often, but we still always exchanged letters.

I was in gardens which were my favourite places out my whole Palace because only here I would never meet Namik. He loved to close himself in his chambers to work or to go in Topkapi, so I preferred to stay here to watch him as least as possible.

"Sultanim, you look so beautiful today," Osman said as he walked closer to me. Even though he was appointed as vizier Suleiman still wanted him to be around here and take care as he obviously didn't trust Namik. I blushed on his words as I wasn't used on romantic, especially not with Namik who was Osman's total opposite.

"You want to say I'm not beautiful always?" I asked him out of a joke as I finally felt I can talk with someone and that person could understand me totally.

"You are beautiful every day, but today there is something special," Osman said and looked at my neck where I wore the necklace he has gifted me, "but I heard your little Sultana Kaya already told that to her grandmother," Osman continued and smiled.

"Valide doesn't want to speak with me because of that, but it doesn't matter to me. Our conversation always consisted of her critics to me and her love towards Hatice," I said.

"Sultana, I wish I could be here to tell the good news, but unfortunately all the news I have are bad," Osman said and my smile from face disappeared immediately.

"What is it?" I asked as my first thought was if something happened to Beyhan and I hoped it wasn't anything like that.

"I got this letter," Osman said and passed me little piece of paper.

I know about your investigation about me, but you will never find the proof. If you dare to complain to Sultan about me, I swear to you Fahriye Sultana won't be able to wake up next month.

The letter just fell down on the floor after reading it because my mind couldn't accept that Namik was ready to kill me just to not lose his title. I could not believe that the man I had been married to for five years and with whom I had two children would have taken my life just to stop his fall and deprivation of the title. I suffered a lot of things, I kept silent about how he cheated on me and how he hit me. I only admitted it to Suleiman, who did not find it a sufficient reason for divorce. I knew I would not tolerate this anymore, I knew I did not want to keep the children close to him, because if he was willing to want to kill me who knows if he would want to and harm them tomorrow.

"Sultana, what do you want me to do? I wanted to go to the Sultan immediately, but without your confirmation I don't want to do anything," Osman said worriedly, but to me everything was straight at the moment. 

"Living life with a bully who threatens to kill me, and my brother will do nothing about it. I don't care, because I don't care if Namik kills me or my fear of  him daily and dying next to him every day, "I told him.

"I will never let him harm you. Never. If you want to go away from them with me now. I don't care if my titles are taken away from me by the Sultan, if I have those titles and still watch the only woman I love in this world being sad. I'm ready to leave everything and run away with you and save you from this bully," Osman said and took my hands in his.

"I do not want you to risk your life for me, when there is no hope or happiness for me. I just want us go to Suleiman and show him this, I will go with you. If he does not allow me a divorce now, then he will see how he destroyed his sister's life," I said and looked him in the eyes not knowing if this was the last time I would see him. At the same time I was afraid of my fate and what was going to happen, but at the same time my pride was there which no longer allowed me to suffer Suleiman’s orders.

Osman and I sat in the carriage that was supposed to take us to Topkapi. I was both scared and furious for the whole time because I won't allow anymore Suleiman to decide about my life and I didn't want to listen to his orders anymore.

We were right in front of Suleiman's chambers when Namik was leaving them and when he saw Osman being next to me he couldn't believe what he saw in front of his eyes.

"Osman Pasha, I told you once but obviously I have to repeat, you won't come closer to my wife anymore," Namik said as he started to grab Osman's arm but I raised my hand as a signal for him to shut up because he might be a vizier but I still have Ottoman blood inside my veins.

"Then who would say to me something happened to Beyhan? You who are in the Palace here not caring? Remove from our way because this is urgent," I said and I couldn't believe myself what a lie I made just in the situation for him not to think Osman said to me about the letter.

"Fahriye! What happened to Beyhan?" Suleiman yelled when Osman and I entered his chambers and I saw he is really afraid and I knew Namik stands in front of the doors, so the first thing I did was to open the pipe for water to blow so he could hear nothing.

"Nothing happened to Beyhan but that idiot outside is listening!" I said back to Suleiman who was confused by my behaviour.

"The man you call idiot is your husband," Suleiman harshly said to me and I felt like he actually forgot everything that happened there.

"He won't be anymore," I said to him and Osman gave him a piece of paper of letter what Namik has sent to him. Suleiman angrily read it. He became so furious while reading it and I hoped this time he would understand what consequences could be from Namik's behaviour.

"Osman, you will go now and if Namik asks you you are going to find Beyhan. Everything is fine with her because Malkocoglu Bali Bey is brining her here and I trust him. You will go and find any proof so we will get rid of him as sooner as possible because my sister shouldn't be more time with him," Suleiman ordered to Osman who immediately done what he has been ordered to. I hoped Suleiman actually now was aware of what the situation was like.

"I don't want to spend even a day more with him because I am afraid, what if he kills me when I sleep?" I asked Suleiman hoping this time he would allow me to do this on my way.

"Beyhan will be with you there and he won't do anything while she is there. Osman is always around there as I ordered him now I will also appoint Malkocoglu and you have nothing to be afraid of because he can't do anything to you now," Suleiman said.

"If he would kill his wife just to get the title he wants and not to be demoted, what would Beyhan, Malkocoglu and Osman who he hates mean to him?" I asked Suleiman as he repeated million times how I have nothing to be afraid of, but I had to.

"Just one more week Fahriye, and I will behead Namik in front of everyone," Suleiman said but I didn't know if his plan would go like he thought it will.

"Promise to me, whatever happens, if you find or you don't find proofs, you will let me divorce Namik in a week?" I said to him seriously and maybe he understood now how serious I was even the first time he didn't care for.

"I promise," he said even though I know it won't be like that, but I wanted him at least to guarantee me.

While I was already in the Palace I wanted to meet Hurrem who obviously was angry on me because of Gulcemal which was nothing of my fault, but I was a woman same way she was and I would think the same way if that happened to me.

"Hurrem," I said as I entered her chambers and she bowed to me not expecting me to come and visit her.

"Sultanim, I didn't expect you would come," she said as I sat next to her and she seemed weird for the whole time.

"I came here because I don't want you to think I have sent Gulcemal here. I would never want to mix into your relationship with Suleiman because myself alone I couldn't share man with any other woman," I said as I touched her hand and she looked at me. No one of Sultanas before me was like that to Hurrem because they actually sent the maids to get rid of Hurrem, but I wouldn't do it.

"I know you didn't Sultana, but I am still hurt that Suleiman did this to me on the night I gave birth to his son. He did this to me already when I gave birth to Mehmed, now again," Hurrem said trying to stop herself from crying in front of me, but the tears were just going down her face.

"But what those women mean when he has in his heart only you Hurrem? They were all invited only once and never again, but you are constantly going there. And remember you are mother of two princes and one sultana and you shouldn't get upset because of the random girls," I said to comfort her.

"At least my daughter Mihrimah will have luck like you do, Sultana. Her husband will never be able to have another women, you are lucky," Hurrem said and I wish if she knew what was my relationship with Namik like, she would never wish this for Mihrimah or anyone else.