she's all out of words
thanks for being there
even though it hurts
she swallows it all up
like glass shards
going through her throat
then straight
to her heart.

✉✉✉

Hey, it's been years. I've been silently waiting. Days don't just go by without me thinking about how we could have been. You were really sweet with me and maybe, that's why I never lost hope until now. It hurts to think that I have been waiting for nothing but the wind. It hurts to think that after all those years, I'd just be stuck here in this crippling dust. And of course, nothing really occurred to me but the thoughts of having to let go of whatever it was.

We were friends. We were comrades. We were close. We were weird. We were everything anyone could have ever wished for but what happened? You stopped talking to me. You went away. You distanced yourself from me and it hurts. You stopped until 'we' just became a word to describe what you and I were in the past.

You were amazing, smart, handsome and talented. You were those kind of guys that aren't scared of anything. You were well kept and you can absolutely do anything. You were the epitome of a perfect guy. One day, I realized that I have fallen for you and somehow I knew that it wasn't supposed to be.

And this small portion of this book won't be able to tell the tales we once had but I hope and I hope dearly that someday, when I mention it to you; I can finally find the words to say "I loved you." and this time, I'll mean it.

But for now, I can just say I gave up on waiting for you. I gave up on waiting for the day you'll tell me you miss me. I gave up on you. But I'll never forget how you made me feel. Thank you for that Em.

Always remember, I'll be here for you.
But this time, just a friend.