Because there was never a place reserved for me in the upper ranks, but neither was it down here among those people I learnt to love. [In the meantime I'll just float in between, hoping to find a place to go and a place to stay.] But as bitter as it sounds, I've never felt at home here, as much as I wanted to, I've always felt out of place, and there must be a reason. I knew it all along that there was a reason. I've been waiting a long time to accept it myself, but my time is running out and there's never been a place for me here. - excerpt from a story I'll never write