"My beautiful wife I am so proud of you being able to make sure Sultan places me in Divan. I will never be able to thank you enough for that, you really played on him that you want be close to your family," Namik said when he arrived back in palace being so happy like I have never seen him before.

He wasn't ever this happy when we got our first or second child how much he was when he got promoted into Divan and this made it so much obvious to me all the politics meant to him more than our family. Luckily I found it out myself already when we arrived in Istanbul.

"You get now what you wanted, don't involve me anymore in politics, I did what I had to," I said as I sat on the another couch in our living room to be as far as possible of him. It was better if he thought that I begged Suleiman for this than to know what was the truth I said to him.

"But that idiot Osman got promoted into Pasha as 4th vizier, it's not enough that I have to look at him here now I will also have in Divan. I can't stand that man," Namik said looking at me. He was so pissed about Osman and couldn't stand even to hear his name or see him.

"You should be grateful Osman didn't said a word to Suleiman how you punched me because you would get beheaded, Namik. You won't get into any fights with him because with one his or my word you will be destroyed," I said and Namik's face expression quickly changed. I could not to not mention that as I knew when Namik hates someone he could be able to hurt them, and Osman was only person I didn't want to be hurted.

"Didn't we forget about that topic?" Namik asked me refraining from not to raise his voice on me once again. He knew this all depends on me if I will stay silent or tell everything.

"That topic will never be forgotten," I said and looked at another side. As much as he tried to get closer to me in the last time I would never allow him to do it. He will never again be close to me nor will I want to sleep in bed next to him. Same way Valide, Hatice and Suleiman were like strangers to me, same way he was too.

"Anyways, Hurrem Sultana offered me alliance. She also wants to get rid of Ibrahim and she hopes to see me one day as a Grand Vizier so I will collaborate with her," Namik said and I didn't care who would he ally with, but I just knew he will never have the opportunity to become Grand Vizier.

"Ally with whoever you want, but none of you can get rid of Ibrahim. He is Sultan's best friend and you can't make him fail in his eyes so easily," I said.

"I invited Sultan tonight at dinner in our Palace, you should tell the maids to start preparing everything," Namik said and got up without telling any word anymore.

I didn't want Suleiman or anyone from my family to go to dinner at our place tonight because I was so tired of everyone faking good relations with everyone else. I couldn't stand my mother, Suleiman and Hatice and I knew they would be here tonight at least one of them and I really didn't want it.

The night has arrived very son and Gulcemal and Fehime gave their all together with other maids to prepare good dinner. I wasn't really in the mood but Namik wanted us to fake our happiness in front of others. I thought only Suleiman and Valide would arrive but I was shocked to see him bringing both Mahidevran and Hurrem. Hurrem was in her final month of pregnancy and it was only question of the time when will she give a birth, and Mahidevran surprised me even more how she came when Hurren was coming too.

"Hunkarim, Valide," I said as Namik and I bowed to both of them and I faked my smile even though I didn't want to see any of them now.

"Hunkarim, it's my pleasure to guest you in our Palace," Namik said bowing to him and then later complimenting my Valide which liked him though, but that was because she had no idea about anything that was happening.

Suleiman was acting really weird for the whole time and he was measuring Namik and his behaviour for the whole time. While Namik was chatting with my mother as he tried to make her love her son-in-law more, I decided I should go and talk with Mahidevran and Hurrem.

We were sitting at the table and everyone acted normal for the whole time, but obviously I was the only one who didn't feel comfortable in this ambient. On one side I had Suleiman who knew my husband is traitor and still didn't want me to divorce him. Next to him was my Valide who loved Namik and would never let me divorce him, because she preferred him over me who was her own daughter. Also, there was Mahidevran who I never liked nor she did me, who knew my husband cheats on me and wanted to threat me. And at the end there was Hurrem who was actually my friend but she made an alliance with my husband and I knew after divorce I couldn't count even on her anymore as a friend.

"Our Hatice couldn't come because she felt like she may give birth every moment, I pray for her always," Valide said breaking the silence after we ate our food.

"God will bless us as Hatice will give birth, and Hurrem will also very soon," Suleiman said and smiled at Hurrem who still ate the cake I ordered to prepare, because I knew when I was pregnant with Mahmud I would only want sweets and cakes.

"Fahriye Sultan, you are still young, you should also have one more child," Mahidevran said to me out of sudden. Thinking about even having one more time relationship with Namik would be not possible because I never ever want to be close to him, and not to have a children with him anymore. If I would have to have more children, then I would with a man who would love me and respect me.

"If God allows, Sultanim," Namik said looking at me and smiling faking in front of everyone our good relationship, but I saw Suleiman understands how I feel right now and still he didn't want to allow me to divorce.

"Ahh!" Hurrem yelled all of sudden as she started getting pain from giving birth. Suleiman took her into his arms and immediately placed her on bed in one of the chambers.

"Call the doctor!" I yelled.

"Aylin is here, luckily," Namik said and I looked him shocked and surprised as I couldn't believe even if Sultan was here he had to have his lover somewhere around. My Valide looked at me being confused what she should do here, but as everyone was excited about Hurrem giving birth no one cared for the mention of nurse Aylin.

We were all standing nervously in front of the chambers where Hurrem was giving birth. Mahidevran was the most nervous one because she know if Hurrem gives birth to one more son she will have two sons, while Mahidevran has just one.

"Hunkarim, congradulations! Hurrem Sultana gave birth to a healthy prince!" Nurse Aylin said as she came outside of the chambers and everyone except for Namik, who wasn't allowed to, entered Hurrem's chambers.

Mahidevran stood next to me as she wanted to be behind not to show everyone how angry and disappointed she was when Hurrem gave birth to one more son.

"Your name will be Selim," Suleiman repeated three times in each ear of the newborn baby which resembled on his mother a lot. Suleiman named him after our late father who I missed so much. I knew nothing of this would happen if he would be still alive and he wouldn't allow me to live with a traitor who cheats on me and punched me.

"Valide, you can all stay here tonight as it may be risky to travel now to the Palace," I said when we left Hurrem's chambers to leave her alone with a child. Valide just nodded me without any kind of smile and she still couldn't forget about Osman and hated me about that.

I went to sleep to separate chambers from Namik even though I knew everyone will know about it, I couldn't allow myself to share bed with that man.

Something woke me up in the middle of the night as I couldn't sleep anymore. Bad dreams were coming to my head where Namik would search for me and threatening me of taking the children. I couldn't lay peacefully. I knew Gulcemal and Fehime were sleeping so I had to get up to get myself a glass of water.

While I was walking I passed next to Suleiman's chambers and I saw Gulcemal going outside covered just in silk plate.

"Sultanim," she said as she seemed to be embarrassed in front of me. I had nothing to tell her but I couldn't believe Suleiman would cheat on Hurrem the night she gave birth.

"Please don't tell Hurrem Sultana, she will kill me," Gulcemal said as she was so afraid of Hurrem so I had to make sure she doesn't have to be afraid, but I still couldn't realise how Suleiman did this to her when he claimed to love her so much.