Phil's pov

Dan has been laying on the floor for two hours now. It's 11:53 and I'm sure he is hungry by now so I'm going to make him a sandwich and some cereal for myself. I pass the hallway on the way to the kitchen and ruffle his hair the only reaction I get from dan is a groan I smile at him and leave towards the kitchen.

Once I arrive at the kitchen I make dan a sandwich and pour some cereal for myself. I head towards the hallway and hand the sandwich to dan he says he is not hungry but I insist I recently noticed dan does not eat whenever he is having an 'existential crisis' I am getting kind of worried about dan he is recently been very off and having a lot of existential crisis. Maybe I should try and get him to go to a therapist or something I wouldn't want anything to happen to him. I place my bowl on the floor and sit down next to dan. I decide I'm going to try and engage in a conversation with him about going to a doctor.

"Hey, dan I think maybe you should go to a doctor you have lately been kind of sad what do you think?"

I look at him and notice he has a panicked expression I am getting verry worried now.

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Dan's pov

I've been having an existencial crisis for two hours now I have been very depressed lately. I read some of the comments on my youtube account saying that im 'ugly' 'worthles' 'fat' and other things and im starting to belive them, of course my fans protect me and say to them that is not true and that they love me but when I get rude or mean comments it feels like if they are twice the size and I focuse more on them that in comments that my fans make don't get me wrong I still read and get happy over the comments that my fans write but rude comments always affect me a lot more. I know that most of my fans love me because of phil he is a wonderful person and is always nice to everyone, me on the hand im horible and not funny I still don't understand how I have more followers than phil, he deserves better than I do and I am lucky that he is my friend. If he wasnt I don't know where I would be today.

Phil passes next to me and ruffles my hair, I groan. I hear him leave towards the kitchen and I return back to my thoughts. A couple of minutes later Phil comes back with a bowl of cereal and a sandwich. He offers me the sandwich and I decline, I don't feel like eating right now. I haven't really felt like eating these last few days, Phil keeps insisting until I finally accept. I higher my head and take a bite out of the sandwich, Phil sits down quietly next to me until he starts to talk.

"Hey, Dan I think maybe you should go to a doctor you have been kind of sad lately what do you think?"

I start to panic, I can't go to a doctor, I am scared of doctors. Phil sensing this places his hand on my back and starts rubbing circles on it.

"Its okay dan, I will come with you and stay with you the whole time"

I look over at Phil and see he has a sad expression I decide I will go if Phil comes with me, maybe a doctor could help me.

"Fine but you have to stay with me the whole time" I say looking over at him and smiling he smiles back and responds

"Sure thing dan I'll do everything in my power to make you happy"

I smile at him again and go back to eating my sandwich if only Phil knew that the thing that would make me happiest is to be with him.

Phil finishes his cereal and takes his plate to the kitchen. I finish my sandwich and go back into existential crisis mode, Phil passes next to me pats my back and tells me he is going to his room to take a nap and that he will come back and check up on me later, I grunt in response and he leaves I watch him while he leaves and sigh I wish he could be mine.

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Writers note:

So hey guys this is my first fanfiction how do you think it's going so far? Please tell me if you like it or not and tell me if you have any ideas on how to make it better love you guys and hope you are having a good day.

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