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Warning : Contains depressing thoughts, suicidal acts, bloods and murdering.
If you are not comfortable with this, Please step away for your own good.

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Is it true?
Experience life through the eyes of a child
Then we will be able to see all the magic and wonder the world has to offer.

But...

I don't remember seeing anything magical when I was a child.
That was when it all began.

THE PAIN

She walked away with my Brothers without explanation.
Did I do something wrong?
My father swore that we'd be together forever.
In the end, He couldn't do anything.
That was the only time I had seen him so powerless.
He insisted that it wasn't, But I couldn't help but wonder...

...Was I a bad kid?

Was it my fault that they left?

"We'll be happy again."

My father told me... "Be strong."

So I started telling myself everything is going to be okay.
I'm going to be happy again.
But why is everyone being so cold to me?

Please. Just tell me why...
Why are they doing this to me?
What have I done wrong?
To be treated like this?

I wanted to make friends
But they all pushed me away
What went wrong?
Why won't anybody tell me?
They tell me to go away
That nobody wants me here!

"Kill yourself!"

Not here.
Not anywhere.

"Stay strong." I just tell myself.
As they call me terrible names.
Don't let them weaken you with their words.

"Stay strong."
Even when they judge you.

"Stay strong." I just tell myself.
As their backs face towards me.

"Stay strong."

As they walk away from me.
How long can I keep this up?
It's getting harder to hide the pain.
It feels like I'm suffocating.
I don't care about happiness anymore.
I just want to feel okay again.

"Okay."
Is all i need.

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[tock]

[tick]

[tock]

The clock was ticking, Every seconds of life passed by, Going to a new life and changes in everyone. Every humans born, have fun as a kid, school, work, forming a happy family and getting old. Death is where life ended. Everything is just the same repeating world, A cycle of life. But different for monsters.

It's hard to have babies and generations of monsters. Humans kept despising them and some of them even kill monsters, Babies, Old monsters were just the same. They will always get killed. Some receives abuse from humans, But there are some Lucky monsters that get nice treatment from the humans. Monsters will just die. Illness, Abuse, Suicide or Murdered were the either way of them to die.

But for a certain monster, He will change everyone's life.

He is an angel that comes to the earth to fix all the chaos and misunderstanding. He will leave soon all the problems fixed. He's just someone who will come and leave in this life. He was nothing, Just a monster that had a big heart who had been through lots of challenge in his life and accept his fate. His name was Error.

~ E R R O R ~

We all will never know how fast the time flew pass by, We won't realize it at all till someone leaves us. We didn't realize how much we had been through, How many happy memories, sad past and funny moments had happened around us. Our eyes will open wide once we had found our way to freedom.

Just let it flow~

"Be strong." I told myself as I inhaled some airs inside my lungs and let it out slowly. I closed my diary book after I finished writing those words. Writing my life in diary was my hobby since kid, I don't know why but I feel calmer when I tell my diary what happens in my life. I also don't know why a boy like me love to write diary like this. That sounds feminine don't you think?

But let me tell you something, I had always dreamt about writing books that had a touching content with a bitter sweet scenario. I want my readers to melt at the fluff and cuddling time between couples, I want my readers to cry with happiness when they read such a touching content yet I want my readers laugh at something funny I write. It's just a dream, I know it's such a ridiculous dream to be come true.

Only true people with potentials that will be able to write such a beautiful story without having grammar mistakes, wrong spellings, and mixing content. I let out a small sigh as I stretched my hands to the ceiling as it lets out a satisfying pop sounds. I slowly stood up from my bed as I grabbed my diary and put it in my bag.

"Meow~"

I flinched at the sudden soft yet cute sound. I looked over my shoulder and saw a small black tom with one white paw, ice blue eyes, glossy fur, and had a torn left ear. His name was Scourge, My cute little kitty pet. He wore a purple collar that studded with teeth from dogs and cats. He was around 4 years old to 5 years old since the day I found him in a box, Beside my trash can.

I bent down in front of him and stretched out my skeletal hands to him. He meowed again as his paws raised into the air and touched my hands. I let out soft giggles as both of our eyes met together, I always had loved him even tho he wasn't perfect. He is perfect in my eyes and no one can say otherwise to me.

I grabbed a tin of fish from my bag as I opened it carefully. I walked to his eating bowl and poured 3 tunas from the tin. Scourge perked up from the smell of his delicious meal and immediately ran to his eating bowl and bit on his meal. Sometimes I wonder why cats can't eat vegetables, If they don't eat vegetables, they will be alright. If humans or monsters don't eat vegetables, they will be sick.

"Heh I'm being so random." I giggled as I looked at the view from my window. A cold wind past by as birds were chirping a nice melody and leaves were falling from the trees. Autumn. My eyes sparkled in wonder as I walked to the window and opened them widely. I stretched out my hand as an orange mixed with dark brown leaf fell on it.

"School is starting." I mumbled as the day passed by.

[drip]

[drip]

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Tears were falling down from a certain skeleton boy. "D-dad please... I-I'm sorry!" He coughed heavily as salty tears kept falling down, He tried wipe them off, But instead new tears started forming even more till he couldn't stop it anymore. He was sitting in the corner of his room while his abusive dad was standing in front of him with a belt in his hand.

"Because of you... She left us. What a useless child!" The abusive dad growled as he slammed his belt at the poor kid's head. More cries were heard but none of the neighbour dare to check what it is. They probably don't care what was happening or was too afraid to take risks. They don't even call the police, Thinking it's just some kind of movie night or a drama movie, But it wasn't.

The kid was suffering tonight, Without any help from anyone. He was all alone, hated by his dad, being thrown away by his mom and pushed away by his friends. "P-please! S-sorry... I-It hurts!" Comes the pleading again from the damaged kid. Some red print were on his face which stings and close to bleeding.

"What a pathetic child! That pain wasn't as hurt as the pain your mother left you! You think that she will come back by saying sorry!?" The dad yelled as he slammed his belt to the kid again, and again, and again till bloods came out from the same wounds. Some wounds even re-opened because of the damage he had caused.

"God create a mistake like you! You aren't suppose to be alive! You were a failed creation!" Again, come down another belt to his head. At this state, The kid couldn't say anything because the exhaustion of screaming too much, dehydrated by loss tears, and dizzy by blood loss. The kid only could laid there, breathing painfully as dried tears stained on his face.

"If only you don't exist, This won't happen!! What a useless child!" He yelled again as he dropped the whip. If you think it stops here then you are wrong. He grabbed a bottle of alcohol and drank it till empty. He became even more drunk as he lost his sanity, He didn't realize that he was hitting his own kid right now. He wasn't the one who in control, He wasn't in his sense.

He threw the bottle at the kid, Luckily it doesn't hit his head or any part of his body. It cracked down on the floor and some pieces of glass flew, Hit his legs and some torn his clothes. "Don't ever talk to me if you are not perfect yet." He sighed before walking to the sofa as he fell unconscious. His body went limp as he fell on the sofa while the kid slowly stood up, Crawling to his room.

Despite from having terrible injuries, The kid couldn't help but wonder, "...Was it my fault they left?"

The small boy looked at the ceiling with so much shame of himself. He knew he wasn't perfect, He knew he was a mistake, He knew he was supposed to be dead. He couldn't cry anymore, He couldn't. His tears had dried. Crying won't solve anything. It will never solve any mistakes.

"Stay strong."

He won't ever break the way his dad did. He had learnt that by breaking will cause a lot of misery to others and won't be healthy for himself. He will keep all the pain to himself instead of lashing it out to other. He will bottle up his misery and negative emotions and wore a mask. A mask called fake smile or fake laugh. He will wear it everyday in his life.

"Stay strong."

People will only see the truth from his eyes. Eyes Full of Words.

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[Author's Note : There will be some changing plots. The plots will tell you flashback, what happen now or what was someone's dream.

Cover book was made by midnight_diary

Error was abused by his father. His mom and his brothers left both of them alone for a reason. He doesn't want to look like a teenage girl who is depressed and need help, Instead he bottles up his misery to contain himself.

He wore a mask which called smile to hides the pain from others. Mask had holes in it which were in the eyes part. People can't see your expression through your mask but they can see your eyes so that's where the title comes from.

He won't abuse others, He will make others happy instead. Dark pass only could do two things to people. Make them emotionless because they were numb to the pain or make them care for others even more because they don't want the others to feel the same. In this state Error changes into the second option. He cares for others more than about himself.]

"Okay."
Is All I need ~ E