Shield me from the world,
Teach me how to climb on my own,
Teach me how to be loved,
Teach me the difference between love and hate,

I grew unattached again,
New life brings new pain,
And I stood there again,
Like an unwanted stain.

-Eyes on her lipstick

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Time is a funny thing, isn't it? The atrocities you face, the crimes you committed and the pain you endure fade with it. Just the mocking feeling of it remains. Scars of time never fade away. But what if you were sent back in time? Before it all began. Before you fell for his enchanting eyes. Before he broke your heart and ultimately destroyed you. It will be a miracle wouldn't it be?

The peace you craved is finally yours. But that didn't move me at all. It was just compensation. And the fact that annoyed me to no end was that this time I had to fulfil a task. I had to make someone fall for me. That was an impossible task. As I have lost my whole lifetime for an unrequited love. One-sided love. And the goddess was mocking me by giving me the task of making someone fall for me. And that someone was none other than the person I loathed the most. Our hate was mutual. Then why did the goddess give us such a task?

Is she high on something?

It was the end of the midsummer break, I realised, the month I ran away from my house. I looked around my small room. It wasn't comfortable but it did give me the homely feeling I craved. The paint was wearing off but the memories associated with it, made me want to hold it closer. The room where I cried on lonely nights, where I prepared my first gift for him. A handkerchief with a flower embroidered in it. The number of times I stabbed my fingers, made me laugh at the past me. I was such a fool. A blind fool.

Removing the wishlist from under my bed, I struck off the first point.

Find your prince charming

Written with a gold glittery pen. I cringed at the word prince charming. I completed my first wish in my last lifetime. I found him. But wasn't able to make him fall for me. I lacked what she had in her. After all, they were lovers for two lifetimes. And I was simply an unwanted rose who came in between them. But in the end, they were together, happily married and far away from the house I haunted. I smirked as I realised that I subconsciously made their feelings towards each other stronger. I was a villainess in my last life born with the task to make Pari and Sid fall for each other. But this time I have to make him fall for me. At any cost.

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I entered the school gate aware of the commotion that's gonna take place inside. In my last life, he didn't fall for me because I was me. Karthik hated me because I was me. But what if I start acting like her? Like a delicate white lotus who needs support from men. I came prepared for that. Instead of the black T-shirt, I wore a white kurta to symbolise the pureness of my soul which faded away. I was a dark soul. An evil soul reincarnated to fulfil some petty tasks for the goddess's entertainment. But I wasn't gonna play fair this time around. They will see the worst of me. An evil smile lit on my face when I saw Sid standing at the college entrance with his other friends.

Bitches the show has begun again

I acted oblivious to him ignoring his enchanting presence as I walked in. I could see numerous eyes on me excited for a show. No show for you bitches. My hair was let down, straightened and shiny. I did simple makeup to look like a traditional girl who held onto values.

I stopped as someone blocked my path. I didn't have to look at his face to know it was him. I could feel his presence. Easily recognise his cologne. Not looking at his face I sidestepped and walked away. But his hand caught my wrist and stopped me yet again. Looking at his beautiful face I noticed the smile on his face and a hope developing in his eyes.

"Unhand me now!" I exclaimed in an irritated tone. His face went pale as he released my wrist.

"I am so sorry. I like your style" He said to me his eyes trying to enchant me. I blinked my eyes not looking at his. Not willing to fall for him again. I smiled at him revealing my dimples.

"Oh really?" I asked him in a sweet voice. He nodded his head.

"Do you believe in love at first sight? As I have fallen for you" He said those words. A lot of oohs were heard and I walked closer to him.

"I don't believe in love," I said to him. My eyes revealed my honesty. Love is an illusion. The illusion that led me to my downfall. I noticed his eyes widening as he brought me close to him. Trying to kiss me.

I turned my face away so his lips landed on my cheeks. I pushed him away as soon as his eyes flew open.

"I don't kiss strangers and-" I smiled at him sweetly continuing "You lost"

The two words carried more than what he understood. He lost this time as I knew the true him. How unattached he was, I have experienced it all. My heart felt bitter as I walked away from him. I guess I am still the pathetic woman crazy in love.

"I will seek revenge from the ones who wronged me in my last lifetime"

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So this is chapter 1 of Eyes on her lipstick. I hope y'all like it.

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