You don't have any idea how desperate it can get, do you? When your head is so full of racing thoughts you just wanna crack it to release all those thoughts and finally get a break to catch your breath. When an inner voice keeps screaming that you should give up trying, that you only mess things up no matter how hard you try not to, that everyone would be better off without you! Do you understand? And sometimes, I just wanna scream out all the thoughts in my head, that somebody may hear me! Maybe when I scream out all the toxic thoughts filling up my head, then there'll be space left for good.
Oh, if they only understood the violence it takes to become so gentle. - excerpt from a story I'll never write