"Just... don't make me hate you"

Her voice kept echoing in his mind throughout the day. Nobody likes the thought of someone hating them.

Why did the sight of her always trigger him?

He no longer understood what he was doing. The words, he spat out to her. Weren't true. Siddharth was the one who didn't deserve her. Then why did he not open his mouth to tell her the truth about her stupid boyfriend? And how naive was she to not suspect him yet?

Her trust in Siddharth and the attention she directed towards him, made Karthik hate her more. How can a person as stupid as she exists?

And with the few times, he talked to her, scratch that fought with her. He understood she wasn't a fool and could make up valid points in an argument. Then why was she so blindly in love with his cheating friend? Her attention and vulnerable eyes were always trying to encounter Siddharth. She didn't even spare a glance to him, as if he was a speck of dirt in her eyes.

He shouldn't give this much shit about stranger's behaviour. Yeah, maybe she was right.

He hated her. Her actions infuriated him and her naivety was entertainment for him. He wanted to follow her to see how far this stupid love will survive. He wanted to be there when Siddharth told her that he didn't love her, she was just time pass for him. Karthik wanted to witness her breakdown in front of him so he could laugh at her face. Mock her feelings and make her cry. Cruel indeed. He wanted her to hate him as he hated her.

***

Rosie's p.o.v:

I had to postpone my plan of rescuing my brother. The first reason was I had no plan and the second was, I was scared of confronting my brother after this many years. He must despise me. Such a selfish elder sister, who left her sick brother with snakes. Just because of her pride.

What if he rejected me? What if he failed to recognise me?

The questions made my anxiousness rise as I bit my nails thinking about the what-ifs. And if he agreed to come, where would I take him?

I needed a little more planning for this, with this I sneaked into my dorm and dozed off as soon as I hit the bed.

***

We were currently in our music class, I always enjoyed learning music. But in the past, I had changed my majors so I could be in the same class as Siddharth. I chose my love, over my passion. Maybe he was right. Siddharth didn't deserve a possessive lover like me who stalked him everywhere. I never gave him space to breathe, he must be suffocated by my clinginess and took interest in Pari. I destroyed many lives with my negative energy. I was never supposed to exist, my presence was a thorn for everyone around me. I was a toxic person.

"The girl cried out to the moon and stars,
To embrace her with their light and heal her scars,
She was truly alone,
In the midnight sat on a cold stone,
Her voice quivered as she sang in a sad tone,
Her voice filled with pain,
She begged to the stars to not make her an orphan again,
In the morning the stone was covered with a stain..."

We were preparing a song for our annual function. These were the lyrics composed so far, the song was to be sung in a low baritone. My voice lacked softness, it was a little heavy and rock type. Classical wasn't my cup of tea.

They insisted and I tried to sing it but halfway through it my throat croaked and my voice came out harsher than I intended to. I sighed in frustration and shook my head returning the sheet of paper to our group leader.

"So..?"  I asked her looking at her face edged with dark circles. The poor girl had stayed awake the whole night to compose the lyrics but my voice didn't suit the beautiful lyrics. There were two choices for her, change the song or change the singer aka me. I didn't mind being replaced as a solo was more like my thing. I never worked well with a group, listening to other's idea agitated me and I wasn't the type to compensate for my plans.

"Should we take Pari in our group?" Someone voiced their thought. Since Pari arrived later our professor signed her up for solo as the groups were full but we could replace our group members if it was necessary.

"Great idea" Others agreed and I clenched my fingers schooling my expression into a smile as they turned to me with an apologetic smile.

"I prefer solo anyway," I said to them standing up from my seat and going to the professor to retire my name from the group as our group head Avni went towards Pari.

"Are you signing up for solo?" He asked me. I nodded my head.

"Are you sure you can handle the entire stage and enrapture the audience by yourself?" He questioned, there was hesitation present in his tone. He didn't want me to mess up the function as solos performed before the groups. If I messed the whole sequence of the show will be destroyed.

"Can you play the guitar?" He asked me.

"No, but I can play the violin" I answered. His doubt turned to glare as his eyes went to the only violin present in this class.

"Then perform a solo right now," He told me, I nodded my head a little nervous as it has been a long time since I played the violin. Taking a deep breath I took the mic and attached one near my throat and the other near the violin.

My hands started playing a familiar tune as I closed my voice concentrating on playing the violin. The sound was smooth and better than I expected as the classroom silenced. I was unsure of my voice but I took the chance.

I am on cloud nine,
Euphoria yeah yeah baby,
I have trouble breathing,
Help me! Oh, help me, please!

Taking a deep breath I went on a high chord playing the violin in a high speed testing my skills. At this note the violin always made a screeching sound but I covered it with my voice. Singing in a high pitch I opened my eyes and my eyes looked around the classroom at my group members.

I am breathless... for you,

I changed my tone to almost no sound as I said the last word, taking a deep breath I played the violin on the softest note. Humming in the microphone with the music as the violin got lower and my voice overtook the violins soft music, when someone started playing the piano. My eyes met the eyes of the student who was playing the piano. Karthik had a guilty look in his eyes as he glanced at the teacher standing near him encouraging him to take over my notes. But his hesitant eyes played the piano on the softest note, I nodded at him and then he went on high pitch as I matched  this tone with my violin and then there was silence as I started singing.

We met and I fell for you,
I smiled you snatched it away,
I knew you were not gonna stay for long,
But I held onto you strong,
I didn't wanted to lose you,
As my soul belonged more to you than anyone else,
I was yours...
For eternity,
But you were never mine,
There was no love in your eyes for me,
But I let it be,
As I loved you more than I could love myself,
Then you walked away,
I begged you to stay,
I begged you to love me in your own way,

My voice was accompanied by light music and then I started playing the violin as he went on a very high note. His music covering the screech from my violin occasionally.

But you left me alone,
My heart turned into a stone,
As I smiled behind my tears,
The pain in my eyes invisible,
As I was never visible"

The song ended as students applauded. The teacher smiled at me and gave me the form as I was filling the form a paper landed on the table.

"I am sorry:( "

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So this is chapter 9. I hope you all love it. I am trying to improve my writing style and will surely edit both the books in the future.

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